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decolonize your mind
25 Jun 2026 09:27 amWhat is decolonization, why is it important, and how can we practice it?
"In Decolonization is Not a Metaphor Tuck and Yang argue that the language of decolonization is often superficially adopted in moves of 'settler innocence'--moves that perpetuate ideas that settlers have a reduced or no responsibility in colonizing Indigenous land and people...According to Tuck and Yang, a common move of settler innocence occurs when people rely too heavily on the notion to ‘decolonize your mind,’ thinking, or knowledge...they note that while this can feel radical and transformative, it is not the sole or final step in decolonization. We cannot only dedicate ourselves to thinking about decolonizing, we must act to decolonize...Decolonization calls for decentering the narrative by which settlers romanticize Indigenous beliefs and surface culture (indigenization). It calls instead for deconstructing settler-imposed systems that continue to oppress Black, Brown, and Indigenous people. Moves of settler innocence domesticate decolonization’s demands of undoing colonialism, eliminating its gendered and racialized hierarchies, and establishing Indigenous sovereignty. The danger of the decolonization metaphor (such as ‘decolonize your mind’) is that it prevents us from actually decolonizing. 'It recenters whiteness, it resettles theory, it extends innocence to the settler, it entertains a settler future' rather than recentering Indigenous futures and sovereignty (Tuck and Yang 2012, 3, 35). A settler future is one where settlers can continue to benefit from colonialism and perhaps be minimally aware of their settler privileges...securing an Indigenous future necessitates substantive decolonial actions--actions we must explore and learn to implement. Framing who decolonization work is about and for is an integral step in moving forward with effective decolonial action."
Decolonization Is for Everyone | Nikki Sanchez | TEDxSFU
"ask yourself what you can do in your lifetime what you can do today and in your work and with your passions and with your gifts to start to dismantle a history that none of us should be proud of so that maybe we can offer our an inheritance for our future and ancestors for not only a planet that's livable but a social system and community that's equitable and just"
"In Decolonization is Not a Metaphor Tuck and Yang argue that the language of decolonization is often superficially adopted in moves of 'settler innocence'--moves that perpetuate ideas that settlers have a reduced or no responsibility in colonizing Indigenous land and people...According to Tuck and Yang, a common move of settler innocence occurs when people rely too heavily on the notion to ‘decolonize your mind,’ thinking, or knowledge...they note that while this can feel radical and transformative, it is not the sole or final step in decolonization. We cannot only dedicate ourselves to thinking about decolonizing, we must act to decolonize...Decolonization calls for decentering the narrative by which settlers romanticize Indigenous beliefs and surface culture (indigenization). It calls instead for deconstructing settler-imposed systems that continue to oppress Black, Brown, and Indigenous people. Moves of settler innocence domesticate decolonization’s demands of undoing colonialism, eliminating its gendered and racialized hierarchies, and establishing Indigenous sovereignty. The danger of the decolonization metaphor (such as ‘decolonize your mind’) is that it prevents us from actually decolonizing. 'It recenters whiteness, it resettles theory, it extends innocence to the settler, it entertains a settler future' rather than recentering Indigenous futures and sovereignty (Tuck and Yang 2012, 3, 35). A settler future is one where settlers can continue to benefit from colonialism and perhaps be minimally aware of their settler privileges...securing an Indigenous future necessitates substantive decolonial actions--actions we must explore and learn to implement. Framing who decolonization work is about and for is an integral step in moving forward with effective decolonial action."
Decolonization Is for Everyone | Nikki Sanchez | TEDxSFU
- "colonization is contingent on historical amnesia"
- "the intergenerational trauma thats also had to happen for settler people to be complicit in such a violent history" and "historical bystander trauma"
- indigenization by indigenous people (linguistic revitalization, ceremony, land based practice, land based defense) vs decolonization as "work that belongs to all of us"
- "what we can do is we can start to put spokes in wheels of oppression of movements that create our our social systems of inherent inequity"
- "learn who you are and where you came from. address the oppressive systems and histories that enable you to occupy the territory you now do. learn whose land you live on and what has been done to them. find out how you benefit from that history and activate one strategy wherein you can use your privilege from which to dismantle that. share the knowledge that the work of decolonization is for everyone"
"ask yourself what you can do in your lifetime what you can do today and in your work and with your passions and with your gifts to start to dismantle a history that none of us should be proud of so that maybe we can offer our an inheritance for our future and ancestors for not only a planet that's livable but a social system and community that's equitable and just"
rewilding part 1
15 Jun 2026 03:08 pm“An abolitionist vision means that we must build models today that can represent how we want to live in the future.”
