The Cosmic Dancer

 HEY GUYS!!!

This is long overdue, but oh well.. considering the amount of BUSY i've been, i hope you'll forgive me!

I am, indeed, stupendously busy. I'm in 2 shows, and added a workshop acting class on top of it because they needed someone to be Claire from The Breakfast Club... so in summary, the shows i'm doing are:

1. The Who's Tommy: opens 5 April, closes 21 April.
2. Les Miserables: Opens the 25 July and closes 28July, with random performances on the 5 July and 19 August. (The latter being the 1 year anniversary of my gran's death.)
3. Breakfast Club: no opening or closing, my group performs.. sometime at the end of the semester.. May-ish?

I'm a little busy and running around like a chicken with my head cut off. Rehearsals every weeknight for Tommy and Rehearsals for Les Mis every weekend day... Breakfast Club is every Tues/Thurs...WHAT HAVE I DONE?!?!?!?!?!

Needless to say, writing anything has been put on hold until my world stops spinning...in fact, i'm like 3-4 months behind on stanning ANYTHING!!! all i can grasp is Adam's in Finland now.. that's all i've been able to keep track of...unless you count me knowing everything in the goings on of the Sherlock filming... (oy, what have i done?) but in all fairness, that's going at a slower pace than Adam's whirlwind of a tour! so.. there's that... But i HAVE been reading a fuckton of Sherlock fic...but i couldn't help it, i blame my gran for my obsession with anything Sherlock Holmes.. i really do.. it's in my blood! :D

I HAVEN'T LEFT YOU!!! I'm still in the Adam fandom, you just have to keep me current. Tweet me!!! Message me1!!!! I MISS YOU!!!!

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Title: Always and Forever
Author: xGlitterBabyx
Recipient:
Rating: R
Word Count: 3,339
Pairing: Adam/Tommy
Warnings:Angst, Minor Character Deaths, Graphic Depictions of Violence, Werewolves, Accidental Mating/Claiming, Knotting
Summary: His skin boiled with anger, the impending shift white-hot in his blood. In three strides, Tommy crossed the room and picked Adam up by a handful of his hair. Adam whimpered as Tommy glared into his eyes. “It was supposed to be you.”
Notes: So I’ve never written a wolf fic in my life, so I hope this fits the bill enough!! Fake it till you make it? Greatest thanks goes to RagingRainbow for the handholding and letting me rant to hell and back over this plot and Aislinn for the FANTASTIC beta work. I owe you girls everything!!!

Read it HERE!!!


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Stolen from rivers_bend and arianne_maya 

2012: A Year In Fics

Total number of fics: 18, counting drabbles, drabble sets and the like.

Total wordcount: screenshot of my getyourwordsout spreadsheet that I made, stealing the lovely code from a dear friend when we made the Great Twilight Fanfic Writealong spreadsheet that let everyone who wanted to, keep track of their words written. the total for this month is an aggregate of Oct/Nov/Dec, because i'd only written maybe 2 days out of each month...i figured, why bother with making a new sheet?

this includes ALL words written for fic, whether finished, published or not.





Total number of fandoms: 2.5 (Adam Lambert et all, David Bowie and a smattering in Titanic)

My favorite story of mine this year: This is a hard one for me.. it was a tough writing year, especially the pack half when i was dealing with deep depression and then losing and not finding my muse. If we have to only count published works, it would have to be either:

• "My Heart Will Go On" - written for Glam_100's "Iceberg Just The Tip" prompt. as the title suggests, it's a Titanic crossover Adam/Tommy that made me sad to write, but it's still beautiful in my own eyes.
• "Night and Day" - written for glam_100 's prompt of the same name. A 1930's verse based on the Cole Porter song of the same name that is one of my ultimate fave songs in the world. It's Adam, Tommy/OFC and bittersweet. I love it.

