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nelida ⟢ happiest sad girl ⟢ wciff
Hours staring at a blank canvas. Work is not fulfilling anymore. Who was this girl? Unrecognisable. She was used to being so self-assured. Always having everything figured out, planning ahead, with her goals perfectly clear. Now it seems she has no clue. And all of a sudden, this relationship which was already mediocre becomes one more thing she has to confront. She knew what it was about. It might sound cruel but honestly, she won’t fake emotions that are simply not there. She’s perceptive. Direct. Proud. Perfectly capable of accepting an uncomfortable truth. Bill is not the problem. It´s the colours that seem to skip her.

From Renegades to Fallen & Soundcheck!! @ EDGEWAVE

//Max. His appearances are brief? but he’s always there, plotting in the background.

He was around from the beginning of Renegades, but never as a musician though. That was just not his place let’s say. He is the one with connections, the one who makes things happen, the “let me handle this” type. And money, of course.

He got them their first gigs. Small ones, but they meant everything.

Everyone knows, he’s not a nice guy. Not really. But when Wolfgang left, he had this exception moment. Mor was truly affected and if there is a softer side to this guy, she is the closest thing to it. Not that he would admit it. Ever.

But more than anything, it became about him. The ambition of seeing how far he could take her. The delight of being right. This thing of creating something to success.

“That sounds cute, red. But it won’t work. Try again”

Over and over, he pushed her. And just as often, she pushed back. Because Morgan was never his product. She writes what she wants, sings what she feels.

Creative differences and all, here they are. They have learnt to meet somewhere in the middle. After all, they started this together, and none of them is the type of letting go.\\

FALLEN RENEGADE live @ EDGEWAVE by @crazy-hazy-sims !

//For sure she was not gonna lose the name. It´s too important.

When wolfie left, she had to become something else, alone.

Music its the only thing i do right, she remembers saying that day. And he told her to go get a 9 to 5. But wait, not because he didn’t believe in her. Maybe he thought he was protecting her, a punch in the guts full of reality that only a brother could give. Thanks but no thanks. She never asked for that.

“Do you see me now? This is for you, now get your ass back here.”

Fallen stands for the broken bond, for the abandonment and this unclosed chapter.

She is a different renegade now. Welcome to her fallen arc.//

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'my heart keeps breaking'

//I'm always afraid of taking him too far? Too dark. I don't want him to lose his essence, i want him to be that wolfgang munch from windenbug.

This middle kid, missunderstood and a bit lost. At some point that stops being a teenage phase. When nothing really interrupts the way you see yourself, it becomes who you are.

But he is far, though.

The fire at home, losing his brothers (not lucas, i was devastated). Joining a gang, then, that was fun. At first. Then it became easy money. Then the next thing he knew, he was way in too deep. Naive kid, thinking you can just walk away and live to tell the tale...

Something good landed his way. The guy falls hard, once and forever. And there she is, that last image of her, blending with heavy words by a father figure who knew exactly how to strike. How can a kid fight that back?

she asked for help. and what did i do

His darkside won today.//