but where's your heart

My name's Anita, but most people call me Nita or Hey You. I'm currently not into anything specific and wander around reading in five fandoms all at once like a mad person. I've written fic for mostly JE but I'm dawdling around so expect some attempts at fic in random fandoms at least, which is either something you find terrifying or maybe encouraging.

If you're here for the fic (try the fic tag, it's actually up to date), that's all public, except in the case of unfinished snippets which I lock because well, they're unfinished and unbetaed and generally not things anyone wants floating around.

Most entries are friends only, but only because I'm paranoid and weird. I tend to randomly privatise things out of acute embarrassment, so entries disappear and reappear depending on how much I think the clown is out to eat me.

Friending wise, everything's a free for all. I'm happy to friend anyone and everyone back and you can friend away, unfriend away, comment or lurk - it's all good with me. :)

aldjk;lk;adk;a i just checked my lj and realised i hadn't updated since this JANUARY and that a january 2011 post is still on the FIRST PAGE. I AM REALLY SORRY ;_; ;_; ;_; it's not that i'm not around! it's just by the time i get home i'm almost always all people'd out and the thought of more socialising makes me want to cry and i go to the gym frantically because cycling calms me down and when going to the gym is the better option then There Are Issues.

so you know, a quick update on Stuff.

& am still working on my library course. am hating every minute of it right now oh god. i'm actually really looking forward to getting back to my philosophy degree despite the fact that i spent most of my degree feeling like the dumbest kid in the room.

& i am on tumblr basically ALL THE TIME. oh my god, i didn't think i would be a tumblr person but apparently the lazy nature of rebloging awesome stuff really appeals to me since every routine i have in place in my life is pared right down to how little effort i have to put into it, so i should have figured this out earlier. i'm hasagoodhome and i basically reblog a lot of teen wolf because i have lost all sanity about derek hale (saying his life sucks is like calling a volcano a little hot. it's true, BUT AN UNDERSTATEMENT OF THE CENTURY. oh derek)

& shit is extremely stressful at home right now. i'd tell you about it, but i'm still in a lot of denial about it in the hopes that i'll go away and i won't have to face it. it's kind of setting off every depressive and anxiety issue i ever had all at once and i'm not coping with any of it very well (or at all).

& i was reading sherlock fic like mad until well. suits happened then it was suits fic and then seeing the avengers three four times happened and then i read a bucket load of avengers as well. and now it is ENTIRELY cat_o_ninetails and icefalcon's faults that i'm really irrational about how much i love teen wolf. and stiles' everything. and tyler hoechlin oh my god, i want to climb that man like a tree. let me know if you've joined the insanity which is teen wolf fandom. come to us, we have yam!derek! and cereal-boxes!sterek! sterek songs (no really, we do. fandom is magical) tree!boyd! and multiple knitting fics! (not a typo, though there are multiple knotting fics too, if that's what floats your boat)

& i have an ebook reader! it is the greatest invention ever because now i can happily read fic on public transport, organise it to my exact neurotic specifications and carry around every single pratchett book all at once in case i get an attack of the Pratchett Feels and need to read one (i usually have at least one pratchett book in every bag, but what with the joint pain and everything, i've been leaving them out recently ;_;). i also got this case, which is seriously expensive, but seriously cool.

& i have written zero words creatively for... a really long while. this was one of things driving my anxiety, but i am zen about it now because it's be zen or be an extreme neurotic mess with low self-esteem forever, and i have a million other things to be a neurotic mess with low self-esteem over, so one less is good. it's hard, and it's not so much a slump as a crevice which i'm not ever coming out of at this point. derek hale's awful life gives me a lot of feels, so we'll see if any words result from the feels.

& i did a stint in the state library's collection storage department and oh my god, i would give a left arm to work at the state library, it's amazing. also, trying to store 90kms worth of books is a lot harder than it looks. it requires insanely complicated spreadsheets and equations and planning, none of which i'm good at. (Things I Have Learnt At The State Library: I Do Not Have A Brain For Collection Storage)

Hello Livejournal and all those who actually read this sporadically updated journal of the life and times (and time wasting) of Anita. I am a terrible person who updated about three times last year because a post I made in January is still on the first page, so I figured I should stop stalling and post something in the new year at least.

I have been more or less well, finished my classes, busier than I expected to be during my holidays and successfully downgraded from eight cups of coffee and tea a day to only four cups of coffee and tea a day (and I don't even cheat with Red bull. Success! \o/)

I did a industry placement stint in a public library and I loved it. I'm not too fond of shelving (I don't think anyone with any sort of joint pain would like endlessly handling heavy books) but everything else? Everything else was fun. I chatted with the ladies from the community bus, I tried to teach a class for beginners on How To Use Google, I set up displays, deleted books (and then kept the ones I wanted XD), worked at the desk and ran around doing shelf checks and I loved all of it, even the annoying part where I clean up the children's section, go away for three minutes to find it a mess when I come back because that? It proves that they're using the children's section and my cold little heart warms up to children for precisely three more seconds.

