A look in to my soul

well Yesterday I started a 3 mouth period of renewing my bound with my patron it beena long time since I have taken the time to really sit with Isis and get to know her and she how is working in my life and what but time to do it then spring when we are getting rid of the old and bring in the new . I have a beauitful book called Isis magic and it is wonderful for helping me to become close to my mother goddess and understanding all her aspects . I feel the need just to be at one with the mother goddess and maybe in with help me in the area that I need work in and help me better the areas that I am all ready good at . I think that this is a good ideal and everytime that you stop to take sometime with Isis you learn something or somethings new about her everytime and you find new things out about yourself . so this week take sometime out of your busy day and reflect on the aspect of deity that you have in your life and blessings and joy they have give you I can tell you that it well be will

I got the best news that I have getten all week today koger call me for a job interview and I go thursday for that. I had to do a happy happy joy dance in my living room my son thought that I was going nuts it was funny. Now every keep there fingers crossed and pray for me that I get this job .

Today is the begining of something new and better it is the end of the tunnel of the obstacles that have come from with in the house. With the coming of the New Moon a new begining has come and I am ready for it and I well be doing ritual tomorrow to honor and share my hopes and dreams with the divine . I know we are not out of the woods yet but the woods don't seem as dark and lifeless as they had I have learned the lession and I have taken it to heart and it has made me wiser and I am better for it.

My house is so peaceful more then it's every been and My husband and I did something today that we haven't done in a year or so we sat in our living roon and had coffee and talked and he brought me coffee and made it it was so good and the coversation was good to.

I also have planing of cleansing the house every room physically and spiritually so we are starting off with a clean and healthy slate it's time to rebulited and to rebuilted we need to repair the foundation after the tower has tummbled. well I have alot of house work to do before tommy comes home so I am going to leave you with this

here is for new begining and my we learn from the past and my Isis and Osiris bless and watch over us all.

May resent project is writting an Egyptian Ostara ritual . it is harder then I thought it would be because I'll well be doing this with my friends and My brain really hasn't been working it's best and I have been drawing blanks . If I was just doing this alone it wouldn't be as hard but since there well be other people that don't follow the egyptain path I don't want lose them.

Well Pray for me every body I have been fulling out applications in person and on line and I Am praying hard to the gods that someone will call me back on a job . I plan to do call backs tomorrow here is for luck and the divine helping me get the Basics of life. IS it just me or does job applications seem more like Mental Health review and profiling it's crazy I filled out 33 pages on how I feel and everything and my personal like . I was waiting to be asked what type of underwear I wear and my favorite color . I would have answered anything to get a job and quick for real. I know that the goddess has my back and I hope that I can do the things that well land me a job .

Today is the day that everyone has love on there minds But do must of us know what ture love real is? I thiunk ture love is not a box of candy or a dozen rose but someone thats there when your sicker then a dog looking like the undead andhe brings you tea and soup to make you feel better. I aslo think that real love is telling you the turth when noone else well ( honey you may not want to wear those pants) . The best part of ture love is that that there by your side 365 days out of the year and the make everyday and they make you feel like you the only women on the earth all year around.ImageImage Thank you honey for making me feel like the luckest women on earth.

Well today I want and visited my mother and I found out that she is going to move in with my sister and her family . I think anything is better then were she is living now and it makes me feel better to know that my sister going to be there to help her and make sure that she get her meds and goes to the doctors when she needs to .

My husband and I had a long talk last night even know a lot of it was hard to hear and painful Deep inside I know he is right and I know that i need to do something to make things better because the road that I have been taking hasn't done me any good so I need to change. I need to come to the reality that the way that I have been doing things hasn't been the best way and I can do better and that it well work better for me in the long run.

I know that my husbnad is allways look out for me and wanting the best and I don't allways listin to him. I need to realize that he is not trying to be mean to me but he trying to help me get out of the dark cloud them I am in and tell me the truth . In light of the talk last night now I can see what a real bitch I have been and that he has been trying to make me happy . I should be happy with what he has been doing for me .

I also want him to know were I am coming from and to understand way I am the way that I am
and we do need to learn how to talk to each other that way we don't fight everytime that we talk. I love him more then life and I wouldn't do anything to hurt him but I feel that what I have been doing and it time to change that. I have to get out there no matter how scared I am and do my part. It going to be really hard for me but things that are worth it are not easy.

I have to coming to terms with it not just me anymore and that everything that I do or do not do affects my family and theos around . I know that more now then ever and I plan to do something to get my act toghter and I hope that my husband know that I am sorry for everything that I have done to make him unhappy and mad. That I am sorry that I am have been a bitch and not listining to what he has to say and making it out to be that everything is his fault but it is more my fault then his. I hope that he knows that I do turly love him and that he really is a good husband and that I am sorry.

well my temple brother and his wife didn't end up coming because she had an asama attack I understand but it's still a little disappointing. I think that I well call him later . I wish that he had internet so we could talk more then we do if I can,'t get a hold of him that way I'll write him a letter and get some stamps because I am not going to lose touch with him like I did last time .
My latest project is writing a egyptian ritual for ostara it not easy to say the lest . I have been doing a lot of research it going to be a long ritual not a 45 min ritual which is the norm . I have a lot of work still to do .

You are the Goddess of Night. You are much

differant than the Goddess of Darkness, you

are beautiful and full of passion and life,

but you often stay locked inside yourself.

Chances are that you're a poet or other

artist, and create beautiful works. Some

people are drawn to you and others percieve

you as a freak, but don't listen to what

others have to say, just listen to yourself.

You have a passion for words and chances are

you love Shakespere and the like. You want

to surround yourself with people who accept

but often feel like nobody likes you, but

remember that's not true, and you have a lot

to offer, just believe in yourself. As for

love, you are either too trusting or you

trust no one. Guys are stupid, unless you

find one that will see you for who you really

are and not how others percieve you. You

tend to either one extreme or the other,

hardley ever in the middle. Just listen to

yourself and you will go far. Rock On


What are you goddess of?
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Isis, the great Egyptian fertility goddess, is the

potent symbol of alchemic transformation. She

alone was the possessor of the secret name of

Ra, giving her unlimited magical powers.

This card symbolizes a growing awareness of the

magic within your self; of a yearning to grow

beyond perceived limitations. You are able to

transform your life through the strength of

your originality and power all you need to

do is own it.


The Goddess Tarot: who is your inner goddess?
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