whirl yourself.

i just got my landline installed 8 days ago
and i'm already getting calls from telemarketers.

next stop: http://www.donotcall.gov

6 Ruff Ryders on sport bikes weaving through traffic on the BQE. emblazoned jackets and all.

i'm going to try to post in here a lot less.
which means i'll probably forget to come here at all, and i'll probably miss most of your entries. so just tell me in real life.

i'm really annoyed at my love life.
really annoyed.

why are guys so terrified of talking to me once they've admitted that they like me? fucked up.

do you like hoobastank?
want to buy a bunch of hoobastank stuff that i have (some autographed) that i no longer have storage space for? here's what i have:


SHIRTS:
- white with black three-quarter length sleeves girls hoobastank baseball tee (M/OS) from 2001, given to me off the bus by markku, never worn
- white adult medium "carl" t-shirt, never worn
- navy blue adult xl t-shirt with a live photo of the band, never worn

CDs:
- white cardboard case hoobastank sampler ("crawling in the dark" and "better") "from the forthcoming debut album hoobastank coming soon" from 2001, autographed by the entire band
- hoobastank sampler (still in shrinkwrap with a sticker "as seen on tour with incubus") featuring "crawling in the dark" and "better", from 2001 (on back says "the debut album hoobastank in stores november 20, 2001)
- "running away" cd single from 2001, cardboard case
- "crawling in the dark" cd single from 2002 (tracks: crawling, crawling acoustic, pieces, losing my grip)
- hoobastank limited edition ep sold exclusively in Target stores (red plastic jewel case. tracks: the critic, never saw it coming, open your eyes, running away acoustic, up and gone acoustic, crawling acoustic, ready for you acoustic) from 2002
- hoobastank "out of control" cardboard jacket cd single from 2003
- hoobastank "out of control" cardboard jacket cd single from 2003 (same) autographed by the entire band
- island records cd sampler from 2004 featuring "same direction"
- "the reason" sampler from 2003 (before the record came out) promotional copy given to me by the band's publicist. tracks: same direction, out of control, the reason, just one, disappear
- "the reason" cd (entire album) same edition as sold in stores but given to me by the band's publicist

STICKERS:
- 1 white sticker 2.2" x 7.2" says "hoobastank" in silver with the infinity logo/"oo" in orange. back of the sticker says "album coming soon - on tour now!" from 2001.
- 12 black stickers 2/2" x 7.2" say "hoobastank" in white with the infinity logo/"oo" in blue. back of the sticker says "CD in stores november 20, 2001. featuring "crawling in the dark". on tour now" from 2001. from a fat stack given to me by chris hesse.
- 5 black stickers 2/2" x 7.2" say "hoobastank" in white with the infinity logo/"oo" in blue. back of the sticker says "in stores now the debut album hoobastank featuring 'crawling in the dark'. on tour with 311" from 2001.
- 2 ice infinity logo stickers (circle, 3" diameter). back of the sticker says "hoobastank the new album september 30, 2003. on tour this summer" from 2003. [NOTE: these stickers were circulated before the release date for their second album got pushed back to december!]
- 3 black stickers 2/2" x 7.2" say "hoobastank" in silver. back of the sticker says "hoobastank the new album the reason featuring 'out of control' and 'the reason' in stores now on tour now!". from 2003

POSTERS:
- 1 24x36" promo poster. black, says "hoobastank on tour now with 311"
- 4 promotional flats for "crawling in the dark" from 2001. 12x24" perforated down the middle - images on both sides. one side has a cool double-exposed image of the band, other side is two photos: the debut album cover and a photo of the band. ONE OF THESE THREE IS ALREADY SPLIT INTO TWO 12x12" posters. the fourth of these is autographed by doug, dan, and markku
- 2 promotional flats for "the reason" - same sizes as above, same can-be-broken-into-two-posters style. one side is white with gray writing and has "the reason" cd cover, the other side is a really beautiful black & white photo of the band
- 2 11x17" DOUBLE SIDED promo posters from 2001 before the debut album came out. one side has a blurry photo, the band name, and says "featuring crawling in the dark the first single from their debut album hoobastank in-stores november 20, 2001". the other side is a photo of the band. one of these two posters is autographed by the entire band
- 2 11x17" double-sided promo posters from when "running away" was the new single. one side has a beautiful color photo of the band and says "hoobastank the debut cd. includes 'crawling in the dark' and 'running away' on tour with 311" other side has different photo and same text.
- 1 11x17" ONE-SIDED promo poster for "running away" featuring same beautiful color photo as above. says "the debut album featuring 'crawling in the dark' and 'running away' for tour dates log on to www.hoobastank.com www.islandrecords.com"
- 1 11x17" one-sided promo poster for "out of control". has b&w photo of the band at a conference table and says "new single 'out of control' new album in stores december 9th, 2003"
- 1 11x17" one-sided promo poster. color photo of the band with doug in front, wearing red shirt and tugging on trucker hat. from debut album days. says "hoobastank on tour now featuring 'crawling in the dark' and 'running away"
- 2 posters from hoobastank's Rolling Stone Private Concert Series. you could only get these if you went to the show. 8x16", cool design around the infinity logo.
- 2 small promotional posters (6x15"), black with "hoobastank" written in white with the infinity logo/"oo" in blue. says "hoobastank the new album coming fall 2003 - on tour now with special guests die trying & letterkills"


