so please please please let me get what i want lord knows it would be the first time
best summer of my entire life, but maybe its all settling in. its all hitting me again. ive been high for 3 months and thought there was no coming down. withdrawl a bitch, especially when reality is so fucking bitter.
as i gazed up at the stars i became conciously aware of my insignificance and as i stood surrounded by lovers that actually understood, for the first time in my life, my unworthiness felt okay.
thats is what im given. seeming perfection. but the conflagrant cavity eating at my insides only blazes with more fire. upping the intensity throws me into a stage of restlessness;wrecklessness.
two handed mission and a hum. walking the streets all day and night. staying up til ungodly hours in the morning. primping. shopping. fabulous dinners. hopping cabs. beach shores. amazing talks. :D. growing up. [new sweat shirt for MANDA] mara, laur, manda, and tracy-- we got it goiiin on. shake that ass.
who got laid? hahaha. mirror notes!
see you, chicago, in four years. you just found yourself the newest resident.
TEXAS owned. Pray for my G-pa. i officaly have been to the lorreta lynn coutry kitchen. Lor and Mist! i miss them! Kyle. good walks. good talks. my big brother, man.. see him soon. yay. then another 7 months.
CHICAGO BOUND! MANUAL BOUND! YESSS.
anxiety.. ohh boy
downloaded new songs on iPod.
LAGUNA BEACH PARTY AT MY HOUSE SOON. BE THERE OR BE A LOSER. ask me.
and now for some good times...
boarderbob2121: grrrr boarderbob2121: TROGDOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: PEAKNUCKLE DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: IN A BUCKET boarderbob2121: BOTTLE boarderbob2121: WITH A BOAT IN IT DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: those are surely fascinating DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: how do they do it? boarderbob2121: idk DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: we have one boarderbob2121: i would like just stick a m80 in the bottle and blow it to pieces boarderbob2121: or fill it with gas and light it DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: but the ship would burn DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: and the people would die boarderbob2121: o well small lives DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: small lives? boarderbob2121: small ppl DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: NO DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: they are people too boarderbob2121: lol boarderbob2121: little wooden ones DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: with wooden legs DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: like a pirate DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: YO HO HO boarderbob2121: would they also have wooden... DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: PENIS DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: that would hurt boarderbob2121: woodcock DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: hahahhahahahahahahaa boarderbob2121: very firm though boarderbob2121: getting an erection would hurt DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: yeah. i would imagine so. it would be like.. breaking it in half to make it go up DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: and then gluing it back together DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: when it went down boarderbob2121: i feel sry for those little wood men boarderbob2121: that would be very bad boarderbob2121: when women get pregnate there stomachs would like bend and the wood would splinter boarderbob2121: they could do a c section with a chain saw!!! DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: having the child.. naturally.. ouch boarderbob2121: hahahaha boarderbob2121: that sucks boarderbob2121: and then you also get fat too boarderbob2121: that really sucks DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: wood people dont get fat DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: they break DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: like a wood cock with an erection boarderbob2121: lol DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: and you have to glue it back boarderbob2121: i wonder how many they lose exploring damp caves boarderbob2121: they would snap off where they were glued DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: true.. DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: sadly DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: and if they had a penis that had to be glued back on (from a previous erection) then the woodcock would fall off again. and then it would float around. and then youd have to find it. and it would probably be impregnating a woman. and then youd have to glue it on again. DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: from the water. boarderbob2121: lol DaNce2dAsTaRzZ: wow boarderbob2121: mass impregnation
discontent
okay i guess.
aprehensive
anxious