So today has beeen okay, it just got a little crappier so idk. It is hard to explain how i feel right now, like I am excited that we only have a half a day of school today, but the teachers are like programmed to make it feel like a full day of school... Like I have like three quizes on monday and I never have anytime to study during the weekend because well my weekends are not like free range for me or anything what with band and all I am gone from saturday morning til saturday night and then sunday is really my only day to sleep in so I sleep in til 9 whoop de doo!!!:) then I have like an hour or so till I have to go to work then I work until 5. Then I get home and I have like a half an hour to get ready for church then after church I usually do something with the friends I only get to see but once a week..... whooo so that is my weekend for yall, so i guess I am really going to have to make time to study, i really want to keep my gradwes up and I am doing a damn good job right now(except for US history so hopefully I cam bring that up)...............ok so now I hear from my friend that our english test is like impossible... she admits yes she did not study... I have of course so hopefully it wont be that difficult. but its still kinda nerve recking you know?!?!!?!!?!?!?!? so I better go because I am in study hall and I have to study more that "impossible"english tet so Ill write more later.... god i cant wait for noon to roll around..............
AHHHHHHHH I dont know what to do we have this thing called project excel at our school and my freind what me to do a performance with her but i kinda want to write a essay;)
I am sooooo bored right now. I have a study hall that I should actually be doing my homework in, but of course I am not. Anyways I just feel like typing so ladedahdedah!!!! ok Im leavinjjg you all good bye..........................dodododododododododododododododo.
O my gosh I cant believe how long it has been since i have written in my journal. I guess I have just had a really busy summer. Band and all that shit! Now I have a friend (best friend) who is slipping out right under my fingers she doesnt give a shit about anybody but herself and she his hanging out with those girls who think its "cool" to go out and party she constantly goes off with one of my other frineds Bridge and talks and when I say that I want to go with them they totally bite my head off and say no. Yup, I am definitly losing my best friend. Al she does anymore is talk to Bridge about how big each of their boyfriends ........///%^&$%# are. DISGUSTING I mean I get mad that she goes off like this but i mean I dont want to be incorporated into this type of dicussion who would. I ahve lost her to the greater evil and It sucks but thats life right? You gain some you lose some..... I just hope I can hold on for a little longer........
O my gosh I cant believe how long it has been since i have written in my journal. I guess I have just had a really busy summer. Band and all that shit! Now I have a friend (best friend) who is slipping out right under my fingers she doesnt give a shit about anybody but herself and she his hanging out with those girls who think its "cool" to go out and party she constantly goes off with one of my other frineds Bridge and talks and when I say that I want to go with them they totally bite my head off and say no. Yup, I am definitly losing my best friend. Al she does anymore is talk to Bridge about how big each of their boyfriends ........///%^&$%# are. DISGUSTING I mean I get mad that she goes off like this but i mean I dont want to be incorporated into this type of dicussion who would. I ahve lost her to the greater evil and It sucks but thats life right? You gain some you lose some..... I just hope I can hold on for a little longer!!!!!
I swear I thought today was going to be freaking awesome because it is the last day of school... No such luck... I go into Math today excited because I think i did really good on the test that he happened to squeeze in before finals I take a deep breath and look at my test you wont believe it i got a 64%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo pissed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~!!!!!!!!!!!~ It maskes no sense I studied forever for that test and look what I got i really needed that A and now if I dont get atleast an A- or B+ on my final Im not going to get into Honors Algebra 2 next year and i really need that class!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I mean I really need it!!!!!
GOD I hate math!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Today hmmmmmmm well today has not been too terribly exciting I went to the counselors office today to get out of third period so that was kind of fun. Then hmmmmmmmmm tonight I got my last tennis match which is sad in some ways and happy in others for one I think that my double partner hates me when I didnt even do anything wrong except maybe think her friend was a bitch but I never even told her that so I dunno anyways thats the good part next year she is playing singles so I dont have to deal with her but that also means that if i want on varsity next year Im going to have to work my butt off this summer, fall, winter. AHHHHHHHHHHHHh I really want to make an impression next year so that is not necessarily sad but its going to be hard and I am determined to make it so with 5 minutes left in class I should probably go!! Thanks to all who read and review on my wonderful (yet not interesting) thoughts!
<3 always, onebaddream_
Current Music
I can hear Predictable- (Good Charlotte) playing in my head!
Today I am so tired like i cannot believe how tired I am I slept through more than half my classes but i am still tired Anyways tonight I got my brothers conformation and I have a ton of homework tonight so basically I wont get to bed early tonight either atleast I didnt have to play in the tennis match my team had today because the other team only had 5 players and we have 23 ha ha ha o well i gonna go take a nap!!!!!
Love all Ya Chelsea
AHHHHHHHHHHHH Good Charlotte and Simple Plan are coming to the colisium on May 12 and my dad got our tickets today omg i sooooooooo excited!!!!!!!!!!!:)
OMG I swear some people (especially on here) can be such ass holes i mean ok so everyone who is reading this go ahead and look at my entry in ljmovies about Odd Girl Out then read what merlyspen wrote as a comment I swear im gonna lose not only because i feel like my life is really messed up but because people just dont understand how other people feel.!!!!!!!! of course im not even going to bother worrying about it because it think the merlyspen person and everyone who thinks the same thing as him about my review can go suck their own BUTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What do you do when the whole world is crashing down on you????? You feel like the only one in the world you can ever trust is yourself?!?!?!?!? I am heartbriken but a different kind of heartbreak the kind of heartbreak, that you get when you feel like a failure in something you do and you feel like you could never do it again.. OK so this is hard to explain but herego I have been playing tennis for a while now and I have worked my ass off this winter getting ready for the spring tennis season at my school I figure well if i am working this hard then I am sure my doubles partner is well,, I think she thought she was but she wasnt now i am stuck at the bottom of my JV team when I want to be on varsity I know that I cant give up and I know the heartbreak will pass, I just have to believe in myself I just feel like i cant be proud of myself right now like i cant be proud of myself until someone else is proud of me too. My mom and dad say they are and I believe thewm but I can see the dissappointment in their eyes and that is what kills me I give my whole heart to something so precious to me and sometimes I dont do it for myself but I work so hard because I am afraid of disspaointing my parents I am afraid that if i screw up they will label me as a failure infact i feel like when I lose people are always talking and yeah I feel like I cant get any better I mean If I work so hard but nothing comes of it...
and hungry but i cant eat
and really really tired