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And the pixel art? Is totally kicking my butt. This sucks!

Edits: Also, had some creepy dreams this morning, rather Silent Hill-ish, as a matter of fact. I was being chased down the street by some cross between Valtiel and a Romper. I hate how when you scream for help in dreams, they make no noise. This thing was hella fast when it came after me, and mom was driving a little four-door asian import or something. It woke me up around 6:25 this morning, and it sucked.

I managed to get back to sleep, then had dreams about picking out stuff for my sister's baby that should come sometime in early March.

Gah.

Okay, I need an emergency distress signal of my own. Preferrably with the ability to signal any friendly units within range. It needs to be discreetly small or something, so I can activate it while casually adjusting my clothes or something.

Because when it's after midnight and I didn't sleep well when I got my couple hours of "rest" between yesterday and the day before, I do not react as witfully as I ought to when people back me into verbal corners. Like when men old enough to be my father or grandfather manage to separate me from my group and I only begin to realize what they're suggesting in my direction after my group has managed to unwittingly abandon me.

Not cool, guys.

Needless to say, my reaction after narrowly escaping the pervy old man (he was definitely old enough to be my grandfather) was not unlike the doodle I did of Sakura in the shower. It's the only way I can acurately discribe how very violated I felt. By the time mom and dad realized what was going on, I was already attempting to make my tactful escape and not seem overly rude. And because it was close to one in the morning, there was no way for me to call any of my friends and go crying to them for emotional support.

Anyway, I would love to know God's reasoning behind why I seem to attract more creepy old men and other females than I do of males my age. It's not like I'm opposed to dating older men, you know, if it's within reason. But I kinda draw the line where the guy's old enough to have spawned someone my age. But I won't lie and say that if there was a guy like Ibiki or Kakashi, I wouldn't tap that. Shoot, I'd probably be slapped with a restraining order or into an emergency room. But that, I'm afraid, is beside the point. I want to know why I'm a creep magnet. All the decent guys seem to bounce off this force sheilding I have or whatever, but the creeps somehow always seem to get danger close. I'm surprised I haven't been molested yet or something else just as mind-numbingly frightening. It's not that Ziri gets no love, it's that Ziri gets all the wrong kinds of "love". I don't really appreciate it or enjoy it. This is also part of the reason why furries scare me. I've been in too many danger close situations thanks to some older fur giving me the creepiest looks and suggesting I go to a furry con. I don't want to go. The creeps at the cons I do go to are bad enough, I don't want to go to a furry con and have them assume I'm into anthros when I'm not. I don't care if I draw awesome anthros. If a fur wants pictures from me, they can bloody well comission me like everyone else does, kthx! And I understand not all furries are like that, but bad first experiences leave a bad taste in my mouth and a case of the shakes regardless. My apologies.

But really, I want to know what vibes I'm giving off that casts Summon Creeps +10, and seems to put up a deflection shield against all other guys. I would love to know. It's getting to the point where I'm getting the serious urge to shanghai Zac or something for these things or use a ring and pretend it's my engagement ring or something. Hopefully guy in close quarters/possible engagement ring would work. I can drop the act or yank the ring off if a guy I'm interested in walks by, I don't know. The fact that I'm even considering tactics like this is frighteningly pathetic.

*sigh* Anyway, enough of my venting, I've gotta scoot. Tomorrow's the last day of con, and I'm hoping to get some stuff signed by James Gurney today (ahhh, Dinotopia, happy memories of my chibi days).

Spork in a handbasket!

SH doesn't come out on DVD until August 22nd! Bah. The wait's not that long, but still, I'm really looking forward to going into the store and buying it. With my own hard-eared money, kthx! Ha!


*slumps, bad attempt at Strongbad voice* Pyramid Head, I pine for joo~ ; ^ ;

Blast you, you and your Pork Powers! I now have this horrible urge to write psychward!Neji and Nurse!Sakura now, and it's all your fault! Because it was just that awesome and made of the best kind of crack.


