This weekend I really binged.. I feel so sick... My tummy hurts and I feel fat fat fat ! The most sad thing is that I've lost my faith in my diet. I think I should change my diet, because I want to lose weight fast!
I have some questions though.. My girlfriend keeps telling me that ppl cant lose weight fast. Everybody who has about 10kg or more to lose, has to be on a diet at least one year.
I dont should I believe her or not..? What kind of experiences you have? I'd really like to hear your stories and points of view. Actually I need them so bad!
I once went from 62 kg to 48kg in 6months. But that was long time ago and I dont know can I do it again. I dont even remember what did I do back then to succes.
Now I'm 72kg and I'd like to go to 60 kg as fast as possible. I'd be happy even if I lost 5kg. I just need to lose my weight fast, because I'm so fed up with myself. I really want this to end.
Oh, I almost forgot! If somebody is wondering what my eating disorder is, I can tell you. I think I had anorexia (or something like that) when I was 11-14 years old. But when I got older, I started to binge and throw up. Then I stopped throwing up and these days I just binge, but I dont do anything else. So that's the reason why I'm so fat now.
I joined here today, because today I became to my breaking point.
Introduction: I've always struggled with my weight. Because I have always been a short person (160cm) I cant weight so much. On years 2004-2007 I managed to maintain pretty thin body, I was 160cm and 48-53 kg. But during these past two years, I've gained weight a lot. Now I'm 71 kg. In winter I was 75 kg, and then I started a diet. I had lots of problems to keep my diet going, so I couldnt lose weight because I sometimes did some over eating.
I've always eated too little or TOO MUCH.
Well, today I was pretty proud of myself, because I thought I'm beginnig to look good, though I'm still fatty. But my dad and stepmother crushed me. They called me fat and they said I look like my sister. She is very overweight. I think I'm still not like THAT. But still they are saying things like that.. I almost cried..
Now I dont know what to do. I was so proud that I started diet again one week ago, and I thought I'm beginning to look better little by little. But now I lost all my self confidence and I dont know do I believe in my diet anymore.
Okay, so I don't have a ED. But I need to loose weight. Fast.
I started my 'diet' today. I know. I'm really desperate.
I have a plan going on. But I don't know how long it will last. I just need encouragement.
I made this journal just for dieting. Keeping track. All of that. I don't want any of my friends to be suspicious or be worried. I will have it under control
I'm a little frightened of what might happen. But I am pushing those thoughts away. Once I reach my idea weight everything will get better. And that should be by the end of August. After that. I will exercise normally. Eat Healthy. A lot more. But Healthy. I promise myself and everyone that.
I wish i know why some one would start something and then never finish it or do what they are post to like keep people the in they Community it still what ever but i back in this bitch and ready to causes hell... mmm
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