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I'm here. I'm unpacked. I'm happy.
Things just clicked, we are how we should be.
Ps. Having a big grown up flat is pretty awesome.
Things just clicked, we are how we should be.
Ps. Having a big grown up flat is pretty awesome.
Seeriious situations :)
Have you ever forgotten or not bothered to blog when 'big' things are happening in your life - and then you know that when you do blog it will seem really extreme and random from the previous post?
Well... To cut it short. I stayed with Keir for a week... It went ok for the end part of the week, so tomorrow I am setting off on that journey again and moving in with him. The journey takes from 9am until 5.50pm. I'm sure I'll post more when everything gets settled. This is big. I'm going to miss my animals so much. I will miss my parents too...
Things will be fine, once I am settled in.
I love him.
Well... To cut it short. I stayed with Keir for a week... It went ok for the end part of the week, so tomorrow I am setting off on that journey again and moving in with him. The journey takes from 9am until 5.50pm. I'm sure I'll post more when everything gets settled. This is big. I'm going to miss my animals so much. I will miss my parents too...
Things will be fine, once I am settled in.
I love him.
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I want to go live with him.
I think.
I think I can be happy.
I think.
I think I can be happy.
No happily ever after, That just ain't for me, Finally I know, I deserve better after all.
I am here. Im bradford with Keir.
I thought this would solve all my doubts and confusion but its infact made it worse. I’m not overly happy, I have been sad – Do I want this for potentionally the rest of my life? I don’t feel that he really loves me. Compared to how badly he said he wanted me on the phone during the time before I came here – I ain’t seeing or feeling any of that emotion. I don’t feel like I am all that wanted and I am starting to realise that he probably was just lonely and yes I will do for that. I don’t think I can honestly say that he can make me as happy as he once did. I make my own way, I know things go on how I deal with my mood but at the same time, why do something that doesnt make you happy? I’ve been like a yo-yo, from one extreme to the other. But I think I know what the reality of this situation really is.
I go home on Thursday. I can’t say I know if I will leave sooner or not, It may not even be possible to sort that out with ticket already purchased. *sigh* Isn’t it nice to feel adored and to feel so special to someone... where did that go?
I thought this would solve all my doubts and confusion but its infact made it worse. I’m not overly happy, I have been sad – Do I want this for potentionally the rest of my life? I don’t feel that he really loves me. Compared to how badly he said he wanted me on the phone during the time before I came here – I ain’t seeing or feeling any of that emotion. I don’t feel like I am all that wanted and I am starting to realise that he probably was just lonely and yes I will do for that. I don’t think I can honestly say that he can make me as happy as he once did. I make my own way, I know things go on how I deal with my mood but at the same time, why do something that doesnt make you happy? I’ve been like a yo-yo, from one extreme to the other. But I think I know what the reality of this situation really is.
I go home on Thursday. I can’t say I know if I will leave sooner or not, It may not even be possible to sort that out with ticket already purchased. *sigh* Isn’t it nice to feel adored and to feel so special to someone... where did that go?
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Currently writing this from Costa in Paddington Station.
I have just over an hour before my train gets in - somethings being super punctual is a real pain in the ass. I figure i should do this now because I will get home, be exhusted and have to repeat it all to my parents anyway and when I get round to blogging.. I just wont.
London Fashion Week.
fucking.amazing.
It was the best day of my life - no jokes. I first if all started by assisting a make up artist for designer, Emma Bell. I LOVED IT ALL. The hair and make up theme was crazy! We had to use green/pink/yellow face paints, over that we applied glitter, liner on both top and bottom, thick white liner on the bottom eyelash line, then huge lashes on the bottoms :D The hair was awesome, I'm in awe of the stylists work actually. One girl had kinda like popcorn on her head... another had things sewn in, for example it was very much like cotton candy, pink and blonde, very wispy. One guy had a heart spray painted on to the top of his quiff :D
The whole experience... It was the best thing i've ever done. Abit of a dream.
Sadly I didn't get to see that show as I had to rush off to the next one! But I loved the outfits from what I saw!
The second show was also really good, designer was Inbar Spector. The clothes were awesome, the make up look was a white face, white lashes, white liner, white white white. We then had tattoo things to do on the arms and then we just went abit mad doing freehand drawing. I did get to see that show, IT WAS AMAZING! BUZZING! The atmosphere, the music, being so close to it, being close to the press, the clothes, knowing some of my work was up on that stage.... I actually almost started to cry.
