My name is Vanessa and I have struggled with self-injury for more than 30 years, and anorexia for 20 years. In a quest to understand the reasons behind my behavior, I entered an intensive therapy program and the insight I gained was so valuable, I decided to share my story with others. Comes the Darkness, Comes the Light is a story of self-injury and redemption. By understanding some of the root causes behind my self-injury, I was able to go forward on a path to healing and have just celebrated my first year injury free!
I would love to have you visit my blog and respond to some of my entries!
I've created a new community called ed_sorority. It is a community to support people with eating disorders. Open membership & hopefully lots of new members. Feel free to join =) !
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I'm going Vegan.
I hope it helps me lose weight.
Since most people don't randomly read comments I decided that I would post this message that someone gave me. I don't know the answers and so I was hoping someone would be able to help.
"i apologize this has nothing to do with this post but i dont have a livejournal so i cant post an entry and thats why im posting anonymous (paranoid) but i had some questions about purging. how long should you wait to throw up after you eat and should u throw up everything-im guessing yea to that but sometimes everything doesnt come up, and why do they say bulimics only lose an average of ten pounds? is that really true? why cant bulimics lose more? i've been ana for 4 years but recently turned mia once i got to college. i throw up after everything i eat and i feel like im losing a little bit of weight but idk i dont have a scale here. i dont throw up until at least 15 20 mins after i eat just because i dont have a chance too until then. would that be why im not losing weight? because i need to throw up sooner after i eat? im sorry im desperate for answers. i feel so alone right now with so many questions. i think the girls in my hall are starting to figure it out and i feel like everyones talking about it behind my back or im just paranoid again. please if anyone knows anything please let me know"
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Hello, I am Maya. I have struggled with anorexia since I was in seventh grade. I am ready to make new friends and get tips and share my stories with you all. Do you guys have any tips for Halloween?
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I LOST 10 LBS!!!! I am so happy. Today when I woke up, I weighed in at 131 lbs! Last week it was 137 and before that it was 140. It's a miracle.
I am so happy!
I've been fasting for 24 hours now. I hope it'll continue to work so well!
The old plan failed...
I ended up really sick and still sick because I got a cold. So I was forced to eat supper. And since I said I would punish myself if I ate, then I drank ipecac syrup and puked up everything I ate that night. It was terrible. I felt so terrible and of course my parents found out that I was puking so I just said I felt terrible and they just thought-stomach bug/birth control side effects.
So I ate these past two days since that night. But I know I have to stop.
So I have a new plan. Slowly eliminating the foods I can eat until there are none.
I'm a vegetarian now.
Then I'll become vegan.
Then I'll eliminate pastries and high fat foods.
Then vegetables.
Then fruits.
Then I'll have nothing to eat.
But if I come down slowly-I'll stop binging.
Wish me luck!
