Life doesn't suck, its just not good.... idk anymore... I'm just not happy, and I don't have any clue what the key is to finding happiness... this whole college thing has me confused/worried/upset/idk what else... im scared im not going to be able to balance everything once school start
Hmm... I need help thinking of good revenge to get back at the person who chapsticked my car... I was thinking nailpolish to their car, but mayb thats going a bit to far... let me know if u can think of anything good.
I found this birthmonth quiz pretty nifty... so therefore i decided to post it.... and if u don't like it... u can go get in a fight with ur computer smash the moniter to pieces with the keyboard and then tell me so i can laugh at u for getting so upset about something soooo stupid... ha
February Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent andclever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
So last night was fun... other then feeling not so hot, my ears felt like they had 10 pounds pushing against each one, and i was all stuffed up, it was great... well not so great at school when my robot fell apart piece by piece in front of ms babcock, but yea thats alright... so anyways... i went to skating night for about an hour... had fun making change and trying to convince people to buy raffle tickets... "Buy one, ive got the odds fixed in your favor" or "Buy one, it will increase your chances of winning" Somehow not many people seemed to believe me... oh well... then to Erikas house where I almost got lost because i forgot how to get there... I kinda just made up directions and it ended up taking me to the right place...but yea that was fun... Steven is amazing, and everyone there is hilarious... Idk how, but somehow meghan always ends up being the messiest one by the end of the party... its sumthin with her and food/water fights... they just go together...so then i come home, and i realize i lost 40beans... so i started looking for it, and when i couldn't find it i flipped out... but then there on the bathroom floor there was the money... so i was like ok and relaxed a bit... Then I went to bed... does that sound fun or what... Oh and then i had to get up at 7 cuz im goin to St. A's today... Man what fun
ok i am just going to vent whats on my mind right now... i may regret it later... but i need to just get everything out at the moment
everything is so messed up... life has me so confused and so frustrated... so many things are going wrong... science olympiad is putting a lot of stress on me cuz idk if im going to finish the robot and preparing for everything else in time... then idk if i made the right decision about not doing track or not... i am enjoying not doing anything, but i have a feeling it was a bad choice... then there's my fucked up knee... yea i hate how i can't just have a normal knee.. I'm having surgery again, but now since i had to reschedule surgery because of science olympiad it is now 8 days before junior prom... how great... i don't even want to go anymore, its so stupid... then everything with the whole guy situation... I am so confused right now, and i hate it... for once in my life i finally am ready for a relationship, yet this time i don't get the chance... I manage to screw up everything... All my ties with everyone are so screwd up... I hate how friends who i thought trusted me don't seem to trust me anymore for no apparent reason, instead they are more trusting of the fucking people who betrayed them... then there also the other problem i am dealing with... im trying to figure out if its just me, or if i have a ligetmate reason not to want to be friends with someone anymore... ive watched them hurt all my friends, i don't like a lot of the things they do and decisions they make, when I'm friends with them my life seems to get ten times more worse and complicated... and when i don't talk to them my life seems so much happier.. but hey mayb again im just being a stupid selfish jerk... Another thing that has me pissed off is i don't understand why all my friends hate each other... like its starting to get annoying trying to make plans but being careful who u invite because of who the other one doesn't like and such... i mean come on grow up, deal with it.... i could see if it was a ligitimate reason, but when its just because of something stupid, then thats being immature... I can manage myself fine if I am in the presence of ppl i do not like so much... there is only one exception to this... if u ever tried to stick me in the same room as shayna kane i would definately have a problem... other then that I can be civil about being with ppl i am either mad at or don't like.... ugh my brain hurts and i can't write anything more... if i wasnt' so tired i could prob go on somemore, but im sure u don't want to hear it, and im sure id prob end up regretting it like im going to end up regretting most of what i typed tonight
