and of the all the little flowers in the bunch, she was the ugliest of them all.
so i am kinda mad at myself. I feel like I should be enjoying this more, making new friends and living it up in Cairo, not wanting to go home. But it seems that every time I even think about home, I start tearing up. Which I feel like is pathetic. I should want to stay here, enjoy my time, do well in class, make new friends, have the experience of a lifetime. And it seems like everyone around me is. And yet, here I am inside on another night, tired beyond all tiredness for no particular reason, wishing i had someone from home.
And my head is telling me that I can do this, I can push thru, but my heart is screaming, no u can't austyn, go home, you know all you want right now is to be with him and your friends, and hell even your family.
It's weird how independent I thought I was, when in fact, i rely so heavily on other people.my roots, if you will. And it feels unnatural having my roots be over 5.5 thousand miles away.
I am not exactly sure how to make myself feel better about this. Maybe if I throw myself into schoolwork I can numb some of this pain. I certainly hope thats possible, I wouldn't mind getting a good grade in my classes.
In other news, let me at least describe what this place is like. The heat honestly isn't even that bad, I mean yea its hot, but its like 2 days of hotness with a hot breeze, followed by about 5 hotish days with a cool breeze. I stay in Zamalek, which is essentially to Cairo the equivalent to Georgetown in D.C., much quieter than downtown, lots of shady trees, kind of upper class housing, and nice shops and such. Its a pretty cool place to live, easy to get lost in, but fun none the less.
Cars here are crazy. Apparently the traffic lights are merely cautionary, unless a soldier is enforcing them. 2-3 lane highways are much more likely to be 4-5 lane highways, which can be kinda scary, seeing a huge bus squeeze by you in a tiny cab. The cab drivers are crazy too, dashing in and out of all traffic. crazyness i swear.
Classes are.... interesting. I have Arabic Language 202, which is actually about a class after where I should be. which kinda sucks, but I will deal. and I have an Anthro class about culture and people of North Africa and the Middle East. which I really hope people talk in because other wise, I will fall asleep every day. Not good if I want to get a good grade. lol.
so thats about it. yay for cairo right? It is a fun place, and I am sure the excursions we have planned over the next few weekends will be fun. we shall see tho.
as for US news... Kaitlyn had her baby this morning!! 6 lbs, 14oz, 20inches healthy and happy (both of them). I am so excited to see the one, and her again too. AND ALL OF YOU!! lol. I'll be back soon enough, let's just hope I don't fall back into old patterns. :-)
night all, let me go track down an Arabic Book, so I can do my homework.
And my head is telling me that I can do this, I can push thru, but my heart is screaming, no u can't austyn, go home, you know all you want right now is to be with him and your friends, and hell even your family.
It's weird how independent I thought I was, when in fact, i rely so heavily on other people.my roots, if you will. And it feels unnatural having my roots be over 5.5 thousand miles away.
I am not exactly sure how to make myself feel better about this. Maybe if I throw myself into schoolwork I can numb some of this pain. I certainly hope thats possible, I wouldn't mind getting a good grade in my classes.
In other news, let me at least describe what this place is like. The heat honestly isn't even that bad, I mean yea its hot, but its like 2 days of hotness with a hot breeze, followed by about 5 hotish days with a cool breeze. I stay in Zamalek, which is essentially to Cairo the equivalent to Georgetown in D.C., much quieter than downtown, lots of shady trees, kind of upper class housing, and nice shops and such. Its a pretty cool place to live, easy to get lost in, but fun none the less.
Cars here are crazy. Apparently the traffic lights are merely cautionary, unless a soldier is enforcing them. 2-3 lane highways are much more likely to be 4-5 lane highways, which can be kinda scary, seeing a huge bus squeeze by you in a tiny cab. The cab drivers are crazy too, dashing in and out of all traffic. crazyness i swear.
Classes are.... interesting. I have Arabic Language 202, which is actually about a class after where I should be. which kinda sucks, but I will deal. and I have an Anthro class about culture and people of North Africa and the Middle East. which I really hope people talk in because other wise, I will fall asleep every day. Not good if I want to get a good grade. lol.
so thats about it. yay for cairo right? It is a fun place, and I am sure the excursions we have planned over the next few weekends will be fun. we shall see tho.
as for US news... Kaitlyn had her baby this morning!! 6 lbs, 14oz, 20inches healthy and happy (both of them). I am so excited to see the one, and her again too. AND ALL OF YOU!! lol. I'll be back soon enough, let's just hope I don't fall back into old patterns. :-)
night all, let me go track down an Arabic Book, so I can do my homework.