TL;DR I love lots of tv shows and tend to favor The Big Bang Theory at the moment. I also love all things of old Hollywood and its shining stars. I like to say many loves to John Wayne, The Beatles and Lady GaGa.
Last updated: April 21st, 2012 Anything else you wanna know? Ask away!
I found this book at the store on sale and as I was flipping through it I realized how many movies I haven't see. And I figured I should at least see these. So I am making this post to keep track of them. =D
Feel free to nick the list for yourself. Total: 459/501 - 91%
Also going through this list I noticed there were quite a few movies I saw when I was a kid but I don't remember them enough to put down as "seeing them". =P
Holla if there is a movie on this list you think I should watch first.
So I have been meaning to post something for awhile. Just never really got around to it, plus I really haven't been online. I check my email and Twitter with my phone, and that is what I have mainly been doing.
Anyway, so I did the stem cell transplant. I went into the hospital on the 27th of March and got out May 1st. Overall I think things went well considering all the chemo that I got. I think I tolerated it fairly well. One of the main issues came from the pain medicine. One of the chemo drugs caused very bad mouth and throat sores. The ended up putting me on a medicine pump. I had a little button and I could push it every 10 minutes and get pain meds. Then at one point they had it on a constant drip. It was some very strong pain meds. There is a good week almost 2 weeks that I have no memory of. From what my mom told me, I was getting addicted to the meds and I was getting sneaking with my button. Not only that, but at night the medicine would relax me so much that I couldn't catch my breath. That is a very scary feeling not being able to catch your breath.
I actually started to feel better once they took me off the pain meds. Actually I told them I didn't want anymore and to stop them ASAP. I couldn't get out of the hospital until I was off the pain meds so I said, stop them. Luckily the sores were starting to heal so it wasn't terrible. I did live on applesauce and yogurt.
The other issue I ran into was my cough. Which I'm sure you all remember me bitching about for months. Well no one looked into and come to find out it was from the radiation I had last August. It caused something like a rash on my lungs, then when I got all that chemo it made it worse. I'm still dealing with the cough, luckily it is getting better. They have me on steroids, no, not like the ones the baseball players take. They are slowly taking me off of them. With steroids you can't just stop taking them, has something to do with chemicals in the body being off. But when I cut my dose it causes joint pain. Mainly in my knees, like some terrible pain. Nothing really helps, I have some pain pills which does dull the pain, but it SUCKS, and it lasts for a few days as my body gets used to the new dose. I'm hoping when I cut them tomorrow it won't effect me too much since I am not taking that much right now. This is in addition to a handful of other pills I have to take. I have to take this one pill for 6 months, and I have to take this other one for a year. I hate taking pills. Not only do I hate taking pills, but I am a terrible pill taker. None of these pills are coated and they are all very large. So every morning I get up and eat a pop tart and take my pills. I have to put them in food like a dog. It is terrible. If not, I will puke and the pills will come up. When I was in the hospital they actually was able to make all my meds into liquids. It was great! But the insurance doesn't cover it now that I am out.
Let's see what else? Well since I was pretty much in bed for a month, I lost 20 lbs. Well, IDK about that now. The pills makes me eat everything in sight. Luckily it isn't as bad as it was, but I still eat and eat! Anyway, being unmobile for that long, along with the issues with my lungs and all the chemo I had getting around is tough for me. When I first got home, just getting up to go to the bathroom was a journey and took my breath. I am doing a lot better since then. I went to WalMart this morning, I have walked around Target, etc. I just take things slow and steady. Stairs are still a bitch though. Going up to bed at night tires me out. Not like it did just a couple weeks ago. It is just tough to re-learn one's limits. Wanting to do something and not knowing if I can handle it. Plus some days are tougher then others.
