Is it weird that hurting an area on your body that gives you pain causes relief in a way? Cause by then, you don't feel the constant pain, only the one in the moment. It may be masochism but it works better than painkillers. I'll tell you that much.
Actually normal
The body sometimes gets so so used to pain to the point it either just numb or unnoctiable
i know it's been said on here and said again but people do so desperately need to genuinely do intentional work to build distress tolerance and start figuring out how to recognize the differences between danger, discomfort, and when a situation that is merely uncomfortable is triggering an emotional flashback in your bodies because it resembles a past situation that actually was dangerous which makes it difficult to realize/believe that this moment is merely uncomfortable.
i spoke to an allistic person who said their autistic classmate had a meltdown in class, during which the autistic classmate collapsed to the floor in the middle of the room, screaming and crying. they said it was "terrifying" and they were arguing for the autistic student to be removed permanently from the program.
when i asked whether their autistic classmate's meltdown was dangerous or merely uncomfortable, they said, "i felt like i was in danger!"
i understand that. but that's not what i asked.
"i shouldn't have to experience that."
yes you should, actually. that's life. upsetting things happen. no one should have to experience any discomfort. but we do. we get stung by bees and sunburns and headaches. we live in bodies in the world.
autistic people are human beings who have the right to exist in society, including during meltdowns. having one class of your entire semester interrupted by a singular meltdown is not anymore of an infringement upon your entitlement to education than having your class interrupted by a fire alarm or cancelled for a snow storm.
one of my peers once experienced a cardiac event 10 minutes into class. it was terrifying. it was desperately upsetting. i was contacted by the school and offered counseling because i happened to be the one who managed the situation until paramedics arrived. everyone was worried about my classmate first and foremost, and then about me. no one blamed anyone, and certainly when my classmate happily recovered and returned to school, no one thought they should be removed from the program.
the difference being that people believe a disabled personal, especially with cognitive disabilities, in crisis are not experiencing something outside of our control, but instead that we are in fact making a choice to make a scene, out of malice.
I hate myself sometimes.
I know I need to study because there are only a few days left until test day is here, but I also know for a fact that I won't be able to memorise everything by then so my brain is telling me don't bother, it's a essentially a knowledge test. But I probably won't pass if I don't.
So currently I'm internally screaming.
I'm sorry that happening to you
Testing is scary, but one thing I learn over the years is that
Winging it ain't gonna get you no where.
But trying your hardest will get you the fairest.
Just try your hardest, don't worry about studying information your gonna forget down the line
I love that on TikTok I'm treated as if I'm just a baby
Motherfueker
I seen a lot of shit
But sure
I am just a baby.
No joke actually someone once commented on a live trying to get me to admit I'm a minor for some damn reason
I'm not
If we in private dms I will prove it with a heavily edited picture of my id.
lowk paul is both his asu frat leader and his woah vicky