SETLISTS:
- 2 SET LISTS from shows, with the black tape still on them to prove they were taped to the stage! one from 3/28/02 (Hammerstein Ballroom, NYC, opening for 311) and one from 4/11/02 (Portland, OR, opening for incubus on the first date of incubus' first-ever arena tour)

MISCELLANEOUS:
i'll also throw in a bunch of magazines/newspapers from throughout the years that have features/interviews on the band, and at least one hoobastank promotional postcard, and if i find any more stuff, i'll throw that in too.



obviously all of this stuff has been kept in the most amazing condition

to recap, that's
3 t-shirts
10 CDs
23 stickers
18 posters
2 setlists
1 postcard
and a bunch of miscellaneous magazines/newspapers with hoobastank articles


any takers? post here if you're interested and if you make it worth my while i will take photos of everything

this is my official request for photos from inside the bouncing castle

this is war.
every line is about
who i don't want to write about anymore.
hope you come down with something
they can't diagnose, don't have the cure for.
holding on to your grudge.
oh its so hard to have someone to love.
and keeping quiet is hard.
cuz you can't keep a secret
if it never was a secret to start.
at least pretend you didn't wanna get caught.

we're concentrating on falling apart.
we were contenders, we're throwing the fight
but i just wanna believe, i just wanna believe,
i just wanna believe in us.

Oh, we're so controversial.
we are entirely smooth.
we admit to the truth,
we are the best at what we do.
and these are the words you wish you wrote down.
this is the way you wish your voice sounds,
handsome and smart.
my tongue's the only muscle on my body
that works harder than my heart.
and its all from watching tv,
and from speeding up my breathing.
wouldn't stop if i could.
oh it hurts to be this good.
you're holding on to your grudge.
oh it hurts to always have to be honest
with the one that you love.
so let it go.


this is the grace that only we can bestow.
this is the price you pay for loss of control.
this is the break in the bend.
this is the closest of calls.
this is the reason you're alone.
this is the rise and the fall.

i want to go to the beach memorial day weekend, but the age of rockets is playing the knitting factory that saturday - ugh! i don't know what to do! i suppose i could drive down there thursday night, drive back up to the city for the show on saturday, and then come back to the beach and then go back into the city to resume real life on tuesday. maybe that's what i'll do.

i just ran into YET ANOTHER person who told me that he's been calling for like a week and i don't answer. i don't know what's going on with my phone but i just want to put it out there that i am not ignoring calls from anyone. my stupid phone is being a stupid jerk - not me. i love you and i'd buy you an ice cream cone if you wanted one.

40 detectives this week
40 detectives strong
Takin' a stroll down Love Street
Strollin', is that so wrong?
Can I get my co-defendant?

It must have been 100 miles
Or any of 100 styles
It's not about the smile you wear but
The way we make out

When I was an all-aloner
Nothin' but a two-beach comber
Has anybody seen the sky?
I'm wide awake now

Workin' the beat as we speak
Working the belle du monde
Believe in the havoc we wreak
Believin', is that so wrong?
Can I get my co-dependent?

It must have been 100 miles
Or any of 100 styles
It's not about the smile you wear but
The way we make out

When I was an all-aloner
Nothin' but a two-beach comber
Anybody seen the sky?
I'm wide awake now

Listen to me what I said
Try to get it through your head
A little bit of circumstance and
A chance to make out

Livin' in a citadel
It's hard enough to be yourself
Waiting for the bell to toll and
I'm wide awake now

It must have been 100 miles
Or any of 100 styles
It's not about the smile you wear but
The way we make out

When I was an all-aloner
Nothin' but a two-beach comber
Anybody seen the sky?
I'm wide awake now