Last Friday I went to see MCR. They were here in Houston and I bought my ticket back in December. I went, it was HOT and I sadly didn't get to see the whole show. I couldn't stand there. I did skip the opening bands. I got to see them since 5 or 6 songs. I got to see Gerard. When they were singing the first song I knew I wouldn't be able to make it the whole show. I thought I was gonna die walking back to the car. That really tired me out for a couple of days. Luckily MCR is coming back to Houston in September, sadly it is out at the Woodlands...I hate The Woodlands! The last time MCR played the Woodlands I did not go (Project Revolution). I haven't decided if I am going to yet. I probably will. It is MCR. It is my band! I remember the first time I seen them. May 15, 2005 when they opened for Green Day.
Okay, I am going to end this post. I just wanted to update everyone as to what's going on. I also hope this clears up a few things from the random things I say on Twitter.
"We are not just art for Michelangelo to carve, He can't rewrite the agro of my furied heart. I'll wait on mountain tops in Paris cold Je ne veux pas mourir toute seule"
Lady GaGa's Born This Way is out today....everyone should go pick it up.
Not what I expected but it is definitely a good album. Favorite songs: Scheiße, Bloody Mary, Government Hooker, Judas
I guess it is about time that I get on here and explain a few things. After talking with my doctors they decided that I have no more options and that I have to do the stem cell transplant. I say they decided. Of course the ultimate decision was mine, but really what kind of a decision was it. Do it or not, it was my only option. For those who don't know or remember I was supposed to do this in 2008 but decided not to. Also for those who may not know. A stem cell transplant is where they give high doses of chemo that destroys the immune system and all the tiny cancer cells. Then then they give you some stem cells (baby cells) back. When those cells grow they recreate the immune system. I'm going to be in the hospital for at least 20 days and away from home even longer. I am not looking forward to this at all. But again, this is what needs to be done so let's get it over with. I am supposed to go into the hospital on the 27th...as in this Sunday. I have been having a ton of various tests at the hospital. Just today I got this thing put in my chest again so they pump things directly into my heart. Not cool, but I have had one before.
So that is what is going to go down and it has been laying heavily on my mind lately. Add that onto my coughing issues. And all I want to do is lay on the couch and watch tv. Which is what I am doing right now. I am about to take a nap.
Looking at this post I expected this to be a lot longer. But I have avoided talking about my feelings about everything. I have been trying to deal with everything on an emotional level. Been talking to my mom a lot.
Anyway, I hang out on Twitter and release random thoughts and emotions about things.
I don't think I am coming back to LJ right now or anything, but I wanted to update everyone.
I hope everyone on my FList is doing amazing. Also feel free to defriend me if you so fit. I have been a terrible friend on here, and there will be no hard feelings if you do.
HEY! So I finally got finished adding all my music to iTunes! I had a folder on my external that I forgot about that I needed to sort through, so I finally got around to putting that on there. Everything is properly tagged with proper album art. It is a thing of beauty! Right now the total goes to 6761! I have everything from Wizard of Oz to Inception film soundtracks. Buddy Holly to Britney Spears. Country to Metal. I am quite proud of it all. I love music of all sorts and I love being able to listen it all and having such a blast listening to stuff. Now I am actually going through and deleting some stuff. I added some albums but never really listen to them. I was closer to 7K, so that is how much I deleted. I am curious to see what #7000 will be. I am keeping an eye on my number so I will know. Lately I have been listening to country. I can't help but love it. Especially Alan Jackson. I know I have talked about him before, but I really love his voice! ♥
Anyway, this post is pointless, just me jabbering about music. I am going to go take a shower and do some laundry and watch some TV. Since I feel so good, I really need to get my shit together and get some stuff done next week. Especially tomorrow. Gotta take the Mini to get it checked on....It's leaking oil :( I also need to hit the grocery store. So yep yep.
I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend, and I hope everyone will have a wonderful Monday!
I don't wanna talk about my stupid heath, so this post won't be talking about such! I am feeling good at the moment though. =)
So me and my mom have finished "The Big Bang Theory". We are all caught up, kinda sad. I was enjoying sitting on the couch and watching mass amounts of it. Oh well, this gives me a chance to work on watching the stuff that is stuck on the DVR. I swear I keep getting backed up. After I get the DVR cleared I want to do some more reading.
