Vivigrrl's ravings and sighs

Regardless of someone's abortion stance, people should be scared by Tiller's murder.  The man who killed Tiller had been caught with explosives and plans to blow up a woman's clinic before. Because of technicalities, he never served his full sentence. After Oklahoma and 9/11 you are going to tell me we haven't learned? Tiller's murderer shot into the lobby of a church in the name of religion. What in the hell is going on?

Found this flier on one of the Tiller memorial sites. Sadly I'm not surprised. They picket fallen soldiers, why wouldn't they picket Tiller? Just when I think we've made progress I realize it's never over. I feel too old to keep fighting against the crazies of the world. If more common ground could be found, the world would make a hell of a lot more progress.

http://www.godhatesfags.com/written/fliers/20090601_George-Tiller-Funeral-g.pdf

Like getting a hefty check for a magazine article wasn't enough, I just got an email that two of my photos were chosen by the photo editor. Um, yeah that is really damn cool!

I applied for a fashion writer position even though I really hate fashion. Here's the thing, I was told I was too precise for the job and they needed more fluff. So, I'm not hurt in the least. In fact, I feel even better about my writing. I had to write a sample article about shoes. The only brands of shoes I have ever owned have been Converse, Docs, Berks and a Sketcher here and there (maybe a few Vans in my younger years) Needless to say, I know nothing about fashion and writing the articles probably would've been much more work than worth. It is starting to be like a little game though and I am actually starting to really consider where I send my queries and applications. At first I was trying to get any freelance gigs, but now I'm scared of crap work that I hate. If this is what I want to do with the rest of my life I don't want to spend it writing about Gucci shoes. Does Gucci make shoes?

One email says I charge too much, even though it's low by industry standards, and one says they like my clips and will be sending assignments out soon.

So, I happily remind myself that this is new, I'm getting the hang of it and it's all good.

That is quite a feat for a perfectionist.

Must stop checking email every 2 seconds.....

I have been getting a small, but steady, income as a freelance writer but want to turn this into a part time gig. I find myself sending my resume out to crap blogger/writer postings knowing full well that someone will offer to do the work for much less than me. $3 per 500 words? Who in the hell would work for that. I am looking at Suite 101 since a few freelance writers are making steady income after a few months and getting editors from major publications requesting assignments. I plan on using it for an idea platform that would help brainstorm further article ideas.

The good thing is that I am not going to work for crap pay. I know I'm new to this, but my time, at least, is worth something. I find that I am wasting time organizing researching when I should just send my stack of query letters out to the big boys. I read the best book that totally promotes the idea of just sending your shit out. Someone will find something of interest especially if you know the market and/or know the editorial calendar.

I just need to do it! What in the hell am I scared of. Seriously, WTF.

breathe ;)

I find Facebook intriguing and annoying.I have friends and family living far away,so I love connecting with them, sometimes on a daily basis. Recently though, I had requests from people I kinda knew, or who other people knew. And while there's a few people like that that I would like touching base with online, there's others I just didn't know about. At least I thought that. I went ahead and it's interesting how much more similar many of us have become with age. Puking kids, house repairs, happiness for new jobs. Suddenly everyone's kinda in the same boat. The kids who were laughed at in high school are the ones buying a Lexus. (Glad I never laughed) It's nice. You love it or hate it, but I think I officially love it. Sometimes I'm brave and will send a friend request and sometimes I just send a message. And of course, sometimes the people who were asses are still asses, but you have to try anyway.  You get to remember why you stopped talking to them in the first place. :)

Just an observation

Anger, pride and a little lust here and there, but is that a bad thing?

Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say I love you right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
Ive looked at life that way

But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say Ive changed
Well somethings lost, but somethings gained
In living every day

Ive looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
Its lifes illusions I recall
I really dont know life at all
Ive looked at life from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
Its lifes illusions I recall
I really dont know life at all

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