life is just motherfuckin' contagious lately. 

touch one person, i get all of their feels, touch another, i get theirs, fucking think about touching another and i'm engorged, man. and everything is bothering me. this guy who said bye by saying 'peace' annoys me especially since he barely spoke and then wants to say 'peace.' shut up. 

see, that shouldn't bother me.

i just feel all of this feels and everyone else's feels and my person thinks i'm depressed which i totes always am, it's just my default setting, but he's all like, 'more depressed than usual,' and i'm just sighing, man, because i felt weird. i felt strange and bizarre and filled up.

whatever, though, i want to talk. i want to talk about anything. i want to play devil's advocate, i want you to comment and state an viewpoint and i want to counter it. i want to pop holes into everything and watch the air escape.

do that.

i also am in a computer programming class and we're going to learn python and i'm so fucking excited and we're going to learn java and i'm dying. i'm happy about that. and i'm going to be graduating soon. i'm trying to get 5 weeks ahead of my work. i don't know.

i don't know what to do with myself. like, me. not just action, but learning, speaking, breathing, being. it's weird. i feel as if i'm going to enter a transitional state or something.

also, swedish and finnish and generally just foreign men think i'm a qt. move to sweden? it may happen. i need admirers.