“Decolonization is about 'cultural, psychological, and economic freedom' for Indigenous people with the goal of achieving Indigenous sovereignty...Colonialism is a historical and ongoing global project where settlers continue to occupy land, dictate social, political, and economic systems, and exploit Indigenous people and their resources. It is a global endeavor.”
“Decolonization is about 'cultural, psychological, and economic freedom' for Indigenous people with the goal of achieving Indigenous sovereignty...Colonialism is a historical and ongoing global project where settlers continue to occupy land, dictate social, political, and economic systems, and exploit Indigenous people and their resources. It is a global endeavor.”
We Need To Rewild The Internet
“It was a disaster so bad that a new word, Waldsterben, or ‘forest death,’ was minted to describe the result. All the same species and age, the trees were flattened in storms, ravaged by insects and disease — even the survivors were spindly and weak. Forests were now so tidy and bare, they were all but dead. The first magnificent bounty had not been the beginning of endless riches, but a one-off harvesting of millennia of soil wealth built up by biodiversity and symbiosis.
...That impulse to scour away the messiness that makes life resilient is what many conservation biologists call the ‘pathology of command and control.’ Today, the same drive to centralize, control and extract has driven the internet to the same fate as the ravaged forests. The internet’s 2010s, its boom years, may have been the first glorious harvest that exhausted a one-time bonanza of diversity.
...Our online spaces are not ecosystems, though tech firms love that word. They’re plantations; highly concentrated and controlled environments, closer kin to the industrial farming of the cattle feedlot or battery chicken farms that madden the creatures trapped within.
...the internet’s infrastructure — the pipes and protocols, cables and networks, search engines and browsers...determine how we build and use the internet, now and in the future.
...The internet made the tech giants possible. Their services have scaled globally, via its open, interoperable core. But for the past decade, they’ve also worked to enclose the varied, competing and often open-source or collectively provided services the internet is built on into their proprietary domains. Although this improves their operational efficiency, it also ensures that the flourishing conditions of their own emergence aren’t repeated by potential competitors.
...Google, Amazon, Microsoft and Meta are consolidating their control deep into the underlying infrastructure through acquisitions, vertical integration, building proprietary networks, creating chokepoints and concentrating functions from different technical layers into a single silo of top-down control. They can afford to, using the vast wealth reaped in their one-off harvest of collective, global wealth.
...Infrastructure is not just what we see on the surface; it’s the forces below, that make mountains and power tsunamis. Whoever controls infrastructure determines the future. If you doubt that, consider that in Europe we’re still using roads and living in towns and cities the Roman Empire mapped out 2,000 years ago.
...Consolidation doesn’t just squeeze out competition. It narrows the kinds of relationships possible between operators of different services. As Daigle put it: 'The more proprietary solutions are built and deployed instead of collaborative open standards-based ones, the less the internet survives as a platform for future innovation.' Consolidation kills collaboration between service providers through the stack by rearranging an array of different relationships — competitive, collaborative — into a single predatory one.
...what if we thought of the internet not as a doomsday 'hyperobject,' but as a damaged and struggling ecosystem facing destruction? What if we looked at [the internet] not with helpless horror at the eldritch encroachment of its current controllers, but with compassion, constructiveness and hope? Technologists are great at incremental fixes, but to regenerate entire habitats, we need to learn from ecologists who take a whole-systems view. Ecologists also know how to keep going when others first ignore you and then say it’s too late, how to mobilize and work collectively, and how to build pockets of diversity and resilience that will outlast them, creating possibilities for an abundant future they can imagine but never control. We don’t need to repair the internet’s infrastructure. We need to rewild it."
