I know I've been terrible at updating this, but I'm still around. My reason for updating is threefold. Let's get right to it:
I am getting ready to start my business - tarot reading. I'm asking for three different things from anyone who reads this - feel free to scroll on by if none applies to you.
1. I need someone to design my business card. 2. I need someone to design my website. 3. I need several someoneones to get me (even more) used to reading & answering questions.
If you're interested in helping in any of these, or know someone who would be, drop me a comment here OR if you'd prefer, email me at upswept aaaaaat gmail dooooot com.
AAAAAH HARRY POTTER IN FIVE DAYS WHAT AM I GOING TO DOOOO.
Okay, now that THAT's out of my system. I bought a golden snitch necklace/locket & a pair of Spectra-Specs (the funky glasses Luna wears), hopefully they'll get here before the premiere because I really want something snazzy to wear. YES I AM A GEEK.
In other news, I've got icon block like nobody's business. I'm making some bases for a meme over at OI, so hopefully that will unblock me at least a little. I have 20in20s to do, man!
Also, Dad & I signed up for a gym, and I'm going to get a personal trainer. Due to various health conditions & not enough exercise, I'm badly out of shape AND all of my clothes are too small/tight, so something NEEDS TO BE DONE. Prepare to hear me complaining, though, because it's gonna suck until my body adapts.
Let's see what else. Going to Goodwill tomorrow with Dad to shop for some new clothes. I'm so pro-thrift store, it's not even funny! I need some jeans and shirts and maybe a skirt or two, because my wardrobe is sooo small right now.
I THINK THAT IS ALL. Just wanted to update to get in the habit. And I have done that!
I'm going to try to update this thing again. I have to warn you guys, my life isn't hot hot stuff right now - I'm taking a semester off from community college (psych major) and spend most of my time on the computer, making icons or playing World of Warcraft.
I'm actually happy these days, which is good stuff. I stopped going to Avalon, my LARP - it was a great year, but in the end just wasn't a good fit. When I think back on it, I can only cringe at bad memories; I haven't yet come to the point where I can remember/smile at the good stuff.
OI is booming, & C. and I started a challenge community that I'm super proud of, be_obsessive. It's got 123 members and has only been open for a few weeks! Go me and my crazy promoting skillz & everyone who helped by pimping us and spreading the word.
I just got into World of Warcraft again and I have a Worgen - a werewolf. WITH A TOP HAT. Hello, yes, my life is complete. I might never take the top hat off.
That's all for now. Here's to keeping this thing updated.
I feel like I'm coming of age. I feel like I'm coming into my own power - as an adult, as a person of substance. I feel confident, and self-assured, strong, powerful. I feel like I can get through anything, do anything, be anything. I feel like my world is made up of possibilities, endless opportunities and wonderful chances. I feel like the universe is sending good things my way - or perhaps it's me, my power, that's creating good things.
I'm happy. Truly, actually, literally happy. This weekend was next to perfect. I feel wrapped in contentment, and it warms and comforts me.
Of course, I'm suspicious of such joy. How long will it last? Will it hurt when it ends? What if I just end up disappointed yet again?
But mostly, I bask in the glow of my happiness, mentally replaying this weekend over and over in my brain. I deserve this happiness - it is my due after so much pain.
I think I'm doing better. It's always hard to tell, I'm better at noticing how bad I'm feeling than how good. However, I've been noticing less bad. So assuming less bad equals good, then I'm good. Or. Better, anyway. Not quite to good yet.
I have a LARP event in a little over a week. I check in Friday afternoon, leave Sunday morning. I have to bring my own food. No way to cook it, no perishables. Can bring a cooler, though. With my weird tastes, it'll be quite a feat to actually have food I can bring.
I'll probably end up with lots of crackers and almonds. And chocolate. Maybe lollipops. Or trail mix. If anyone has any suggestions for filling non-perishable food - preferably stuff that tastes good - I value all suggestions. Of course, I'm deeply neurotic about food, but suggestions are always good.
So I still have trouble writing in this regularly, but figured I'd give whoever reads this an update in my life.
In more or less chronological order: Good: I met a boy online, fell hard. Bad: I broke up with him. Bad: The breakup triggered several other bad things, such as my depression and anxiety getting worse. Bad: Suffered a weird spurt of appetite, where I started eating over twice as much as usual. Good: Didn't gain any weight. Bad: Due to the depression, lost interest in MUSHing. Good: Was asked to staff at a Buffy MUSH, which restored some of my interest. Good: Found an author, Philippa Gregory, whose historical fiction I enjoy. Good: Started playing Subeta with renewed interest, and have been enjoying it thoroughly. Bad: Due to the bad stuff happening earlier in the list, my focus has been deteriorating. Therefore, I have gotten very little done and have trouble doing anything for long (as in more than 30 minutes) periods of time. Good: I found a LARP group in my area. Bad: I was too freaked out, at the time, to go to an event. Good: A little while later, I made an account on their forums and started talking to people. Good: I went to my first event yesterday, and made a friend. Bad: My internet went down, nearly causing a panic attack. Good: It's back up, and I have backups of my files. Good: I've started iconing again. Bad: My focus is still terrible, so I haven't been getting very much done. Good: My doctor's appointment is Wednesday. Bad: I still have a hard time getting through each day.
My periods have been really rough lately. I think this started in May, or maybe June - I've been getting periods since I was 10, and they've been pretty normal. I'd get cramps, need Ibuprofen, get cravings, and it'd all be over in a week.
However, a year or two ago, I went nearly a year without getting a period, and put on a lot of weight really suddenly (until then, I'd been almost underweight, with a really fast metabolism).
I have a soft spot for two eras: the era of the flappers, and the era of the beatniks. I've been told that I am a beatnik, and even dressed up as one during one memorable Halloween in Woodstock.
As I cannot choose between one or the other, I say that I would simply alternate. One week flappers, one week beatniks, or maybe each month would alternate (weeks could get confusing).
As I've never been to a bar, I can't answer that properly, however I did have two instances in the Borders I don't go to anymore with people buying me things.
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