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one woman's journey for man-made pussy

@vaginomancer

A journal and informative side blog as I navigate the process of getting grs. I'll be live blogging My personal experience as well as reblogging informative posts about GRS itself and the process of Getting surgery. Post vaginoplasty as of 08-21-24. My surgery was done by Ellie Zara Ley. also posts from @ThotsofLore

I've decided to set this up as a journal to record my personal journey and my process attempting to get GRS. I have and will beconsulting with multiple surgeons and I am on a couple of wait lists at this point, so I figured at the very least I could share my experience as I proceed through the various steps and give other people that are looking into MTF GRS a better idea of what to expect while attempting to get the procedure.

I'm going to make sure to leave Asks open so if anyone has any questions about finding surgeons or dealing with insurance or anything else to do with the process they're more than welcome to ask just don't be a fucking asshole.

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#Voidgetsavoid - original posts

#consult- Journal entries about consult appointments

#Hair removal- Posts about hair removal appointments and the process of getting hair removal

#travel- posts that have to do with making travel arrangements

#thoughts- General ramble posts that are relevant to the blog

#reblog- posts that I didn't make but that were relevant enough to post

they should make it easier to get bottom surgery

special mention to how the BMI requirements are horrific and they need to go!

I've been thinking a lot lately about how many trans women I've known who come to realize over time that they experience much more bottom dysphoria than they've consciously understood

I think this is partially a problem of trans women being fetishized, a trans woman's value being equated with her penis, but I think it's also partially a problem of availability. personally if something is difficult to attain then I have an internal reflex to unconsciously convince myself I don't want or need it. for this reason and many others it needs to be made easier

personally it's fucking crazy going through life not even being able to be naked around trusted loved ones or fully have sex because the dysphoria is so bad. it's unacceptable that so many of us have to live like this. it's horrible that for many trans women it's almost impossible to get the care we need. it does not have to be like this

GOD. YEAH. YUPPPP

neopussy posting went from virtually nonexistent on this site four years ago to a new flourishing ecosystem of some of the most inventive smut + helpful advice i’ve ever seen anywhere on the internet. I love trans tumblr girls

Honestly seeing a surge in information resources and support is nice.

Even the doctors that create neovaginas can be ignorant about their long term care, and many of us that had to travel for the surgery can't easily travel back if medical issues arise.

Meanwhile, even general practitioners who specialise in trans medicine are unlikely to know much of anything about neo vaginas.

A lot of advice for natal vaginas is transferable but not all, and some issues are neo vagina specific.

As had been the tradition, we really do depend on our fellow trans people for information and support when our medical professionals are often found wanting.

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have i mentioned that i love my vagina and that i've never regretted surgery even for a second. because damn girl i just came hard as fuck. goated. life is good

that's right! that's right!!! and it's only gonna get better!!!!

shoutout to rabbit vibrators theyre my favorite

There's been a massive wave of vaginoplasty negativity online recently and this is refreshing to hear 🫶

I'm getting mine in less than a month and it's been a bit daunting seeing how people talk about it. I'm not trying to sugarcoat the recovery but I do want to remind myself of the light at the end of the tunnel.

Talking about medical gatekeeping in trans healthcare really feels like,

"Hey we should stop sending trans people to a fucking exorcist before they're allowed to transition? Since we know, scientifically, that demons are Not Fucking Real?"

"Ok but what if someone regrets transition though?"

"DEMONS ARE NOT FUCKING REAL."

"You really don't care about the possibility of regret?"

"DEMONS. ARE NOT. FUCKING. REAL. THE EXORCIST. HAS NOTHING TO DO. WITH REGRETTING ANY TRANSITION PROCEDURE. ON ACCOUNT OF EXORCISM BEING FAKE AND MADE UP."

"The trans community needs to talk more about transition regret. You have to acknowledge this, or you'll never get anywhere."

Sorry trans people are sent to WHO NOW??

tumblr users having no media literacy:

It is slightly confusing what the analogy is, and yeah it does take some media literacy to figure out

The first thing that comes to mind in place of "exorcist" that isn't literally an exorcist, is that trans people are sent to therapists or psychologists before being allowed medical transition.

a direct analogy here would have OP implying that it's scientifically proven that therapists and psychology are made-up and don't work.

But I think the intention is more like "it's proven that the things they are asked to do in this case don't help and aren't necessary."

Ok so you do realize that gender clinics often employ people whose entire jobs are "figure out if the patient is faking being trans," right?

Like those aren't practicing psychology, and they don't have any meaningful expertise on transition care, which is performed by endocrinologists and surgeons further down the line. The gatekeeper is just some guy who asks how you masturbate and makes a vibes-based judgment on whether the answer means you're faking it.

That's what the analogy is for. The fake made up pseudoscience job.

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i've been thinking about aspiring for nullification surgery, i think i would be very happy with it and i would look super cute. but im worried that other people will lose interest in me. did you feel any worries like this and, if so, how did you approach them?