My best story: Do you mean popular? I'll do that, it's:

• "Is This Love, or Confusion?" - Adam/Tommy Glam Nation fic written for sohotoutthebed 's love fest.lots of angst and things because i LOVE angst. SUMMARY: After a hot night out on stage during the Glam Nation Tour, Adam tells Tommy they can’t kiss during Fever anymore.

Story most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion: Probably my David Bowie ficlet.

• "Time In Quaaludes and Red Wine" - based on the last night of the Ziggy Stardust tour... I love my Bowie fics :3

Most fun story: Fun... hmm...

• "Two Times Tommy" - 2 times Tommy had Adam's cock, and one time he didn't. This burst out of me in nothing flat, i was laughing the whole time i wrote it and don't know why.. silly boys :3

Most sexy story: most sexy? i didn't write a whole lot of sex this year, but the one that i did.. i do love xD and it's yummy:

• "Those Blues Got Me Droolin'" - a friend wanted Brad having sex with a man in uniform, so.. uhh.. yeah :D it's Bradam, so.. ENJOY?! :D

"Holy crap, that's wrong, even for you" story: i actually don't think i published one of those.. xD wait for 2013 and THEN we'll talk "WTF??!?!?!" ;)

Story with single sweetest moment: hmm.. everything pretty much has angst all over it.. but if i had to choose:

• "Through Thick and Thin" - Adam's been having a hard week in school, and he's not sure if he can endure four more years of HS turmoil. just a bit of sweet friendship love from Danielle to Adam :3

Biggest disappointment: Uhh.. not any of these.. which is nice to say, really :)

Biggest surprise:

• "Serious Moonlight" - Adam gets the surprise fuck of his life. written for the glam_100 prompt of the same name..i hadn't written Bowie in YEARS, so when i started writing this Adam/Bowie crack!smut drabble set i was VERY pleased :D

Hardest story to write: None of these, if i'm honest.. most of them are drabble sets. Now there's one i'm writing right now that's a bitch, but it wont be published before the new year.. and the chapterfic i'm working on as well will be fore next year.. that ones a mentalsuck..

Easiest story to write: i think there's three that just rolled out for me:

• "Hold On" - written for the glam_100 of the same name, a glimpse of the dark!verse chapterfic i'm writing...
• "A Pain That I'm Used To" - No one tells you how to feel when a loved one dies. I was suffering with teh loss of my gran and it just came out.. it's a placeholder sequel for "Hallelujah" until i get the real one written...
• "I Can't Resist Your Taste" - Adam sighed weakly. This isn’t how it was supposed to go, not in the slightest. “I told you no, baby. I won’t feed from you.” A little cracky, a whole lotta Vampirey.. Adam/Tommy.

This year's theme and the story that demonstrates it most: Depression... "A Pain That I'm Used To" describes it.. mostly...

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First Lines of all the fics I've written this year:

• The crowd cheered as they walked off stage after the encore.
• Tommy watched as Adam stalked around the stage, going full throttle sex god and taking no prisoners.
• Rolling over on his back, Tommy tried to find a comfortable spot on his bed—out of the wet spot his tears were making on his pillow.
• No one tells you how to feel when a loved one dies.
• “Just fucking do it.”
• Adam…Where was Adam?
• “Adam you need to just hold on, okay?”
• It was stifling in the room.
• It had been a while since Brad had spoken to Adam, because they'd both been busy with their own projects.
• “Alright, guys…let’s take a ten.” Adam called to the group as he grabbed his water bottle before sitting down on the steps upstage.
• Adam shifted on the couch in his dusty and unused apartment, slamming a mostly empty bottle of whiskey onto the end table.
• Adam swore he could just smell the ice cream all the way across the house.
• Adam breathed out slowly as he navigated the crowded hallway of his school—ignored as best he could the stares, names and shoves he got from the kids trying to make his life hell.
• Tommy and Ashley were jamming to the Zeppelin song currently blasting, laughing as they got some of the parts right or wrong.
• "I don't know why you insist on singing that shitty song, Adam. It does nothing for your talent."
• Tommy snorted in disgust as he pulled his jeans up over his hips, tucking himself inside and pulling the zipper up.
• “Y’know, it’s not gonna drink itself, no matter how long you stare at it.”
• David slumped down in front of the vanity in his dressing room and glared at his reflection, noting the tears pouring down the stranger’s face.