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Deepen Your Understanding of Decolonisation | Samantha Moyo | TEDxBrighton
"what does decolonial thinking entail? my theory is that we actually need to adopt decolonial thinking as a way to become decolonizers. so the first step is asking questions. whenever im given industry best practices or rules i ask whose rules are these, who created them, what heritage was the person who created those rules and what is the relevance of these rules in 2050?
the second piece is a willingness to be stripped bare. if the process of colonization was about dividing, conquering, and dominating, then the process of decolonization is about...de-armoring, humbling ourselves, and losing our sense of control and perceived power.
the third piece is humility...(11:52-13:40)...if you want to be a decolonizer, adopt a generosity of spirit, sharing food, sharing gift, sharing loves, and really understanding that someone elses win is my win as well...
...so that was the values and principles and ways towards decolonial thinking, but in order to do that we have to have a holistic approach...what i suggest to people is really focus on having heart opening exercises...you want to be doing things like martial arts and yoga and opening your heart because having conversations is really good and yes its the starting point, but you need to support your bodies in so many other ways.
the next bit is conversation, which weve already discussed, and then theres body and movement so i really suggest having fun in the process...
...then the final piece is working with the ether. i feel like in this day and age we dont call upon our ancestors enough and praying seems to have become uncool, but actually this really helps because suddenly youre not carrying the weight of decolonization and sovereignty reclamation on your shoulders--youre being supported by something greater."
the last slide reads:
RESTORATION
"what does decolonial thinking entail? my theory is that we actually need to adopt decolonial thinking as a way to become decolonizers. so the first step is asking questions. whenever im given industry best practices or rules i ask whose rules are these, who created them, what heritage was the person who created those rules and what is the relevance of these rules in 2050?
the second piece is a willingness to be stripped bare. if the process of colonization was about dividing, conquering, and dominating, then the process of decolonization is about...de-armoring, humbling ourselves, and losing our sense of control and perceived power.
the third piece is humility...(11:52-13:40)...if you want to be a decolonizer, adopt a generosity of spirit, sharing food, sharing gift, sharing loves, and really understanding that someone elses win is my win as well...
...so that was the values and principles and ways towards decolonial thinking, but in order to do that we have to have a holistic approach...what i suggest to people is really focus on having heart opening exercises...you want to be doing things like martial arts and yoga and opening your heart because having conversations is really good and yes its the starting point, but you need to support your bodies in so many other ways.
the next bit is conversation, which weve already discussed, and then theres body and movement so i really suggest having fun in the process...
...then the final piece is working with the ether. i feel like in this day and age we dont call upon our ancestors enough and praying seems to have become uncool, but actually this really helps because suddenly youre not carrying the weight of decolonization and sovereignty reclamation on your shoulders--youre being supported by something greater."
the last slide reads:
RESTORATION
- educate ourselves
- put learnings into practice
- channel our privilege
- listen to others
- ditch elitism
- decolonize every industry
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tjrj notes and reflection part 4
28 May 2026 07:19 pm- "identify as someone who loves learning"
- feelings/melody, identity/lyrics, rhythm/movement, timbre/essence
- "im safe, i love learning," movement, passion
- "moving differently will be anxiety inducing...if youve ever sat on your foot too long, theres a weird prickling sensation when you get up because feeling is returning"
underlined = links
bold = replaced each session/episode
| 5m check in: warm-up, chatting while we wait for everyone to arrive 5m town hall: restating the community agreements and the seasons goals, outlines the learning we are about to do and states the sessions learning objectives today we are learning…our goal is to… 40-60m lesson: lists of discussion questions, important vocabulary, supplemental resourcesthe reading more resources X? Y? Z? 10-30m "homework" time/self-directed inquiry: provides (consistent, scheduled) support (group or 1-1), body doubling (further discussion, questions, reflecting, writing, quiet reading, admin)* 5m exit questions: one thing for joy/one for need5m other: restroom/snack/movement breaks/reminders |
*or...host a study hall as a separate meeting...
finished reviewing the study group notes...seems like we covered everything except actually practicing what we learned about, scripting scenarios...where the practical lab comes in as a separate meeting from the study group
good morning i love you
27 May 2026 06:45 am| i thought i found the antidote with you because my head is full of poison, and my heart is full of doubt (im unraveled) i got toxins in my bloodstream you tried so hard to suck out (im unraveled) and it feels like medication, and its good for me, im sure (im unraveled) but it dont matter how your love feels anymore (im unraveled) itll never be the cure why cant you come stitch me up? why cant it ever be enough? its not enough the cure by Olivia Rodrigo | and now im spinning, my web up in the air my spider senses, rains gonna fall wash away the life im weaving i thought you were gonna catch me (watch me fall) i never stopped falling for you (watch me fall) now i know better, never let me (watch me fall) leave home without a parachute tell me, what was the moment you decided to give up? you couldve told me what you wanted, i wouldve done, i wouldve done anything Parachute by Hayley Williams |
tjrj notes and reflection part 3
25 May 2026 06:26 pmHow to Make Your Own Personal Curriculum! Pt. 1 | Schauer Thoughts
topic/subject that interests and excites
lesson plan: books, courses, homework, projects...
my schedule/my rules, cozy/creative, fun/low pressure, structure plus flexibility, seasonal goals
18:15 "i dont want you to fight yourself when youre trying to learn, or be mean to yourself...with learning in a traditional school system its mainly for the purpose of getting a job...the goal for learning was not just learning itself...the goal is now learning in a way that is accommodating and helpful and encouraging and sustainable to you"
21:55 "the higher up you get in education the less you use 'i' in reference to self...if youre going to be learning something new or something more technical or something more dense, informationally...you should be relating it to yourself...using 'i' and identifying with understanding--cuz internal/external relationship to self--if youre like 'oh im not the type of person who does that,' then youre less likely to adopt the habits or the mindset or the confidence"
and then they start to read (how to start researching as a hobby, how to be the type of person who loves reading and learning) but i redirected to reflect on tjrj study group/season 1:
my interests/latent topics for future seasons: queer stuff, neurodivergent stuff, anti-racist stuff, decolonization, community health, disability justice (too broad? lol)
i like learning with: music, art, dance, writing, connections, imagination, nature, reading...
things that personally help my attention issues lol:
built in breaks/stretching
artfully capping alternate convos/trains of thought 4 l8r even if important...not shutting these moments down, not /not/ listening to people, but staying on track
posing a question...type it in the chat...
typing discussion points in the chat helps me follow along i will continue to do this when i can it would be cool/helpful if the speaker could summarize at the end of a point theyre making by typing something in chat
how can seasons/each meeting continue w/o leadership needing to be there? or rather anyone at all that knows whats up...(bc less effective w/o plan/structure...still good convos, but lacked focus and spent the meeting wondering what to talk about instead of being able to move forward)...a lesson plan posted beforehand? like leaving a lesson plan for the substitute: lesson starts by acknowledging community agreements and ends with the exit questions, the rest of the plan would include lists of resources (videos writing art music etc), lists of discussion questions!!!, follows the same routine and has plenty of content for people (new and seasoned) to study and discuss...can have multiple "levels" of the resources/discussion questions in order to individualize the learning/meet ppl where theyre at/teach to the audience
tbc still reviewing study group notes
topic/subject that interests and excites
lesson plan: books, courses, homework, projects...
my schedule/my rules, cozy/creative, fun/low pressure, structure plus flexibility, seasonal goals
18:15 "i dont want you to fight yourself when youre trying to learn, or be mean to yourself...with learning in a traditional school system its mainly for the purpose of getting a job...the goal for learning was not just learning itself...the goal is now learning in a way that is accommodating and helpful and encouraging and sustainable to you"
21:55 "the higher up you get in education the less you use 'i' in reference to self...if youre going to be learning something new or something more technical or something more dense, informationally...you should be relating it to yourself...using 'i' and identifying with understanding--cuz internal/external relationship to self--if youre like 'oh im not the type of person who does that,' then youre less likely to adopt the habits or the mindset or the confidence"
and then they start to read (how to start researching as a hobby, how to be the type of person who loves reading and learning) but i redirected to reflect on tjrj study group/season 1:
my interests/latent topics for future seasons: queer stuff, neurodivergent stuff, anti-racist stuff, decolonization, community health, disability justice (too broad? lol)
i like learning with: music, art, dance, writing, connections, imagination, nature, reading...