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Personally, I wasn't too worried about this because, to me, any relationship where they expected me to use what I had before was not going to work.

In addition, after I got nullification surgery, I was successfully able to pursue a relationship with the other person being quite interested in me, only ending because I realized I am aroace (I think????)

If you think it'll make you happy, you should go for it! And I'll bet you're right that you would look super cute and I'm sure others would think so too! (at least anyone you should be in a relationship with should like the version of you that makes you happiest and most comfortable!)

If you have any other questions or anything else, please feel free to reach out! My asks and DMs are always open!

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Before I got mine I definitely did worry if it would make romantic and sexual relationships more difficult, but I knew I still wanted it because the idea of those relationships wasn't very appealing to me without my body being in a state where I was more comfortable with it. I'm very happy to say that I needn't have worried. Partners who like me are always excited to learn how my body works :) Being more at peace with my form has also helped me pursue stuff like that more confidently which I think makes the most difference

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I learned last night through personal experience that you can in fact fist a neopussy, and it made me realize that so much of the propaganda against bottom surgery, even the really small ways that "a neopussy isn't like a *real* vagina" are complete fabrications.

I get wet when I'm horny, I have a vaginal microbiome, it feels like a cis vagina to partners who've been with cis women, and it can take a whole fucking HAND.

I just want to remind folks that the medical technology we have available is amazing, and that there are people and groups out there that have a vested interest in making sure you don't know that.

If you're on the fence don't listen to the propaganda. At the very least talk to a post op transfem before you decide.

Neopussies are the real deal and I just want as many folks as possible to know that.

curious what type of surgery OP had. afaik there aren't any that give you vaginal tissue that will self lubricate in response to arousal.

So here's the thing. I had a traditional PIV with hip grafts for added depth and convenience in regard to hair removal. While getting horny doesn't exactly flood my panties like in a hentai, I frequently have enough lubrication to easily have sex. I'll even have partners reach down during particularly intense make-out sessions and find that my thighs and labia are already basically soaked.

Lubrication was one of those things that really worried me when I was consulting with surgeons, and they all said the same thing, that neovaginas don't lubricate in response to arousal, but heres the thing, I never saw my surgeon after a three month video check up and I know that most surgeons stop seeing you after a year. I didn't even stop wearing pads for discharge until close to a year after sex and that isn't uncommon. Not to mention the fact that I've never even heard of a surgeon even asking about it in a post-op because they pretend that there's no way it could ever happen.

Now, I'm not trying to pretend that there's some kind of conspiracy to hide this from trans women because I don't think that's the case, but women's sexual health is a neglected field of research and trans women's sexual health even moreso. There simply isn't enough research to support or deny it, and surgeons tend to be very careful about making unproven claims.

At the end of the day, all I can say is that I, as a person, get on arousal, and from my sexual experience with more post op trans women than most people will *meet* in the average year I can safely say that I'm not the only one.

Anonymous asked:

I’m sorry if you’ve already posted about this, but do you have any resources or information on minimal/zero depth? When I went to schedule a consultation I was shocked to discover that no hair removal would be needed, and now I’m concerned there are more details that I am misinformed about.

So functionally there is little difference between the external vulva of a traditional vaginoplasty and a vulvoplasty/zero depth. There can be differences from surgeon to surgeon but most leave a dimple from about 1 centimeter to 2 and a half centimeters. There are some surgeons that can create a small canal anchored to the prostate that doesn't require dilation but the only surgeon I know for sure does this is Nicholas Esmonde at Legacy Good Samaritan in Portland Oregon. The primary reason surgeons require hair removal is to avoid hair growth in the vaginal canal which is obviously not present in a vulvoplasty. There is also the fact that vulvoplasty doesn't require any dilation to maintain it and has fewer risks due to limited internal work. If you have no desire for penetrative sex or any need to stealth in intimate encounters It's honestly a really good option and most any surgeon who performs vaginoplasty can and will provide zero depth. There are however surgeons that require either less or no hair removal at all due to the types of graft they use If you would still like a canal. My surgeon for example used skin from my hips which tend not to grow hair on most people. The surgeons I know of who use alternative grafts are Toby Meltzer and those trained by him Like the aforementioned Nick Esmonde and Ellie Zara Ley who use hip grafts or Doctor Stiller in Spokane WA who uses material from the sigmoid colon. There are definitely more but they will be listed in a more complete list as part of a project that I'm currently working on. As always if you have any other questions or questions that you would feel more comfortable asking in DMs please don't hesitate to message me or send a follow up ask. I hope this helps and that you have a good day.

okay I'm posting properly about my electrolysis project cuz I'm actually starting to wrap up the planning stage and I have nowhere else to go but forward, so:

hi, corrected some incorrect figures in the op cuz I messed up my math pls reblog this version instead of the bad one also discord link once again just in case:

updating this post with some developments that have developed:

1. thanks to the pawesome generosity of some really cool girls from here, the initial test program has been completely funded! this test program will involve building 5 units as a trial run of the assembly process, as well as assessing any design changes that may be needed for future runs.

