So demoralised at the moment. Half an hour before i start work and i don't want to leave the house. just want to crawl back into bed and sleep. i haven't slept since 3 thursday night. more or less i have been drifting in and out of lucidness.
Going back to Hong Kong in less than a day and its been a De-De-Decade since I've been in HK and I'm sure a lot of things has changed and people have grown older.
Not too sure how I am going to survive ... Not too sure.
No, I won't get you stuff and you pay me back when I get back because I am on too much of a poverty to do that.
Over the last couple of months anxiety, fear, loneliness and insecurity has been eating away at me. I think its getting a teeeny bit worser everyday. i think, i don't. I doesnt help that i don't get much sleep at night, drift through the daylight hours and rock myself to sleep in my spare time.
i think i'm starting understand 1/1000000 ... just a tiny bit how my mum felt when she was alive.
apathetic
depressed