_transmutation_, posts by tag: tl;dr - LiveJournal

Actually catch up of my life.

-I think I have a gif addiction.
-Quick bestie call with Erin during our lunch breaks today. 15min convo that had us both laughing to death, and cussing to high heaven.
-Seeing MI3 tomorrow (not because I want to, but because Marco is dying to see the first 6 min of the new Batman movie, that will air before the movie.
-New Years Eve in Pleasanton, and Ben's house? YESFUCKINGPLEASE. I love that Marco and my bestie are so good together.
-Starting Jenn's art project tonight. She found this amazing painting and sent it to both Erin and I, so we can recreate it in our own styles.
-I tried to CLEAN ALL THE LAUNDRY yesterday, but as always, forgot to bring it back into my room. Uuuugh
-Made a dr's appointment LIKE A MOTHERFUCKING ADULT!
-Have a $50 gift card from my godparents, which they specifically said to NOT spend on anything practical. I have no idea what to buy.
-On the buying note, I am getting my big zombie leg tat in 2 weeks! :) I love having a tattoo artist as one of my closest.
-I'm a happy, happy girl.
-Starting the search for another car, as well as getting my eyes out there for the 2 bedroom house we need

Go out to our local bar to celebrate Pat's bday while he is in town... Walk in the door expecting to see our group at the big front table... Deer in headlights moment of just standing there in the doorway staring at the giant group of people that I've been excommunicated from. Head straight to the bar and pound a few beers in a row.

It was nice to see Brigitte, and Jimmy (who stayed after everyone left to have a real long heart to heart with me) and even Jason came to say hi. Jason, always so sweet. Lis came up too and gave me a hug. I didn't expect that.

My group of friends is amazing though. They new someone was wrong, that made me so anxious, but Lauren was my smoking buddy, Marco was all affectionate, and Pat couldn't stop telling his gf about how awesome Marco is, and how I'm perfect for him... <3

Well, after years of being terrified to running into any of them, giving up a Starbucks I loved to go to (even during the year, I just can't go there anymore it's not the same) and the 2 days of the year that make me feel like shit (and write cryptic lj entries about those that are still my friends not caring that it's been years and we are all adults) I finally had the run in I never wanted. I feel like I did well. I just smiled and went on with my friends. I didn't have to worry about being judged like I thought I would have. I just had a good time :)

In other news, I woke up this morning feeling like this