I have too many things unfinished as it is! ; x ;


That and I'd probably be totally horrible and snitch from you. Because Ziri is made of unoriginal content. u , u;;

...I've known it for a long time, but...I really need a new layout for my lj. As much as I love my Sora, I can't read the text. T x T


But seeing as I = teh lame, I am not skilled in such matters. That, and I've been contemplating drawing the bg for my next layout, but I'm not sure what I want to do. Zombies? Probably, as I love drawing zombies. Probably something glitzy or grungy, as I love both. Color? Maow~, not sure. But doodles? What wouldn't I mind staring at all day?



...Okay, yeah, nevermind, don't answer that one, it's bad.


Nyuu~, I don't know. ; x ;

Noooes~, I want to work on Bad Habits, or SH, or pirate!ninja stuff, or maybe even Waterfall or that AU I was working on forever ago~!

But I'm super sleepy and I can't think up a thing! Noes~! Why can't it be simple for once? Why can't I write a neat little fic with a good plot and bundled in a neat little package that I can post somewhere? But no! They sit and rot for weeks and months and years and never get finished and never go anywhere, and then my writing style changes and I get so sick of rereading them that all I want to do is scrap them all.

It's so hard for me to come up with a plot! I'll have a vague idea for what I want the ending to be, but I can never get there! I get sidetracked somewhere in the middle, then the project never gets done. Nooo~! *slumps*

So...yeah. Got lots of people who said they planned to comission me in the future. Also agreed to collab-illustrate a children's book with mom. Also, did lots and lots of drawing and inking, and, eventually, had my hand cramp and my back hurt from inking too much. Go team. ^^;;

In the end, I only made forty dollars, which...yeah. That's not even half of my half of the table cost. .___.;;;


Then I spent $10 on a Samurai Champloo wallscroll that was selling for $18, but I got a dealer's discount. So it wasn't so bad, I think. ^--^

Plus I'll finally be able to mail things out. Huzzah.


*still didn't make much money, though* T____T

And today proves it. x X


I've been OMGCONSTANTSTARVATION since this morning. Why? I eat whatever's lying around in the fridge and I'm still starving. Nooooooes~!

Mom bought Advent Children today.


I'm still not going to watch it until I've finished FFVII. Even though I can't play videogames until my hand heals some more. Painful. Very, very painful. T x T


Adding insult to injury, KH2 was at the store we bought the DVDs at. And it was $50. I'm not paying fifty dollars for a video game. Where am I supposed to conjure fifty dollars from? My ass? I think not.


I'm not miserable and bitter, I only sound that way because dad couldn't get the spider out of my room. It's only nested right next to the head of my bed, that's all.




...I hate spiders. I really, really do.


And what do I have to do to get some decent pr0n around here? > <




...and I'm probably (read: most likely) going to fail my online course. Because, um, I completely missed both of the quizzes, I've missed a couple of the forum posts I was supposed to make, and I think I've missed at least one of the assignments I was supposed to do.


And it doesn't really help that the people I'd asked to help me with my homework because I'm terrible at learning straight from books (I learn better by example), have never tried to help me. Never even brought up the subject after I first asked. And they have a tendancy to not answer their cell phones. Especially when you need them to answer the most.



I know I brought it on myself, but really, when I don't understand the subject or the computer program at all, a little help would be nice.


Just a little.


Okay, I'll stop whining like a spoiled five year old and go to bed now.

Is it true? Is it for reals? Is Final Fantasy Advent Children actually coming out on DVD in only five days?


WHY MUST I BE BOTH GIMP AND PENNILESS?! WHYYYYY~?



Justin~! Justin! Where are you when I need you! Quick, quick! Can you do a speedrun through the game for me? I need to see the end before I watch the movie! Justin, help~!




Shut up. Shut up. This isn't cheating, I'm still going to finish the game myself. ....As soon as I can use my right hand again. Shut up.