Maybe it's just been far too long, or I'm just not as strong as I used to be It's nothing I really care to mention Will you tell me it's going to be just fine? I'll tell you truths While you tell me lies
I never feel more alone than when you say you miss me, because I know you don't.
There's passion within these walls Where the waters dare not fathom Where breathing stains the air a brilliant orange From amongst adjacent angles, timid saplings grow But there is no hiding, the trajectory of evolution unrelenting So unrehearsed, so unprepared, for even expectation does not outweigh the consequence And if you stop for just a second you can taste the remorse in the air. Is this our evolution or history defined?
Forever in time we plead with our misgivings And a distorted youth bleeds away in silence These consequences are no miracles but the timing is precise Where they steal our thoughts away, have our hopes been lead astray? This protection brings counterproductivity and we seep through the cracks of this ever decaying bridge, idolised by their peers as something forgiving But we know this is not forgiving And we are livid that our dreams are no longer gaining momentum We are drained from our fight with their salvation We breathe a fire they've inflicted And in the end, after all these promises The sanctum brittles as the daylights prospers and we hear the whispers of all our fears.
Everybody's sick of hearing about this But it's all I have to say (it's all I have to talk about) So where can I go and what can I say? When I feel I've lost everything I once thought I had It's hard to pretend that I don't care But I'm still here - waiting Feeling so small as the world keeps spinning.
Another night underneath the dark Where the wind carries the cold mile after mile And I'm hundreds of miles away from where I was once Our lives spread out are just too large This is when I come to realize that this will never be what we thought it would be. What we once believed.
I write a million messages, that you'll never read I'm not sure why... as slowly I forget what I'm holding onto. And my beliefs begin to fade away, Because I'm holding onto something so far away Am I always holding onto something so distant?
Every day I'm waking up feeling more lost than the day before And I think back on my memories that will be with me forever Am I really just in love with the idea of being in love? Maybe I want it more than I know (or care to admit) But I'm losing touch And it's difficult when everything and everyone around you is falling apart I can pretend not to care all I want It doesn't change a thing And there's not a thing I can do to change how she feels: how I feel.
Everyone tells me that I just need time, But time is never on my side.
I don't know how to get through this, I wish I didn't have to.
In the distance a pertaining light breaches the cold Of a summer stained with the sulfides of an apathetic system Is it without regret that I withdraw in hibernation, As I breathe the hollow air to only find myself suffocating And these proverbial memories bring retracted conflict But I am but a bystander, this is out of my control As I wait... for her to tell me what my future holds But I am lost in her memory Even if she can't see me in her own.
It is in this instance that I realize that I'm nothing more Than a grain of sand scattered among the Utopian plains And in correlation to a perfection of youth, from where I have just returned It haunts me that I can be so distant and such a fool This is my mistake but I'm just learning So from this juncture I will try to rotate all my misgivings
I know I'm not perfect but I'm trying And every grain is another possibility another reason But until this starts to expire I will do everything I can, to be everything you ever wanted.
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