I need Help. Again...

I am so tired of this bs continuing to repeat itself every month... when will it end

I just did some math with my savings... and I have come to the dire realization that I'm not able to cover part of the expenses this month again... just wonderful 😑

Long story short, we have to pay up a missed payment from my deceased grandpa's car tax from 2024 that apparently never got covered (thanks old lawyers...) and the country thought well of only telling us about it now, when we're struggling with just keeping our home afloat.

So in addition to also a bill that I'm not able to cover comfortably to reach the next month without drowning, I am in need to gather up 350€ by August 25th.

It's a lot of cash, I know, but we ended up doing more expenses than I firstly planned again (mainly restocking on expensive supplies that all decided to finish at the same time...) so I'm lacking more funds than intended...

To help for this, I will be holding a Midsummer Discount on my VGen, with a 25% Off on all all my services + add-ons.

If anyone is able to help out I would be immensely grateful 🥹

I really hope this is the last time I have to do something like this, I'm getting so tired of not being able to keep up with our expenses...

Finally did my pulls in ZZZ to get M0W1 Harumasa because I'm not letting that boy escape me again.

Out of 138 reels I had stacked up, I ended up spending 136 before I could get both him and his sig...

...once again, the 3x rescreening banner is a total scam rofl.

and to add salt to the wound, I finally got the S pull in the standard banner at 80 pity...

...only to get Koleda's sig...

Game really saw my decent luck from the past year and said "you're going to pay back all the pulls you owe us now"

This has been my philosophy in these recent years, and to be honest it has worked wonders for my self-esteem.

I was prone to demoralize myself everytime I got rejected for something, or if something did not go according to plans, because yes, it fuckin sucks that what I did was not enough or that I got that unlucky.

But by experience, almost always I ended up getting a better opportunity after the previous one did not work out. So just telling myself "it sucks that it did not work out/I missed out... I guess that means it was not the right time or the right opportunity to get what's best for me." has allowed me to take these failures and missed opportunities with a much more positive mentality and did not break me as harshly as before.

I hope that this way of thinking can help others out there who are currently struggling 💝

Streams are going to resume tomorrow.

I could do it today but tbh I'm feeling hella tired despite sleeping already, and I got a load of new commissions that I need to organize (which thank you all a lot btw!!!).

Some doodles from a private Magma session I had with friends. Just some more TLN breadcrumbs =w=

Today marks the 9th anniversary of my "The Last Nutcracker" project as it is today.

This year I decided to not organize anything big as to be honest, I have not touched the story in basically a year, if not more... so I didn't feel like it was the case of doing some big celebration.

I will leave it for next year for the big milestone. And I will make sure to have something big prepared by then 💪

As for now, I just want to thank everyone who had sticked around this long, waiting for news on the project. It always brings a huge smile on my face to see folks excited to know about my babies and their journey. 💝

Oh btw, for the folks who did not come to my streams this last week and is wondering how long the current part of the LL comic is going to be...

...yes?

hyperfixations guided my hand through the years 😏😅

although I still have a lot to learn with chonky/fat characters LOL