hey what are you doing reading the ending first. read the other one first you goof.
well this is just how i feel. lately ive been feeling kinda weird. even when im out doing something surrounded my a bunch of people i feel lonely. i was telling my self its nothing and just pushed it away. then i realized that i was missing you the whole time. i dont know what it is for why but when im not with you i feel this sadness in me. and when we are together it goes ways but then it come back when i realize that i have to leave you. ive thought about it and figured out that this sadness is because i love you. ive loved you for a while but just havent found the words to tell you. i hope i do soon cuz i really do love you. theres just one thing that im hoping for when i tell you. that is that you love me too. it feels so good just to post it here im wondering now how it will feel when i can tell you in person. i can only hope and wonder for now but that time will come soon.
well i havent posted in a couple of days so i figured im going to type a crap load tonight. ive just been doing other things and havent gotten around to posting. well for nothing too exciting has happened since last time. ive been working and well working. lol but it all paid off today when i got my paycheck. $227. not too much but more than i expected. we also had our schedule pick up today. i got the classes i signed up for and ive got orion and george in some of my classes. that will make the classes much better. well heres my schedule.1-AP Biology 2-Physics 3-NJROTC 4- AP Calculus 5- English 6- History. its not too bad of a year from the looks of it. and rotc seem to have turned out good too. i got a kick ass job next year in rotc. im the OPS officer. im in charge of the teams commander, training commander and public affairs. its going to be cool. well seeing everyone today was a plus to everything. it was just like last year. we just hung out and talked and it was like we werent even one summer break. i even got to see jessie today(first time in like a week)
well there are only 2 more days left until my parents leave. i cant wait. ill have the car and the house to myself for 10 days. so cool. thursday would be a great day except for one little thing. someone that is a great friend to me is leaving to college that day too. she will be missed but im looking forward to seeing her at ATT. you will be missed but not forgotten amelia a.k.a. fearless leader.
oh yah i finally had the talk with my parents. the what are your plans talk. well i told them and they seemed happy that i have been thinking about it. and for those of you who want to know im staying here. i just dont see the point in leaving. i was born and raised here and well dont want to leave. im going to join the air national guard and go to college here. well thats all i got thought out now but hey i got a year.
got sick some how. ended up vomiting at 300 in the morning and at 6. first time ive done that in a while. well spent most of the day on the couch and resting. watched tv and tried to eat somethings but didnt eat much. well im off to check my email and other things. hopefully i get better and dont have to call in sick again. cya
spent most of today on the city bus. sounds bad but i had great company(jessie). we were seeing what busses she needs to take to get to chaminade and back. well took us a while but we figured it out. it turns out she needs to take 3 busses to get there. crazy huh. but on the bus we say what was around the area and well there are some fun places and places to go. it look like a fun place to go to college.
well after figuring out what busses to take we went to california pizza kitchen for lunch. they were so bussy. we got a pager that would buzz when the table was ready. so went went walking around for a little. we got back just in time for our table. we ordered and just talked as we waited for out pizzas. well i guess that while we were talking 30 min pasted and well our pizzas werent here yet. then this guys comes up and is like we are sorry but the cook lost your orders and well since you were waiting so long we will take care of your pizzas. we were like cool. so we got lunch there for only 5.15(the cost of a fudge brownie we shared). we left and went down to catch the bus home. jessie ended up falling asleep right away. she looked so perfect and peaceful sleeping there. i was so happy just to be with her. im glad i with her now.
after getting back i rode bike to tasha's house for her get together before she leaves. riding there was soo fun. it was raining hard the whole way there. it was soo much fun.lol there we just watched movies and ate. it was nice to see her before she goes. of course she got all tearie eyed when we left cuz well thats the last time we will see her for a while. you will be missed a lot tasha.
got home and worked out a little before i took a shower. things are going great for me now. i cant believe that things actually turned out for me. and im glad they did. i wouldnt go back and change a thing if i could.
well i went hiking again to the falls. this time i went with lindsey, sarah, nina and her sister. we went this time cuz nina wanted to go there before she left and well she leaves tomorrow so we went today. it was easier this time and not that bad. it was good spending time with a friend that i knew for a few years before she left the islands. the only bad part was that a certain someone wasnt there but she was out shopping for college stuff so its ok with me. i just wish i could spend sometime with her.
when i got home i took a shower and right as i finished my mom yelled into the bathroom that i had company and i was like who the hell is here. i got dressed(of course) and went out to see who it was. i told tasha she could come over anytime before she left to see kozmo and well she did. she brought meghann and her friend sara. they stayed for a while talking and playing with kozmo(my dog by the way) and then i drove them to tasha's.
we also went to orion's dad's birthday BBQ at 4:00. it was really enjoyable but once again could have been better if someone was there.(lol not trying to make you feel bad. just letting you know your missed every much) we ended up eating and talking the whole time it was laid back and just fun. good stories and really good food. we only played a little of video games while we were there and it was orion's uncle that started it. in the end the party was great. spending 3 days over there while my parents are in chicago is going to worth not going with the family.
that brings me to now. i got to shower and i might play some FFX and go to sleep. i got work at 8:00 in the morning again. but oh well, can i do. its not that bad. oh yah i finally did it. i captured 10 of every creature in the game. i still do got his last creation though. ill check tonight. im going to play that game until my characters and kick some major @$$. they can now but they can be better. well that enough for now.
