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i'm moving, in more ways than one.

jellyfishparade is my new locale, and Baddeck my nearest destination.

see you all over there.

HAHAHAHA!!!

today i went to point pleasant park and read and ate supper on a bench by the water.
mmmmm... the weather today was so beautiful.

i am all packed to go home, but not so ready. i haven't felt the familiar swell of emotion that i normally get when leaving or losing something dear to me, so i know that once i leave it will hit me that i am not going to return for four months.

i didn't expect that have the city grow on me as strongly as it did. i love its mix of quiet with hustle and bustle and the strange arrangement of shops and streets. i wasn't so fond of the people, but i realize now that i've become one of them.
baddeck will be a nice break from city living, a quiet vacation, but even as i haven't left yet, i can't wait to return.

i chose an apartment! my new address will be on Rector St, in the north end between Novalea and Barrington. :D
i'm very excited and i can't wait to move in the end of August.

i'm also anticipating my work term. my first day is on April 30th and i'll be working Monday to Friday, nine to five. some of the highlights are going out on the bookmobile and being responsible for my own preschool storytime. everything else is basic library duties: shelving, renewing books & library cards, weeding. the only part i'm dreading is computer assistance. i just pray that none of the cranky and rude tourists who visit on bus tours ask me for help.

the end of school bash last night was hilarious!
clarke: you know you're drunk when you dance to jazz music!
joe was awesome on stage and there were free drinks and food to be had! i love melanie and chris and erin and katherine and all amicable. and last but not least, seamus!! HAHAHAHAHA!!!
[melanie! i think i saw him in the park today!! it was so scary!]

i have such a busy day ahead of me. taking some time to relax.

parents can become so frustrating. i know they mean well and love me, but they need to learn to let go up to a certain point.
i think that my mom still thinks of me as being a tiny little girl, all alone here. the truth is i'm an adult (or almost :P) and i have responsibilities to people and contacts and a schedule. she doesn't realize that i can't jump up at a single moment and do what she wants simply because it's her will.
i have become confused and upset over the mixed signals sent my way. for years, i've been told to grow up and accept responsibilities for my actions. it seems that when the moment comes that i have matured and am able to take care of myself, as a young woman independent from her parents house, the messages change. now i am no longer told to grow up or accept responsibility, but to relinquish it to my parents over situations that are entirely my decision.
i must choose where to live, where to be employed, making appointments and taking care of errands and business. i may not be twenty-five, but i am not sixteen either.

i am not accepting being treated like a naive child any longer. i understand and know things. i don't know everything, but i prefer being taught things rather than being shielded from them.

as i mentioned, rest is sorely needed. perhaps maturity is the problem.
i fully intend to spend my summer in two personas: a conservative employer and a young free child.
no mention of roles or attachments, especially those of unnecessary labels.

chris says:
what are you still doing up alex?, get to sleep...
chris says:
you need rest from all this time off lol
alex says:
i need something, but its not rest
alex says:
welll... wait i do


REST. that is what i need!
hallelujah! chris has opened my eyes to his world of wisdom (hahaha!)

but in all honesty, rest is needed.
rest from halifax, school, friends, growing up, LIFE.
rest from the internet!!
say goodbye friends! i'm taking a good long ME break.

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I PASSED HISTORY!!!
something my teacher said today made me think that i was going to fail (i would have died!), but i just checked my marks online. it's the only one up right now, but i passed it. :D
yay! this means i get to do a work term!!

... which will be at home in Baddeck! i'm so excited!!

i move home on Saturday (hopefully). chris' birthday celebration is on Thursday! :D
I have apt viewings tmrw afternoon and on Friday.
HURRAY!!

oh sweet early morning sunlight, how i hate you.

the baby shower was fun. i got to meet people who i had only seen in pictures and me and melanie had a hilarios adventure to the Bedford Place Mall, only to realize that Chris had left work 15 minutes previous. but we bugged him to come back and we had supper. :)
yay for hanging out with melanie again!! i'll make it up more in september.

last night was really nice. i haven't srsly gone out dancing in three months!!
we went to Pacifico, then Refs as gavin went to the Palace (which is beyond me.. ick).
HAHA at me tripping on a stopped escalator on the way to the casino.
i love clarke's exboyfriend! we were both like AHHH!! at everything. hahaha!
i got to clarke's at 4am and promptly crashed in the spare room.
and i missed coronation street this morning! :(

deadlines!
-group meeting tmrw
-presentation on Tuesday
-Chris' bday stuff at Stayner's on Thursday
-dancing with OJ on Friday
-moving home on Saturday!

and then it'll be four months until i see my lovely co-LT students again (well, most of them. i suspect that if i'm working in CB for the summer, i'll be able to sneak down for a wkend or two).

today i finished five assignments. i'm exhausted.
but my inmagic assignment is beautiful. :)
no more reference! yay!

there are only four more days until school is over! followed by four months until school begins again.

i have so much.. just stuff.. to finish before i move home.
laundry, packing, projects, eating up the rest of my food :P

reminder to self!: empty locker! don't forget AACR2 & maxwell!

i'm excited for tomorrow. :)
i went baby shower shopping today after school. it was so hard to pick! there were so many nice things. i'm headed to that tmrw with Melanie and then downtown tmrw night with Clarke and some friends.

today turned out lovely!

i emailed my application for the co-op in Ottawa and it seems as if i'm the only applicant. :D
i wrote two exams, both of which seemed way easy, so i'm a little worried about those, but not so much.
our huge presentations were moved a day ahead.
me and brenda spent the afternoon being loud LIT students in the library, making a mess of the reference section.

my mom is down for a business conference (she and my roomie ran into each other there! total fluke in communication.. haha). i tagged along for her pre-paid business dinner reservations at the Argyle and drank way more than i should have, but it was awesome (and free!).


brenda is awesome for potential problem solving. :)
in other news, help me find a roommate!! i'm looking at getting a place with my sisterinlaw's sister (in halifax) or getting my own place (in dartmouth). save me from roommate disasters!