the black velvet sea

hello, long time no talk. im alive. i live on wow and work at taco bell. HAMMY HAMSTER

rot in hell, holly.
rot in hell.

the wind howls my furious incompotence from all windows
my unattainable lust shattering the panes
within a handspan lies the heart of my hero
without a question i am too weak to proclaim

a scorching blackness hides his face
the sun of my soul cannot penetrate
a wisdom of longing i must learn to behold
the age of madness has been fortold

the flash of a moments' bravery is here
to call for the one i held so dear
my hero is dying to me until i grasp
my fatal unleashing concept
this mask

meh... huge bummer... i guess he only has feelings for me as a friend...

will you sleep tonight
will you think of me?

youre just across the street
looks a mile to my feet
i want to go with you
funny how im nervous still
ive always been the easy kill
i guess i always will

could it be that everything goes around by chance
or only one way that it was always meant to be
you kill me
you always know the perfect thing to say
i know what i should do but i just cant walk away

i can picture your face well
from the bar in my hotel
i wish id go to you
i pick up, put down the phone
like your favorite heartmiser song goes:
"its just like being alone..."

oh god, please dont tell me this has been in vain
i need answers for what all the waiting ive done means
you kill me
youve got some nerve but cant face your mistakes
i know what i should do but i just cant walk away

so go on, love
leave while theres still hope for escape
got to take what you can these days
theres so much ahead
and so much regret
i know what you want to say
i know it but cant help feeling differently
i love you
and i should have said it
but tell me
just what has it ever meant

i cant help it
this is who i am
sorry but i cant just go turn off how i feel
you kill me
you build me up but just to watch me break
i know what i should do but i just cant walk away

here I sit
at the fire
liquor's bitter flames warm my languid soul
here I drink alone
and remember
a graven life
the stain of her memory
in this cup
love's poison
for love is the poison of life
tip the cup
feed the fire
and forget about useless fucking hope

here's to love
the sickness
the great martyr of the soul
here's to life
the vice
the great herald of misery
in this cup
spiritus frumenti
for this is the nectar of the spirit
quench the thirst
drown the sorrow
and forget about cold yesterdays

lost in the desolation of love
the passions we reap and sow
lost in the desolation of life
this path that we walk

welcome home
she said to me
lets hide away before they see
i need so much to be alone with you
come with me
she took my hand
please try to help me understand
so pointless when my heart has turned to stone

i wish i didnt need you now
i wish i didnt need you now

i wish we could
she whispered near
go someplace far away from here
while hoping
that small voice would dissappear
that said welcome to the end

useles fucking hope

i had al 75 of my cds stolen out of my car night before last, along with my wallet. luckily, i didnt have any money in it. i am currently accepting donations to restart my collection.