Let's see what else? Nothing much. My mom bought me a new monitor today. It is 24". I love it. I got all kinds of space now! My resolution is 1920x1080! So. Much. Space!
I also started back at school yesterday. I got most of my homework finished. A lot of it isn't due until next Sunday, but I figure, get it finished then I don't have to worry about it. I still haven't installed Flash onto my computer yet. Flash is one of my classes, so obviously I haven't done that assignment. I will work on it tomorrow. Oh! Speaking of school, I am awesome. I had to answer a question that was about heroes in literature. One part was using an example. Well since I am not exactly well read I used the best example that backed up my definition of a hero. "Watchmen"! Yes I used "Watchmen" as an example, while everyone else was talking about Jane Austin or Huck Finn. Thinking about it, that makes me awesome or a loser. IDK which one. lol
Also! I am going to go and get my hair done next Wednesday. I am going to get it trimmed and colored. I hate my shade of brown and so last time I got my hair trimmed I picked out a nice color, so my little lady is going to do that. I am excited. Right in time for my birthday! Woo!
Alright, I think that is about it. When I post everyday, I don't have a million things to ramble on about!
One of these days, I swear I will be back to feeling like a normal person!
Okay, so yesterday I went to the dr. everything was fine. My counts were a little down, and I was told to hold my pills. I said ok, and went home. I felt just fine, I was going to go to the grocery store, but I wanted to come home and eat some breakfast. There wasn't anything in the fridge so I went for a bowl of cereal. Coco Pebbles with milk. I ate the whole bowl, and drank the chocolate milk. I ended up taking a nap, and then when I woke up my stomach was hurting. So as I mentioned on Twitter, I was thinking I have developed lactose intolerance. Which I did some Googling and it can randomly develop in adults. My mom also told me of this guy who, after taking strong antibiotics, now can't eat dairy. Boo.
So my mom bought me some almond milk, which I had a glass and it hasn't bothered me, but I am terrified to eat diary now, because stomach pains are NOT fun. My stomach has hurt all day off and on, although it is getting better. My mom thinks it is the chemo pills. At this point, I could really careless what is causing it. I just want it to stop! So I have been napping off and on all day. I also been taking my pain pills which helps with the naps. With the last nap I took, I woke up and felt a lot better. I think all will be fine tomorrow. Just annoying. The only GOOD thing is that these chemo pills are working. When I had a CT scan when I was in the ER a few weeks ago, they were able to see my liver and see how the pills are effecting the cancer, and they told me it is working. So yay for that. Hopefully I can get off of these damned things soon though.
In other news, well there isn't any really. Well, actually I think I will go take a shower. Yep. Going to do that.
So now that 2010 is in the past let's not dwell on it. Take from what is useful and change what was not. That is my thought for the new year. A few days ago I wrote up a New Year's Resolution list. I posted it, but I forward dated it to 12-31-11. Most of what is on the list is big stuff, but all stuff I have been rattling around in my head of things that I need to accomplish and want to change about my life anyway, and what a better time to start then the New Year? Here is the post if you want to see what my goals are.
In other news, I have somehow managed to find a new show to watch. Me and my mom were watching "Wheel of Fortune" the other day and after it went off "The Big Bang Theory" came on. We both sat there and watched it, and OMG HILARIOUS! I went out and bought the first 3 seasons on DVD. The show is absolutely awesome. Highly suggested, although I feel as though everyone watches it, and when they read that I just found it, it is kinda a duh moment. Anyway, so yeah, the past few days in-between watching the show I have been looking for icons. I got a nice collection. I ended up deleting a few in the process.
So that is what has been happening, been staring at the TV for the past couple of days. My mom has left her computer so I am assuming that is my hint to get off the computer so we can watch the next disc.
Anyway, I hope everyone starts off 2011 on a good foot, and if not, you got a whole year to fix that situation! =D
Later!
Oh! Thanks wattle_neurotic for the links...gonna look at them next time I hope online!