today was actually pretty darn good even though i had to work from 1030 until 7. at least it was with the the taste masters and not bagging. anyways after work i ran home got the car and i was off once again. i got to the mall before amelia and orion. im good. we met there along with lindsey, sarah, nina, ryan and pat. oh yah erwin showed up too. we saw harold and humar go to white castles. it was soo funny, dumb but funny. it was a good way to end the night. the only bad part of it was jessie wasnt there but she was tired from going to she sisters grad from marine leadership. way to go Alex. so she stayed home. but hey i got to talk to her. and by the way if you are reading this jessie im sry about all the calls(like 5) but i cant be held responsible for my actions when i miss you. anyways im going to go to sleep now cuz im tired as a.........well i dont know but im really tired. cya later.
i planed on doing my AP summer work but guess what? the closest i came to my book was me sitting on my bed and it being in my book cabinet. however, its not like i was sitting on my butt all day. i had to get up early today to make it to work on time. i got up at frickin 630 in the morning!! that four hours before i usually get up. i cant believe that i have to get up like that again one more time this week(sunday). but i cant complain cuz working the mornings is soo much easier than working at night or dureing the day, plus you still have time to do things during the day with friends(which i did today) i got home and before i ate lunch and got ready for the fricken pool, by the way we barley swim while we are there) i called jy great girlfriend. we only talked for like 30 min(shortest time we talked when i wasnt using my cell) and that little time made me feel better about the morning.
like i said at the pool we dont swim much. we do a little then me mess around a lot trying to do stupid things under water and stuff like that. but being in the water feels so good during the summer when its so hot out. while we were swimming orion got this crazy idea to do running again. we ended up asking amelia to come with cuz she was on AIM then. we met at the beach and ran, well if you call what we did running. we ran, walked, ran , walked and kept walking. even though we didnt get much of a work out it was good just talking and hanging out with them. theres nothing like spending time with close friends like amelia and orion are to me. plus i didnt mind walking and talking. i am still sore for yesterday when i worked out. my chest was so sore for the push ups i did. i didnt do too many but i had my feet on a chair and my hands on stools so i could go lower when doing push ups. you really work your muscles when you do that, im still feeling it now. lol and i think there is something wrong with my knee now. the back of my right knee really hurts when i walk. its kinda weird. oh well, hopefully it will go away by tomorrow.
well orion stayed at my house for a while after running the beach. we played smash bros melee. he beat me some of the time and i won some of the time. it was fun but got boring after a while. i took him home after eating of course. and after i dropped him off i dont know why but i started to miss someone. guess who. lol. i miss spending time with jessie and i started to wonder what she was doing and started to think of her. every day i dont do something with her or see her i end up missing her at night a little( sometimes a lot) and i think i figured out why but im not going to tell you. well not yet.:-p
ok, the dork in me is going to type now. i am soo close to capturing all the creatures in FFX i only need 3 more tonberries in the sunken cave to capture 10 of all the creatures. when i captured all of them put the tonberries i went to the guy and the gave me 99 dark matter. i can put damage break on Lulus weapon since i cant do her challenge. so happy. i going to play tonight and try and capture the remaining 3. i can feel it, im going to do it. and by the way the creatures that guy makes are impossible to kill. so cheat. oh well. (man i spend too much time on this darn game. actually i spent 164 hours and 32 mins on it.:-O)
Well today turned out to be a very great day. it didnt start too good but as soon as i left the house things started to look up. well first of all i was woken up by this beeping sound at 5:15 in the morning and i couldnt go back to sleep. it turns out it was the neighbors alarm and they werent home to shut if off. i dont think anything was wrong though. well i ended up leaving the house at 8:something and got my pay check then i was off to the bus stop. got on the bus for kaneohe. i picked up my proofs for my senior picture(they turned out better then i thought they would) and told them what one i wanted in the year book. after that i ended up spending most of the day with jessie at her house just hanging out and watching/helping her with things on her computer. she kept forgetting what she was doing. lol. she scanned a couple of my pictures she liked while we were there. we had something to eat. i really like hanging around jessie a lot. she makes it seem like nothing else matters and i can just think about her and that we are doing and worry about nothing else. she is very special to me.
well thats what i did so far today. later on, maybe as soon as im done here im going to work out some to get really tired. i need to go to sleep early cuz i got to get up early and go to work at 8 in the morning. i might find some time for FFX.lol :-b
well i didnt get my pay check today. i got busy swimming and running the beach with orion and his dad. i though i was in worse shape then i actually am. running the beach wasnt that hard. i guess ill go get my pay check tomorrow before i go to pick up my proof for my senior pictures. ive logged over 7 more hours on FFX. im capturing all the creatures and trying to complete the sphere grids for every one. i only got a few more creatures and wakka almost has a complete sphere grid. its so cool that im almost complete with the game, 100%. ill finish it before the summer is over. anyways. gonna go look for some more weights tomorrow cuz i need more and now that i got money i can get some. hope fully i can find some somewhere on kailua
well i had to work today again, only the fourth day this week. at least i dont have to work anymore this week and i get paid tuesday so its even better. for some reason work seemed to go by pretty fast for some reason, but hey im not complaining. other than that i didtn do anything today. might work out again tonight like last night. i ended up lifting at like 10:00 last night. oh yah, not doing my AP work paid off the other day. Koopman(our teacher) called and said there were mistakes with the work sheets and stuff so doing it the way it was would have been really hard. lazy people score another, but i guess i should really get going on that homework. maybe tomorrow.
"why do today what you can do tomorrow. what is today but yesterdays tomorrow."(sponge bob square pants)
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