Rainy Daze

 I know that I've been gone forever.  A year almost exactly >.< 
Are any of you guys still around?  
I'm sorry for leaving you!!!
2011 was pretty good.  
I'll make a little write up soon.  
Got to revise now tho. 
Doom :( 

my christmas was going fine but my bloody mother always has to go and spoil everything.  she never tells us what she wants so ruins the christmas present opening by bitching about what we all get her.  she makes a christmas dinner which is lovely and all but then goes on about how tired she is and goes to sleep.  she decides to watch tv instead of doing anything traditional like playing board games.  she promised me we would play monopoly when she finished watching tv.  so ive been waiting.  for two hours.  now shes finished but is shouting at me to have a shower.  properly shouting going 'NOW'  

I SHOWERED THIS FUCKING MORNING LESS THAT 12 HOURS AGO.  WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS WOMAN!?!??!?! ?! 

I don't see why she cant just stfu for ONE FRICKING DAY.  

gah. 

Showing just how exciting christmas is in my household this time last year I set up my blog (well, almost this time last year.  same day at least).  I've had shed loads of blogs over the years but this is the only one I've actually managed to keep up!  That is all thanks to you guys <3 honestly, the whole community feeling here is what makes it so fun.  Even though I fail at commenting I do read pretty much everything you guys write.  LOVE YOU ALL LOTS XXX 

Anyways, I thought that this called for a new layout so here it is!  I got it from fruitstyle which I would really recommend.  The majority of their new layouts have generators which means you can change colours etc. without have to read through loads and loads of code.  The last one was shinee lucifer themed so I decided to return to my one true loves the gazette this time.  It was VERY white to begin with but it hurt my eyes D: so now its grey...I went and raped the gazette ohp for pretty much everything.  Sadly the way they've done their text means that the 'daze' looks a lot like 'paze' oh well.  what you gonna do.  

If you'd been on my journal at certain times in the last two days you may have seen my layout doing odd stuff.  it was originally going to look like this yargnairod (yes, I have an old account but forgot about it until I'd messed my layout over here up) but it was too narrow for my pictures and a layout that is 900+ pixels wide is pushing it (this one is 900) so I'll play with it a bit more and maybe use it next time.  I also don't like how some parts don't line up so maybe it shall never see the light of day.  I'll use the header though, I really like that one.  If you spot any problems with this one please tell me and I'll try to fix them.  Most likely won't be able to but I might as well give it a go.  Every so often ads appear over the top of things S: I don't know why because it doesn't happen with all of them...just some.  ah well.  

I'm also going to go and do up my profile.  Its very meh at the moment.

I'll probably write something on christmas day but if I  don't/you guys are too busy.

As I may have mentioned at some point my mum has issues with me not having to listen to her on the majority of things so tries to manipulate the little things in my life to remind me of the fact that I do sometimes have to do what she says. This is not one of those times. This time she just nagged and bitched until I did what she wanted.

I'm sure that I've written before about how my mum nags me to have showers. For some unknown reason she is convinced that I will do everything to avoid washing. She always has a go at me for not having showered. Today it was at FIVE IN THE AFTERNOON!!! WTF?! I td her that I didn't want to shower before I ate so she left it. I finished eating and asked my sister if she wanted to watch something on tv. Before my sister even replies my mum goes
'no. You're not watching tv. You're having a shower. I told you that you have to be showered before 8'.
For fucks sake woman I'm 19 not 7!!
She keeps nagging about how dirty I am and how disgusting it is that I don't wash (yeah I only shower once every evening. How rank) until I haul my ass upstairs. I've been at uni for a few months and before I was at boarding school so I tend to forget all my mothers nutty money saving schemes. One of these is to keep the boiler off until 9pm. She wants me to shower before 8. You can see where this is going. If not, here's a picture.

I'm now sitting and freezing in my unheated bathroom shivering because the hot water left in the tank ran out just after I got my shampoo on. In her haste to make me wash my mum forgot that there wouldnt be any hot water. Ugh. I could go and get dressed again but that would be wasting precious clean clothes which will soon run out because we don't have a washing machine any more thanks to the frozen pipes.

As if that wasn't irritating enough I have to wake up early tomorrow to go and make cristingles (I dont know how to spell it, those oranges with candles in them) for church AND go to the dentist because they think one of my teeth is rotten. Great.

I used to love being at home but I'm starting to wonder if it's worth it. Everything seems o go so shit when I'm here. My family are much nicer to me when I'm away, I warm, if shit breaks someone fixes it on the day...bah. Oh yeah, for the second year running we don't have a Christmas tree (well, fourth year really, 3+4 years ago we had a bare branch with some lights. if my computer hadn't died I would have photos). Bah humbug.

Not all has been shit though. The Christmas present I ordered for my sister came even though amazon said it wouldn't arrive until the 29th.

(oh yeah, I am able to write this from my cold cold bath because I take my phone to the shower so I can listen to music)

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At home now, not doing much because of the snow.  I got lucky with my train, the one which left after mine was delayed because of snow.  Its still freezing up here so I'm not too keen on leaving the house XD The busses are stopping randomly so I'm not going to wait around for them either.  My house is SO COLD.  The first night I was back my mum had turned the radiators off...not impressed.  According to wiki room temperature is  20°C (68°F) to 27°C (80°F).  Do you know what our thermostat is set at> 15°C.  Its absolutely ridiculous.  You have to go around in scarves and hats INSIDE the house.  If you go outside the temperature doesn't change much which is a nice plus.  When I wake up in the morning my nose feels like a block of ice D":

We went out shopping yesterday which but me in a bad mood.  My mum got my sister a blazer I wanted even though it won't do up on her *grumbles* its really nice but £40 (heavily reduced, it was £200) so I might go and treat myself by getting it.  Kind of annoyed though because my mum won't buy me ANYTHING which doesn't fit but my sister?  She gets whatever she wants.  Even though she is younger than me she has so many nicer clothes.  Every time I want something im told that its too expensive or makes me look fat.  To top it off my sister has run out of room in her wardrobe so is storing the pretty blazer in mine.  bah.  

