Am I Good Enough?
When will I be good enough?
When will I be able to, to call you on your bluff?
When, oh when will I be good enough?
No, not today.
When will I be pretty like her?
You pass me as if in a blur.
When will I be noticed?
When will I be found?
I’m just a small diamond in the rut,
You can shape me to the, the exact cut.
When will I be perfect?
When will you and I connect?
When will I have loads of hope?
Once I fully climb the rope.
The rope that leads straight ahead to you.
When will I be sufficient to you?
When I learn from everything I’ve been through.
The only way to feel worthwhile
Is just to stay, and wear a genuine smile.
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Cause and effect
In the mirror looking back at me
Is a person, fat as can be.
They say she’s skinny; they say she’s thin
Punishing herself with a razor and some gin
Cuts marked on the inside of her wrist
Looks at it with eyes of mist
The alcohol, the pills
Inside of her it kills
The disgust, the hate
This pain she must create
Mutilation is my regretful sin
Starvation makes me thin
Self-inflicted pain
Some say it’s insane
But to her it feels great
It’s a never-ending hate
To get everything you want, anything you desire
You must work hard and you must perspire
To achieve your goal,
You must make sacrifices at the toll
Thin is great, thin is in
I want to look like a pin
Binges make me want to cringe
So my skin I must singe
When the going gets rough,
Just hold on and be tough
My scars are my story
I look at them with no glory.
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Don't SUPERSIZE me
They day breaks and the sun rises
everything's in supersizes
drive thru five times a day
The gross body's are gonna pay
Obesity is today's world
Weight loss campaigns are hurled
There is nothing that tastes as good as thin feels.
hook, line, and sinker, i've got it, and its tugging at my reels.
A moment on the lips
forever on the hips
strong, but oh so weak
exhausted, but made it to the peak
Do you measure up yet?
Nope, wanna make a bet?
Work harder you pig!
I dont just want to be thin, i want to be a twig!
I'd rather die thin, than live fat...
well... get on it... STAT!
Control on a daily basis
blurred eyes, I see many judgmental faces
a friend said, "We can do it together.. Lets."
The day ends, and the sun sets.
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Hold On
staring out into the blue abyss
thinking about everything i'd miss
My friends, my family and my life
all so easily taken by a knife
What am i really after?
Why am i here?
Is my life turning to disaster?
Or am i just learning how to steer?
Dreary lives trudge on by
we are told life is worth it,
but we just sit and deny, deny, deny
sometimes we just need to climb up bit by bit
To focus on our future and not our past,
We take our newly strong hearts out of their cast.
To be strong, you must hold on tight,
and make it through, just one more night.
AND A HOPEFUL ONE....
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Silent Victory
I lay there, drowning in my sorrow.
Just waiting and wishing for it to be morrow.
Overwhelmed with feelings of distraught,
Searching for happiness of which I had sought.
My eyes tear up with the thought of the past,
This is something I need to get over, at last.
The pain – The despair
The new life I could have had, I was unaware.
Inside of my soul, deep within,
So bright, it shown through my skin.
Joy and Ecstasy trying to seep out.
I was thirsty for it, as if in a drought.
The idea of one day being okay,
And I know that it will happen someday.
To have hopes and to have dreams,
Its scary, to some it seems.
Things will one day be bright
And soon your body will show all the inside light.
Believing in yourself is in itself…
A silent victory.
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