⊹ ࣪. ᵎᵎ self control - ahn keonho
pairing ahn keonho x fem!reader
synopsis you and your friend decide to practice kissing on each other out of boredom, but end up getting too carried away.
warnings based in the 90s, fluff, sfw, kissing, skinship, some cussing, friends w/ benefits🫣🫣, not proofread since i just wanted to post something rq!!
author’s note ngl i’m a sucker for fwb tropes👀👀hope u guys like this little short one i wrote :p
now playing…dreams by the cranberries
taglist: @eoduuung @yvesismylove
keonho was over at your house again.
it quickly became a common occurrence between you two. he would always show up at your house unannounced and you would always show up at his.
sometimes your mom would even ask where keonho was whenever he wasn’t around like he normally would be.
but now here he is, laying on your bedroom floor flipping through some lousy magazine you had laying around somewhere. you’re right next to him reading a comic but occasionally getting closer to check what cheesy ad he was looking at.
“i feel like i already read this one.”
you snort and turn to look at him.
“you probably have.”
it was so comfortable being around him. a little too comfortable. you and keonho quickly developed a type of bond where you could just lay right next to each other and not even say a word. other people might say that stuff like that is “intimate”, but you and him have always been like this. yes, there were times where you thought that maybe friends don’t do things like that but..it was so casual that you quickly brushed those thoughts off and just assumed it was a mutual thing between close friends.
he cartoonishly sighs before closing the magazine and throwing it to the side. then he gets up and starts pacing around your room. you’re so puzzled by his random shuffling that you close your comic just to stare at him.
“what’s the matter with you? you’re making me anxious.”
“i’m just incredibly bored and this is the only thing i can think of.”
“you’re a weirdo.”
“i said i’m BORED and you don’t have anything fun for your guest to do?”
“you’re the one who came here unannounced, so accept the consequences.”
he groans before dramatically plopping to the floor again. he stares at the ceiling and then starts fake crying.
“what the hell are you doing?”
“trying to make you feel bad.”
“oh my god keonho, grow up.”
“y/n seriously. i’m thinking that maybe i should stop coming over here. there’s nothing for me to do anymore. i read every magazine, every comic, listened to every cd, watched every movie, and—“
“okay, okay. i get it. i’ll think of something for us to do, so stop whining.”
you get up to sit on your bed, the sound of it being the only thing that filled the room. you begin to think, really hard actually. you’re so deep in thought someone might assume that you’re trying to solve a mystery. that’s when it hits you. the craziest idea. your face expression noticeably changes before you shoot a silly smirk at keonho.
“why…are you looking at me like that?”
“okay, i have something for us to do but i’m gonna ask you a personal question first.”
“alright..ask away.”
“have you ever had your first kiss before?”
his whole body goes stiff.
“uhhh—no, not yet. why?”
“well i haven’t either and this might be the craziest thing i’ve ever asked you and obviously you don’t have to say yes, but it’s just that i feel very comfortable around you so i don’t mind doing—“
“y/n. stop beating around the bush and just say it.”
you awkwardly smile.
“how would you feel practicing kissing with me??”
“practice? kissing?”
“yeah, you know. so we can be prepared whenever someone else wants to kiss us.”
he laughs before nodding his head.
“okay sure, why not?”
he gets up and starts walking towards you. you started to wonder why your heart was beating so fast when you were the one who asked him.
he sits right next to you as nothing but silence lingered around the two of you. he shifts his whole body in your direction and that subtle movement made you even more nervous.
“so..what now?”
you turn your head to look at him.
“i guess this is when you’re supposed to kiss me.”
“okay.”, he replies while trying his best to hold in his smile.
he raises his hand before shyly putting it back down.
“i don’t know what to do with my hands. do you care if i place my hand on your cheek?”
“no i don’t care, this is a learning experience after all.”
“alright, then i’m going in.”
“okay.”
he puts his hand on your cheek as his gaze switches to your lips, then your eyes, not sure on which one to focus on. he gradually starts leaning in before eventually your lips met his. it was a very quick peck. a kiss that could easily go unnoticed.
the silence became way too loud that you could barely breath. but even so, he hasn’t taken his eyes off of you once.
“how was that?”
you playfully hit him while laughing hysterically.
“that was incredibly quick keonho, i didn’t even realize you kissed me.”
he starts to laugh back.
“i knowww, but i got too nervous.”
“it’s okay, i’m nervous too. but let me just say this, you don’t have to walk on eggshells while we kiss. just do whatever feels right in the moment, and i’ll do the same.”
“okay, noted.”
this time he puts his hand on your waist. it obviously took you by surprise, but what did you expect? next thing you know, he’s kissing you like the world was gonna end. by instinct, you wrap your arms around his neck and kiss him back. but that small detail made him kiss you even more passionately. you two finally pull away to catch your breath. faces still centimeters away.
“how was it that time?”
“way better.”
you grab him by the collar of his shirt and kiss him again. he instantly melts into the kiss before his left hand finds your waist again, his right gliding up to the back of your neck.
you couldn’t believe what you just got yourself into. you and keonho just reached a point in your friendship that you can’t even begin to comprehend. is kissing your friend going way too far? are you two maybe enjoying this way too much? who knows..all you know is that you’re kissing him right now, and he’s kissing you.
a kiss that was lasting longer than expected but you couldn’t help it. if it was for the sake of “practice”, then who cares? you felt like nothing in the world could ever stop you two.
knock. knock. knock.
the sudden sound startles you both and you break away from each other faster than the speed of light. you stare at the direction of the door looking disheveled as ever, and incredibly embarrassed.
it was your mom. absolutely clueless of what her daughter was hiding from her.
“what are you two doing in here, wrestling?”
you both stare at her then back at each other before bursting out into laughter.
“okay..well keonho, your mom called. she said dinner will be ready soon and that you should be heading back.”
“yes mrs. l/n, i’ll be on my way.”
he gets up and walks towards the door before turning around and making direct eye contact with you.
“we should practice again tomorrow.”
all you could do was smile.
“okay, i’ll see you then.”
he smiles back at you before walking out the door.
your mom was still leaning on the doorframe, giving you a suspicious look.
“practice? what practice?”
“nothing. just something with school.”
“mmm okay.”
she closes the door and you stare at it in complete disbelief.
you were just kissing ahn keonho. and he said it himself that he wanted to practice again tomorrow.
what kind of friendship dynamic is this?