As if that didn't piss me off enough the shower broke last night.  I had to have a bath D: I hate using this bath because I need to scrub it first.  My dad is revolting and always leaves  it in a mess after he has used it.  I don't generally mind baths though even though I agree with the 'sitting in your own scum' stuff.  I just wash it off with a shower afterwards.  Not any more.  Instead I fill up a mop bucket and tip cleanish water over me afterwards.  Doesn't work too well and sort of makes me feel like i'm living in a 3rd world country.   We rang the repair people who are meant to look after the army houses.  Normally they get stuff fixed within 24 hours so we weren't too worried.  Do you know when they can come to 'take a look'?  Not 'fix' but TAKE A FUCKING LOOK!?!? 

JANUARY THE FOURTH.  OH MY FUCKING GODS. 

I'm going to have developed some sort old medieval skin condition by then.  yuck. 

Ive lost my student Id D: this is double fail because I need it to take my exams and it's gone. I can get another one but my exams start the day the uni opens so now I don't know what to do. I think I need deeper pockets. I noticed that it was missing at the bus stop which means I dropped it between my halls and there. Not too big an area to search but I needed to catch a train so I just left it. Turns out that this was pointless as I've been standing at the tube station for 20mins and my tube STILL hasn't come. They said there was good service on this line *angry* so I could have gone back and looked for it and I would have been equally rushed for my train. Bah. On top of that it's snowing so I'm freezing

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I missed my alarm AGAIN this morning.  I don't know how I do it.  It plays some gazette song ffs.  Anyways, the cleaner woke me up but by that time I was too late for my tutorial (yet again the one with the really good teacher).   It was the last one before the exam and we were going to do exam techniques so I'm really pissed off about missing it.  I had about an hour to kill after that so I got dressed, did all my internet stuff then was about to go for my lectures when I couldn't find my keys.  fml.  yet again I have missed the pre exam lecture where they tell you what will/wont be in the exam.  gah.  Also feel guilty about it because this group of girls I sit with were all going on holiday bar one and I said that I'd be there with her.  Arrggh, I feel really bad about that :( the lectures are 3 hours long and its miserable when you don't have anyone to talk to.  

If it was just me in this room I would have gone anyways and just hoped that nobody stole my stuff.  Sadly I have a roommate so I can't just leave her stuff out as well.  She is staying out till late this evening so I'm stuck in my room till then T_T I really wanted to go to the big german chirstmas market today but now I can't do that either.   I was looking forward to currywurst or garlic mushrooms *cries pitifully* I don't even know how I've lost them.  My keyring is a stuffed hedgehog.  It's not easy to miss and I had it at midnight last night when I went to the shower. 

I'm going to turn my room upside down in a bit to try and find the bloody thing.  I'm going to need to wake up earlyish tomorrow, if I do i'll be able to fit in everything I need to do even though i've missed out on today.  blargh.  

oh, and 
SO MUCH WANT

On a train back from dalston where I got my eyebrows threaded for the princely sum of £4. I haven't actually seen them yet so I don't know if it was worth it...

Sooo I've decided to up some of the pictures from my phone while I wait to get to hampstead. I'll try and stick it under the cut but it probably won't work.

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Right. Hopefully that has worked. Sometimes it just goes up as pictures without text and I have to type it all again. Bah.

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I've been bumming around tumblr lately, thinking of getting an account but I can't deal with all the hipster photos.   Wait a sec, ima gonna go make one. 



meh, I think the crappy webcamness takes away from it.  

anyways, onto a more serious note, the number of kids there who go on about the 'cutting myself phase' or the 'self harm era' all make it seem like some sort of teenage rite of passage which weirds me out.  it makes it seem normal, something that all teenagers go through.  i just want to smack them round the head and be all 'dude, get help, that aint right' but from being on the internet you'd think that it was as common as getting nasty skin during your teen years.  

ah well, tumblr is great for pictures and i've found my new 'guy who looks alot like a girl' to obsess over.  it be yuuki from lycaon:

he makes me go o.O more than bou from an cafe did.

for more confusion see this place:
fuckyeahlycaon.tumblr.com/

I was talking to someone in labs today about music.  he spent half an hour trying to get me interested in 80s political punk.  I hate it when people try to talk to me about music because i seem to care about totally different things.  I want it to sound nice and if the people making it are pretty thats a bonus.  Outside of that I couldn't give two shits.  That sprung from a conversation about politics, which I also seem to have no views on.  It isn't that i'm not interested in politics, its just that I don't know enough about it to sound even remotely intelligent when speaking on it.  People sometimes mistake this for apathy but I just don't want to go around making ill informed statements about things.  I do sometimes (well, alot of the time) and I really wish that I didn't.  

Ne ways, I was meant to be meeting up with my friend tomorrow to go to korea town but I don't know if that's happening any more...I'm not bothered either way atm, it would be nice to see because I haven't been before, but on the other hand I need to go to dalston and get my eyebrows threaded. 



"it's a field...that I'm quite knowledgable about"
I lolled irl.