things that personally help my attention issues lol:
built in breaks/stretching
artfully capping alternate convos/trains of thought 4 l8r even if important...not shutting these moments down, not /not/ listening to people, but staying on track
posing a question...type it in the chat...
typing discussion points in the chat helps me follow along i will continue to do this when i can it would be cool/helpful if the speaker could summarize at the end of a point theyre making by typing something in chat
how can seasons/each meeting continue w/o leadership needing to be there? or rather anyone at all that knows whats up...(bc less effective w/o plan/structure...still good convos, but lacked focus and spent the meeting wondering what to talk about instead of being able to move forward)...a lesson plan posted beforehand? like leaving a lesson plan for the substitute: lesson starts by acknowledging community agreements and ends with the exit questions, the rest of the plan would include lists of resources (videos writing art music etc), lists of discussion questions!!!, follows the same routine and has plenty of content for people (new and seasoned) to study and discuss...can have multiple "levels" of the resources/discussion questions in order to individualize the learning/meet ppl where theyre at/teach to the audience
tbc still reviewing study group notes
tjrj notes and reflection part 2
20 May 2026 11:01 pmdo i understand TJRJ? i think so
reflecting on abolition and the PIC...we have to watch out for being punitive with each other/policing each other...abolition isnt just about prisons...its our personal lives and how we treat each other/handle conflict...understanding abolition will help develop TJRJ practices...like abolition, TJRJ is building what we want/need now, not waiting around for the systems we have now to do the right thing, but building new systems ourselves because we have to
slide 17: TJ "uses an abolitionist framework. engaging in harm reduction to lesson the violence, works to connect incidences of violence to the conditions that create and perpetuate them, community-based, collective responsibility when it comes to violence, not simply the absence of state violence but the existence of the values, practices, relationships, and world that we want"
slide 18: TJ is “responding to violence and harm without creating more violence and harm” Mia Mingus
slide 20: "how do we build our personal and collective capacity to respond to trauma and support accountability?" and "how can we shift our response to violence so that we are supporting survivors and their self determination, as well as supporting people to fundamentally change their abusive behaviors?"
slide 21: "harm exists and will continue to exist. but the frameworks communities can use to address that harm are not static and can be improved. transformative justice provides space to explore and react to individual situations as they arise" Reina Sultan
seems that TJ came about because the RJ definition was lacking, the TJ definition is more refined to include addressing the social and institutional components of ppl being violent or unhealthy
"why pods? we must create what we need: if we are not going to rely on the current violent, dangerous and woefully inadequate systems around us, then that means it is us who will have to be able to respond to harm, violence and crisis...us and our communities who will need to be able to prevent harm, address acute and active harm in real time, as well as heal and transform past harms that have left an aftermath of destruction and pain in their wake. it is easy to talk about abolition or call for “no prisons and police” in a tweet or on a sign at a protest. it is much harder to do the work to build the kind of community infrastructure that we will need to make those things a reality. pods is one critical piece of that work."
"creating accountability pods can help us to more effectively practice accountability in our everyday lives or in acute instances of harm. typically, people have less people in their lives they can call on to take accountability for harm theyve done than harm that happened to them. this is common because of the punitive culture we live in, which teaches us that only “bad people do bad things,” so if someone does something harmful they must be a bad person who is incapable of change. in addition, harm makes us uncomfortable because it often kicks up the places inside of us that we do not want to face or address. and because of that we genuinely dont know what to do when harm happens, so we distance ourselves from the situations and people we deem harmful, toxic or just plain uncomfortable."