I have a convoluted plan to finish this library studies thing, finish my arts degree and then do a masters and if by then I don't want to shove every textbook I own in a box and mail it to the Bermuda Triangle (even in my dreams I can't set books on fire ):), I'll think about doing psychology related or visual communication studies (both of which I enjoyed a lot, am interested in and apparently good at pretending to know what I'm talking about). Somewhere in all this, I have to find a full time job, move out because I need more 'me' time than living at home provides and maybe own stuff beyond three wardrobes full of clothes, a pile of books and make up and a laptop my ridiculous friends got me.

It's kind of nice to actually have Plans For The Future, considering I spent a number of years sure I wouldn't have one.

I've also been wandering around Sherlock fandom, reading in X-Men First Class fandom (and then shaking my fist at delicious-gate for ruining the rec lists I've been reading off), my friends Marvel'd me up with all the movies in the hopes that I too, will ship Tony Stark/Steve Rogers, but alas, I found myself much more interested in Xavier/Magneto and then because I have an attention span of a five year old, I moved right into Thor (Lokkiiiiiiiiii ;_;) and then to Criminal Minds sometimes you just want plain old serial killers instead of gods and history and superpowers, and then I jumped into AI again because apparently I like punishment and afterwards I'll probably dive into Sherlock again because IT IS COMING OUT TODAY aljs;gljkljdglsfs

(Also, I love the production videos of the Hobbit. THEY ARE ALL MY FAVOURITES ♥_♥)

Unfortunately I'm stuck with livejournal until my paid account runs out in six months but I created a Dreamwidth account under piefaced so do things with that if you want (one day I'll learn how Dreamwidth works. that day is not today when it's plus 35 degrees celsius). Also, giving me two extra weeks of paid time in no way lessens the Feelings all your fuckery has given me, lj. ):<

I hope everyone enjoyed their New Year's Eve and I'll see you when I haven't spent the past two days drunk all day long :D

(New Year Resolution: Remember To Finish Things! Like degrees! And books! And art projects! And series!)

xkcd

though uh, i firmly believe the first statement is patently untrue. they are totally the love of each other's lives. it's just. other priorities, they have them.

no, really. i spend half the time reading canon-based charles/erik fic post-divorce that makes me bawl and then reading flufftastic aus that end happy dammit because in canon the charles/erik story will never end happily says i.

(actual life update to come eventually)

my friends are ridiculous people because what the hell, I SUDDENLY HAVE A LAPTOP.

it is called neville (i thought about watson, but no, it was a neville)

(also, the internet is useless when it comes to researching best discharge/charge times because everyone tells you different things, grr)

when britney spears' lucky is on, i just think of kame's face (you know, the one where he eats spaghetti while bawling) and i feel all squishy inside

IGNORE ALL EMAILS FROM ME. WAS HACKED. AM DISPLEASED

(have changed password. not hacked now?)

be safe, everyone ):

in a fit of whimsy or outright panic wherein i buy a ton of stuff or sign up for things i don't remember, i have a formspring. and apparently a tumblr? i don't even.

anyway, they're empty now because as i said, PANIC and WORK but i will eventually do things with them. tell me yours so i can ask you stupid questions and follow you and whatever else that people do with these things. (have i ever told you i'm a disaster when it comes to technology?)

ps what do people use for communication? is gchat out and something else in? technology, you change so fast. AM I REALLY NERDY IN THAT I STILL LOVE LONG LJ CONVERSATIONS? (regardless of how awful i am at maintaining them?)

Inwardly I’m going, “oh my god Inception fic ad;lil;ksgfl;kl,” and outwardly I’m also going “oh my god Inception fic kladl;k;akda” but in a way that involves a lot more tea drinking and running into walls. How is it that I write an AU of Hikaru no Go before I actually write Hikaru no Go fic?

Title: Origins
Rating: PG-13 (for a swear word or two)
Pairings/characters: Eames/Arthur, Dom/Mal
Notes: for a prompt in flamebyrd’s lj where the inception crew were high school Go players (Hikaru no Go/Inception AU)

I wrote a Hikaru no Go/Inception snippet for fun and flamebyrd prodded me for more. In return, I asked her for the Inception crew as Go players and flamebyrd wrote me out some character profiles. I took that and ran with it and… wrote out my own prompt. Go figure.

Much thanks to zetaori who graciously beta’d it, eatsyourface for letting me flap all over her about titles and to flamebyrd because it was her idea that started it. This is for you ♥

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