What it is and where it stops nobody knows you gave me a life I never chose

I drive a VW Rabbit and her name is Rita.

My Girl, Pleasantville and most recently Up. Something about them is calming and just takes me away.

I'm sick and I'm blaming it all on Jayrod. Even though it doesn't sound like his cold hes the only sick one I know. I ache all over, my throat hurts so bad cause its swollen up and I can barely breathe without snorting. I barfed last night just after he left for work and have continued to feel nauseous ever since. Worst part is I can hardly bare to be sitting right now because of the aches and I'm supposed to be sleeping before work. I left all my cough medicine and Cam's house and the idea of even going outside to get to the doctors makes me feel yucky. I know I will have to do it if i do not feel better, just as proof that I am sick for work. It will look terrible because I went into work yesterday on my day off and had to come right back home cause I thought I had today off not yesterday.

So I'm at Cam's place having oatmeal and tea for breakfast when I think I hear my phone going off. I ran into the bedroom searched through my purse for the damn thing and what do I find?! My Ipod!!!!
I had finally come to terms with the fact that I lost it and here I have been carrying it around with me since the day I thought it was gone. Not only did I not want to buy another one, I was pretty pissed that I spent my Christmas money from my dad and grammie on it. I am so relieved.

I'm going to the Cambie for a bit tonight, It's Amanda Pictin's birthday supposedly. I always thought she was really nice so since Cam is going I'll tag along rather than do nothing all night.

Tomorrow is the Creepshow at the Camie as well. I'm so excited. I need a new t-shirt so bad I hope they have some new designs or I will cry, I desperately need new clothes and don't want to have to go to the mall for them.

I had a dream this morning that I went back to Nova Scotia. I was in my old neighborhood taking pictures of all significant things.
I end up being locked in my old apartment with a bunch of people who I'm sure I knew but I just can't put my finger on who they were now.
My old neighborhood has gone to hell like some sort of desolate gang ridden desert.
All I really remember now is being pregnant and having to pee, so one of the guards let me go down the hall way to the bath room. I'm on the toilet looking out the crack in the door as the boss guy comes up the back stairs from the side of the building. He ends up taking me out of the building and I find that he himself had lost a wife and unborn child and he starts to break down.

It was totally fucked up and I think I was faking it to get us all set free but the dream was so intense I can't really piece it all together.

Anyway Cam is feeling a lot better now that the doctors have figured out whats wrong with him. Unfortunately he hasn't been so lucky about his stolen guitar. Having a cop for a brother really isn't much help because the law is designed to protect criminals and keep cops working. I'm really happy to see he has is appetite back, I woke up from my coma in the middle of the night and he was eating crackers and drinking juice haha. I've never see him eat in bed before, he must really be feeling better.
As for his ultimatum I think hes trying to be sweet and wriggle out of it. I know neither of us wants this to end but I fear that one day I will just get tired of threatening. Until the next time I blow up I'm sure I will just let it go and enjoy myself.

A couple of things...

 

1. WCB is covering my claim as I have been ordered to be off work until the 5th.
2. I went to Campbell on the weekend where I picked up a nasty cold that's suffocating me in my sleep
3. I gave Cam sort of an ultimatum and now I'm scared
4. I drove for two hours in Dougs truck... I'm actually a pretty good driver and I want to drive more.
 

I had an freakin awesome day yesterday . I got up, went to physio. From there I went and took my licence test and passed. After that headed out to the mall to meet Tabz with whom I spent the day with. We went to delicados for lunch had enchiladas nachos and coronas. I got to show her my car and she taught me how to reverse stall park. I really wish I was living in Courtenay because she's a really good teacher. She bought me another religions art pendant to replace the one I lost last year. She's the best and I love it.

So here I am sitting waiting to hear back from work about whether or not I have a shift today. On Saturday when I went into work I was taken off the schedule and replaced. I was not very impressed. Of course it's now Monday and I am still waiting to find out if WCB has said anything back to work about my light duties forms. Which I highly doubt will happen today because they are slow ass bastards that also don't work weekends which I think is utterly ridiculous considering that their job is to see that people are fit to work. Not everyone has weekends off so if I'm not working today this will make a total of six days pretty much that I have been off work due to their giving me the incorrect information.

Just a couple of things....


BAHAHA you fools who are getting engaged are so stupid. BAHAHA fools.


So far so good on the new years front. Been working out lots and am feeling really good about it. Spent yesterday night at Cams house which meant I didn't work out in the morning. I almost fell off the wagon, really didn't feel like it this morning but I pushed myself and now I feel great.
It's a damn good thing too cause Carly Sue messaged me and asked if I would model for her. I don't want to do it looking all fat.

ps jarrod if you are reading this call me about coffee tonight...... I'm off at 730

Oh man did I ever get things done today. I spent most of the day with my mom in the truck. When we got to Campbell I got dropped off at Jills for an hour so I could do a quick visit with Jill, Todd and Dani. After that I went to catch the ferry to Quadra to have Christmas Eve sushi with Carol, Leah, Danielle, Chris and the kids. I'm back at my moms now. We've done the traditional opening of one gift on Christmas Eve and this year I got the most amazing pair of leopard print pj bottoms ever!! Their super soft and warm which is great since I live in an ice box. Literally. Another Christmas Eve tradition I have had since living out here away from my father has been to open the package he sends to me. It always contains two cards, one from him and one from my grammie. In the recent years he has been sending me burnt movies and tv shows as well. The thing I look forward to the most in the package is the roll of paper towel used to secure the discs in place. It smells just like my dads house. When I smelt the packing this year I immediately burst into tears. Embarrassing for sure. I really hope that I can go home for a visit soon. I can't stand missing them so much. I hate that my family is so far away; Especially this time of year.