"we see building our pods as a concrete way to prepare and build resources for transformative justice in our communities. building pods is also a way to practice and cultivate liberation through values such as care, support, healing, accountability, community, love, interdependence, repair, belonging, trust, courage and possibility. pods invites us into a more connected way of living that resists isolation, fear and hopelessness, some of the many factors that allow for harm to occur. if everyone had a pod, imagine how much more resourced and supported we would all be. imagine how much more accountable and brave we might attempt to be. imagine what could be possible inside of our communities, neighborhoods, cities and movements for justice."
tbc still reviewing study group notes
reflecting on abolition and the PIC...we have to watch out for being punitive with each other/policing each other...abolition isnt just about prisons...its our personal lives and how we treat each other/handle conflict...understanding abolition will help develop TJRJ practices...like abolition, TJRJ is building what we want/need now, not waiting around for the systems we have now to do the right thing, but building new systems ourselves because we have to
slide 17: TJ "uses an abolitionist framework. engaging in harm reduction to lesson the violence, works to connect incidences of violence to the conditions that create and perpetuate them, community-based, collective responsibility when it comes to violence, not simply the absence of state violence but the existence of the values, practices, relationships, and world that we want"
slide 18: TJ is “responding to violence and harm without creating more violence and harm” Mia Mingus
slide 20: "how do we build our personal and collective capacity to respond to trauma and support accountability?" and "how can we shift our response to violence so that we are supporting survivors and their self determination, as well as supporting people to fundamentally change their abusive behaviors?"
slide 21: "harm exists and will continue to exist. but the frameworks communities can use to address that harm are not static and can be improved. transformative justice provides space to explore and react to individual situations as they arise" Reina Sultan
seems that TJ came about because the RJ definition was lacking, the TJ definition is more refined to include addressing the social and institutional components of ppl being violent or unhealthy
"why pods? we must create what we need: if we are not going to rely on the current violent, dangerous and woefully inadequate systems around us, then that means it is us who will have to be able to respond to harm, violence and crisis...us and our communities who will need to be able to prevent harm, address acute and active harm in real time, as well as heal and transform past harms that have left an aftermath of destruction and pain in their wake. it is easy to talk about abolition or call for “no prisons and police” in a tweet or on a sign at a protest. it is much harder to do the work to build the kind of community infrastructure that we will need to make those things a reality. pods is one critical piece of that work."
"creating accountability pods can help us to more effectively practice accountability in our everyday lives or in acute instances of harm. typically, people have less people in their lives they can call on to take accountability for harm theyve done than harm that happened to them. this is common because of the punitive culture we live in, which teaches us that only “bad people do bad things,” so if someone does something harmful they must be a bad person who is incapable of change. in addition, harm makes us uncomfortable because it often kicks up the places inside of us that we do not want to face or address. and because of that we genuinely dont know what to do when harm happens, so we distance ourselves from the situations and people we deem harmful, toxic or just plain uncomfortable."
"we see building our pods as a concrete way to prepare and build resources for transformative justice in our communities. building pods is also a way to practice and cultivate liberation through values such as care, support, healing, accountability, community, love, interdependence, repair, belonging, trust, courage and possibility. pods invites us into a more connected way of living that resists isolation, fear and hopelessness, some of the many factors that allow for harm to occur. if everyone had a pod, imagine how much more resourced and supported we would all be. imagine how much more accountable and brave we might attempt to be. imagine what could be possible inside of our communities, neighborhoods, cities and movements for justice."
tbc still reviewing study group notes
tjrj notes and reflection
4 May 2026 08:08 amgood evening good morning
a group isnt a group its individual relationships with each other
we do have to be on the same page
we do have to hold each other accountable
identify needs, together
make sure we have the skills to handle conflict
goal of the node was to understand TJRJ...me @ me: do you? lol let me reread everything real quick and ill let you know
reflecting after, we are practicing:
stopping to define words as a group, or individually a person looks it up themselves, "ask 3 before me"
checking in, making sure everyone is following
asking clarifying questions
giving multiple examples, non examples
communicate when not understanding
time for questions, thinking
...tbc...
