I apologize for all mistakes in this. I'm running on two hours sleep (which is the best part of my day) and shock.
tetsu_sama69 , I was going to chat with you on yahoo, but everytime, I was forced the hell off my phone.
Mom went in for the colon check, right? Well, one little thing went wrong, and had my mother at death's door today.
The doctor (who I totally hate now more than ever) found a paleap (sp?) and removed it to have it checked for cancer. Well, while doing so, he had burnt an artey in my mom's colon which had sunken under the tissue and sat there, forming, as Dr. Ravi later explained, a volcano like bubble. This exploded, and my mom began to bleed. She went to the bathtroom, and it was nothing but blood. The third time back, a whole load of nurses went running towards the restroom, and as you can imagin, I began to panic! I was all alone. Jackass and Mom fought last night, and he said he didn't care what happened to her, so that left me going with mom today.
They pulled her out on a gerny, and you guys, she was the same sick color as my Uncle Jack's corpse! She told me to go get Jason. I ran to the car, and went 55mph all the way to Grandma's, almost crashing four times. When I finally got there, I was balling, and ran to the basement and screamed, "MY mother is fucking bleeding to death! Get your useless ass out there, NOW!" and ran back through the house, ignoring my grandma, and threw the car keys right at the dickface.
We got there, and a nurse grabbed me by both arms, was face to face with me, "Calm down Holly. Do you have someone who can come out here with you? We're going to rush your mom to the ER." I nodded and went to see mom before my phone rang. It was Shannon. held it together until I was out of Mom's hearing range and broke down crying. She freaked and asked where I was. When she finally got the the place, she asked how mom looked, and I bluntly used Uncle Jack as a description. We both went to check on her, but had to leave and follow the ambulance. Dickface took the car, so I hitched a ride with Shannon.
In the ER, I had to fill out who knows what papers. They couldn't stabalize her. Blood was given to her. I was pretty much told, if worse comes to worse, everything would fall on me, being the oldest of her children. (Jason had no authority.)
They let shannon comeback and sit with me. Ash eventually came over to (missing school for a good reason). That's when I found out Dr. Ravi was doing the surgery. He was blunt. "If it's just the site the palep was removed, it's an easy surgery. If her colon has been punctured, her chances or survival are very slim with her blood pressure at 60 and she's lost 5 to 6 pints of blood."
I cannot for the life of me remember what happened from then to Shannon and Ash leaving. Waiting, worrying, no one telling us shit. I called my aunt in New York, my grandmother called every 15 minutes, and my blood pressure was through the roof. My hands are still shaking! *laugh*
I saw her though after she was in her room. she's pale, not looking dead. She's weak and in pain. I can't tell you how many times I've told her I've lover her from this morning when we were driving to the New Horizon surgery center (when everything was fine) to last seeing her, or how many times the fear of loosing my mom and my sisters (who would be forced to live with their dads) ran through my head, and hell, I can't tell you how I didn't murder Jason for wish my mother harm, but I've got a new appreciationg for those to whom I love most dearly.
I'm going back out in a minute to see her, and will be out there tomorrow the minute they let visitors in. I still can't grasp it. Something so damn simple almost killed my mom.
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