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 so... A few weeks ago i decided to start watching BBC Sherlock?

there went my life, my feels, my heart and everything else. I don't ever go into things to just be like "oh i'll enjoy it and that'll be that." No. I fall in head first and get lost. 

I'm now a devoted Sherlockian, desperately awaiting Season 3 and suffering from Reichenbach feels shipping Johnlock.

I need therapy, i mean.. I promised myself it would be just a small thing... i've now started reading fanfic...

god help me...

seriously laughing at myself, i'm INSANE!
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Borrowed from arianne_maya  : 


Give me a fandom and at least one other thing (prompt, kink, pairing, color, whatever) and I will attempt to write you a one sentence fic.

My fandoms?

Adam Lambert, David Bowie, Twilight (tho dormant, i can try!!!)

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fuck, man.. i have a lot of conflicting feels right now regarding a certain… set of people.. AND I CAN’T SAY ANYTHING because i’m not sure if the entire FANDOM knows what “went down” or not, and at the same time i know i’d get FLAMED for saying anything. it’s all buggared!

but goddamnit, are you or aren’t you? and why did it happen in the first place and FUCK WHAT HAPPENED?! and now why suddenly :D :D :D??

granted, i’m happy everything seems to be okay, now. but damn.. there was a ROUGH couple weeks, there. but at the same time.. i just…you still don’t follow each other after and i JUST HAVE THE FEELS!!! I’m so conflicted!!!

Sorry i’m being so cryptic, but.. damn.

and yes i’m tagging the fandom, i guess i like a bit of drama. lol.

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 Thank god for showers... they can drown your sorrows, mute your fears... so that only you can hear them, feel them...

Just spent a good 30 minutes in my shower...crying. sobbing. 

it came on so suddenly, not entirely sure what triggered it.. maybe thinking about my upcoming show...

the only thing i know is what i was crying over.

I need you, grandma... need you so much i can hardly stand it. 

this is the second time i've outright cried since her passing in august...

i don't think i'll ever heal from this...


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to write, create... I opened a doc tonight with the intention of borrowing the characters to a long!fic i've been writing (well taking a 3 month break from, if i'm honest) and write a drabble to see if i can:

1. Get back into the characters heads and gateway back into the story itself
2. inspire the fixing my story actually needs

i write a sentence of dialogue, i stare at it and feel nothing. absolutely nothing. 

i looked inside my mind, hoping something would be lurking in my imagination and there was nothing. 

taking a 3 month hiatus from writing may not have been the best idea, but my gran died, okay? And, if i'm honest, thinking now makes my brain fog over... thinking about my stories? makes it foggy with a snow flurry on the darkest night.  i can't see a damn thing. at all. 

I'm terrified, bb's... omfg help me, what can i do???

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*deep breath* Let's do this, motherfuckers!

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wherin I share a little bit of my other side with you.

I'm part of the Kink community in my region and have an account on the kink site FetLife (it's like Facebook for Kinksters, etc). Once in a while i recieve messages from wackos/people from different states, countries/etc usually saying "Hi, saw your profile" or the like.

Well...tonight? I got an explicit 1POV short story of a guy touching his girl.

Usually i'd ignore these things, they're dumb. but this one just made me o.0 and cringe at the poor usage of body parts and language and i'm just wondering if he thought writing porn at me would do anything (I let it be known i write Fic).

here it is:

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now this bugged me 1. because i do NOT and WILL NOT EVER have a Daddy kink. 2? wtaf, yo? Hip socket? how is that sexy???? "Her ass jacked back against me" just had me ROLLING. 

I'm sorry, sir, but I don't think you even tried at all. 
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