r revoir :-*
a group isnt a group its individual relationships with each other
we do have to be on the same page
we do have to hold each other accountable
identify needs, together
make sure we have the skills to handle conflict
goal of the node was to understand TJRJ...me @ me: do you? lol let me reread everything real quick and ill let you know
reflecting after, we are practicing:
stopping to define words as a group, or individually a person looks it up themselves, "ask 3 before me"
checking in, making sure everyone is following
asking clarifying questions
giving multiple examples, non examples
communicate when not understanding
time for questions, thinking
...tbc...
r revoir :-*
good morning :')
i love myself so much <3 and i love that i love...
today i get to wash dishes! i will rinse and scrub and soak and dry and remind me i can wear gloves i love when i remember that...now im thinking about the caffeine i get to have in exchange for cleaning (the most unbearably syrupy energy drink ive had but ill appreciate it anyway)
todays dedication:
thank you...
random journal button
wikis list_of_emoticons
diaphragmatic breathing
cream cheese on bagel
chlothegod/choppachav on tt: "you know what makes me really hopeful? if i can get this far in pain imagine how much further i could go...i know its possible because ive already done it...this next part is the easy part im sure of it"
until later o/
i love myself so much <3 and i love that i love...
today i get to wash dishes! i will rinse and scrub and soak and dry and remind me i can wear gloves i love when i remember that...now im thinking about the caffeine i get to have in exchange for cleaning (the most unbearably syrupy energy drink ive had but ill appreciate it anyway)
todays dedication:
thank you...
random journal button
wikis list_of_emoticons
diaphragmatic breathing
cream cheese on bagel
chlothegod/choppachav on tt: "you know what makes me really hopeful? if i can get this far in pain imagine how much further i could go...i know its possible because ive already done it...this next part is the easy part im sure of it"
until later o/
eat drink chat laugh
20 Apr 2026 11:58 pmgood evening
"back in the zone" and yet i am frantically adding water to the bottom of my rice cooker (burnt rice hater) happy to report i made it in time and my second serving of rice and dumplings will be warm for me when i am ready for it
i can smell wood burning fires and the cold and im cold but i cant close my window because then i cant smell wood burning fires and the cold and i love the smell of wood burning fires and i love the smell of the cold and im shivering and the other morning im starting my car and i need to leave but i sit without closing my door because i realize it smells like cold outside and i love the smell of the snow and its not snowing then but hours later it is and i thank myself and i thank my intuition
and i thank myself for sleeping when i know i need to because otherwise i wouldnt have spent my afternoon chatting with my new friend edona about everything everywhere all at once likeee natal charts, transformative justice and carceral feminism, music, our heritages, coffee and creamer, tradwifery and the hottest ashley graham photoshoot ever, "pretty privilege," the platinum rule, bell hooks...
"back in the zone" and yet i am frantically adding water to the bottom of my rice cooker (burnt rice hater) happy to report i made it in time and my second serving of rice and dumplings will be warm for me when i am ready for it
i can smell wood burning fires and the cold and im cold but i cant close my window because then i cant smell wood burning fires and the cold and i love the smell of wood burning fires and i love the smell of the cold and im shivering and the other morning im starting my car and i need to leave but i sit without closing my door because i realize it smells like cold outside and i love the smell of the snow and its not snowing then but hours later it is and i thank myself and i thank my intuition
and i thank myself for sleeping when i know i need to because otherwise i wouldnt have spent my afternoon chatting with my new friend edona about everything everywhere all at once likeee natal charts, transformative justice and carceral feminism, music, our heritages, coffee and creamer, tradwifery and the hottest ashley graham photoshoot ever, "pretty privilege," the platinum rule, bell hooks...
good night <3we long to be loved and we long to be free. communion tells us how we fulfill that longing. sharing the pain, the struggle, the work women do to overcome our fear of abandonment and of loss, the ways we push past the wounded passion to open our hearts, communion urges us to come again and again to the place where we can know joy, to come and celebrate, to join the circle of love