I have known I wanted to be a makeup artist for a long time - that in itself was like a dream, but this, what i've just done, was a dream come true :) I will post pictures soon but they may not be the best due to shitty camera phone, I also took videos so Ill see about adding them :)
I AM ON A HIGH
------- New news since then ^ That was Saturday.
I’m going to go stay with Keir. For a week. See how it goes.
Also, got a call back from the job interview I went to and turned it down just incase my plans happen to change again within a week. Esh :/
I have just over an hour before my train gets in - somethings being super punctual is a real pain in the ass. I figure i should do this now because I will get home, be exhusted and have to repeat it all to my parents anyway and when I get round to blogging.. I just wont.
London Fashion Week.
fucking.amazing.
It was the best day of my life - no jokes. I first if all started by assisting a make up artist for designer, Emma Bell. I LOVED IT ALL. The hair and make up theme was crazy! We had to use green/pink/yellow face paints, over that we applied glitter, liner on both top and bottom, thick white liner on the bottom eyelash line, then huge lashes on the bottoms :D The hair was awesome, I'm in awe of the stylists work actually. One girl had kinda like popcorn on her head... another had things sewn in, for example it was very much like cotton candy, pink and blonde, very wispy. One guy had a heart spray painted on to the top of his quiff :D
The whole experience... It was the best thing i've ever done. Abit of a dream.
Sadly I didn't get to see that show as I had to rush off to the next one! But I loved the outfits from what I saw!
The second show was also really good, designer was Inbar Spector. The clothes were awesome, the make up look was a white face, white lashes, white liner, white white white. We then had tattoo things to do on the arms and then we just went abit mad doing freehand drawing. I did get to see that show, IT WAS AMAZING! BUZZING! The atmosphere, the music, being so close to it, being close to the press, the clothes, knowing some of my work was up on that stage.... I actually almost started to cry.
I have known I wanted to be a makeup artist for a long time - that in itself was like a dream, but this, what i've just done, was a dream come true :) I will post pictures soon but they may not be the best due to shitty camera phone, I also took videos so Ill see about adding them :)
I AM ON A HIGH
------- New news since then ^ That was Saturday.
I’m going to go stay with Keir. For a week. See how it goes.
Also, got a call back from the job interview I went to and turned it down just incase my plans happen to change again within a week. Esh :/
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Omg I'm going crazy, maybe its cos we're so amazing, everybody in there dazin' thats why they hatin.
Off to London tomorrow.
Tain about 1.30 pm
Arrive about 3? Drop off luggage at hotel, head out go to mac/shu, pick up things from there. Head to Covent Garden, find some shoes for the fashion show – looking for these really:
http://www.offspring.co.uk/womens/…
in pink.
Got to clean brushes, give their bag an extra clean.
Pack.
Panic :)
Tain about 1.30 pm
Arrive about 3? Drop off luggage at hotel, head out go to mac/shu, pick up things from there. Head to Covent Garden, find some shoes for the fashion show – looking for these really:
http://www.offspring.co.uk/womens/…
in pink.
Got to clean brushes, give their bag an extra clean.
Pack.
Panic :)
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plans.
Woah.
Should be meeting Stu on Friday :D
Right, going to London on Thursday, get there, sort out room, dump suitcases etc, head to MAC, get student discount card, get 3 foundations, go to shu uemura to pick up lash curlers, maybe meet the girls for dinner.
Firday. Be up at like…6.30, get ready, be at Vauxhall fashion scouts for 9am.
Do two shows, finish about 4.15? apparently. Go back to hotel, get ready, meet Stu :D Im not sure about what time yet.
Sunday. Spend the day in London.. or with Stu if it goes well :3
LONDON FASHION WEEK HERE ITHI COMESS!!!
Should be meeting Stu on Friday :D
Right, going to London on Thursday, get there, sort out room, dump suitcases etc, head to MAC, get student discount card, get 3 foundations, go to shu uemura to pick up lash curlers, maybe meet the girls for dinner.
Firday. Be up at like…6.30, get ready, be at Vauxhall fashion scouts for 9am.
Do two shows, finish about 4.15? apparently. Go back to hotel, get ready, meet Stu :D Im not sure about what time yet.
Sunday. Spend the day in London.. or with Stu if it goes well :3
LONDON FASHION WEEK HERE ITHI COMESS!!!
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Writer's Block: Easier Said Than Done
What’s a simple thing you could do to save money, but are unwilling (or unable) to put to practice?
By less make up, drink less wine and stop going to Costa :(
London Fashion Week
I had already been ask to assist on one show next week, Now I have been given two! I have this second one because the make up artist wanted someone who could do freehand work on make up... AND I STOOD OUT :D yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!
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