2. the first batch of components for the test program has been ordered and should be arriving Wednesdayish, so there should be some more updates then.

3. I'm currently looking into whether it will be possible for me to ship the machines internationally, which would massively increase the potential reach of the project.

as always, the discord is the best place to keep tabs on the project and see more detailed info about what I'm working on. massive shoutout to my lovely angelic backers 🫶

hi everyone - another update to my electrology saga.

thanks to some really truly angelic donations I'm pleased to announce that I now fully intend to pursue this project further with the intention of developing a revision of the device which can be mass-produced with the aim of being able to sell kits to girls all around the world!

obviously there are gonna be some kinks to work out, and a lot of bumps in the road, but I think this has a lot of potential to help a lot of people.

I'm still focusing my energy into finishing the rev1 test program right now but expect announcements about rev2 (hopefully) very soon!

as always this project would be nothing without the generosity of my lovely backers. if you want to contribute to the project please get in touch either here or on the discord (you are in the discord, right?)

also, I am a volunteer doing all of this in my spare time. if you want to help keep the human behind the project going, check out my kofi link in my bio.

Hi! I was wondering if you knew anything about bottom surgery in Austalia, especifially if there are free or insurance related pathways toward it.

Thanks so much!

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Sadly I do not but I'm sure that I have followers that might have a better idea. If you have any tips or info for @mirror-mere please reply here and I'll make sure she gets it.

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My partner's needs to get an ok from a therapist for full depth, and the therapist is concerned that she won't be able to handle it. Despite advocation from me, her primary therapist, and her primary care doctor, that she would be fine. Any advice?

I'm not sure if "find another therapist to get an okay from" is an option, it's one of the hospitals therapists, and that seems to be the process they have in place, and they've got a monopoly on medicine in the area. So this one person gets to give the yay or nay on the whole thing.

Okay I'm going to direct the following to your partner. This is a complicated issue but I'm going to recommend that you request a full report of reasoning in writing from the hospital's therapist. Once you have received the reasoning in writing, request an appointment with the surgeon to discuss the hospital psych's decision and be prepared to present the reasoning alongside the letter from the hospital's therapist, both letters from the other psych and doctor, and a copy of WPATH SOC 8 with the section regarding surgical mental health requirements on page 258 highlighted. Print all of the documents, carefully and neatly hole-punch them and put them in a professional binder with a simple cover sheet that lists the contents, and bring it with you to the appointment. Start off by asking if the psychologists opinion aligns with the surgeons professional opinion and if so ask why. If not just discuss next steps and leave after concluding the appointment and requesting that the surgeons opinion be noted in your medical record. If the surgeon does agree with the hospital therapist discuss the reasoning of your own doctors and the documentation they provided. While discussing the documentation with the surgeon hand over the binder and go over each piece individually pointing out each document and giving your individual reasoning. The entire time be extremely careful to remain calm and avoid any accusatory language. Use "I feel" statements as much as possible unless discussing an objective fact such as "my doctor says in the letter" or "WPATH recommends". The goal is to not leave any way for this to be considered an emotional outburst. I would also recommend insisting that your partner be in the room with you and that they take notes. Make sure to request that all your concerns are noted in your chart and request that the surgeon repeats them to you once you are finished with the appointment. Make sure to provide copies of all documents through the hospital's my chart portal or similar secure message platform. This will insure that the hospital has both physical and digital versions of all documentation and can't claim to have lost them. I have found that an informed and professional approach alongside documents is the best way to advocate for ones self in any medical environment but especially when it comes to bottom surgery. As a group, trans people tend to be significantly more informed about their own medical state, and the available treatments than the average person and sometimes that reminder in the form of preperation is all you need. please feel free to message me privately and to send any follow up asks that you need to. I'm always happy to offer any help and try to respond as soon as I can.

Anonymous asked:

Hey I am planning on getting PIV full-depth vaginoplasty next year (I am aus, so with Dr Gideon Blecher who had rave reviews). One thing that is freaking me out is I am quite disabled - I have ME/CFS, POTS, likely hEDS and MCAS. I already have issues with incontinence downstairs (hence asking anon). To complicate matters, my Dr requires me to stop hormones for a few weeks - I've been on HRT 10 years. However I have HS/Acne Inversa and do get horrible breakouts/tunnels downstairs and worry that would also jeopardise the surgery. The surgeon/urologist are not familiar enough with these conditions to answer if I'll be OK. It worries me a lot. Have you heard of any chronically ill sisters (esp with ME/CFS) getting a vag and being mostly ok after? I can't deal with downstairs anymore, but I don't want to be injured or botched just to feel comfy in my skin.

Okay, I'll take this question in parts because there's a few things to address. For the Chronic fatigue it's going to depend on severity, regardless of who you are healing from a major surgery takes up a lot of energy. Part of that is making sure that you are getting more protein, carbs and hydration than usual. