If I'd woken in the morning to find her gone, or
come home dropped by in the evening to an empty house, I would not be sitting here writing this entry. I would be out there looking for her
right now. And I would not stop looking until I found her, or found who had taken her, or at least discovered why she'd left.
But it's not like that. I remember waking from a strange dream -- I barely remember it now, I remember only a whispered apology like a sigh on the wind, but for what I cannot recall. I awoke and the air felt tense, like a storm was brewing on the horizon. It didn't matter, though. I was safe indoors, and so was she,
with me...
I remember rolling to tuck my arm around her, my hand flat against the soft curve of her stomach. She didn't wake, but she grumbled sleepily even as she snuggled back against me, her fingers closing loosely over my wrist. I remember the scent of her hair, not sweet but intriguing. Bitter clean notes, herbs and soap. The scent of the Houses, of home and safety.
One moment longer she was in my arms, another breath, two...
And then? Nothing. She simply wasn't there anymore. The blankets were warm, but she was in not IN them. They fluttered flat to the bed, quiet as anything -- no flash, no bang, just...gone.
Taken.
There's nothing I can do, absolutely nothing. I shall return to duty tomorrow. I shan't lock myself in here and weep and rail against fate like a jilted young swain. I expect she'd be furious if I did. But I bitterly curse the Valar and the West, and I shall request as many foreign assignments as our new king will allow his Warden. Ioreth was well loved, and the story shall spread quickly. Pity in strangers' eyes...in my men's eyes, in the eyes of friends, reminded by every sidelong glance...my stomach twists harshly at the thought. I have to escape. NOW. Perhaps a message post to Ithilien...
...
We were to be wed today.
I waited too long to ask.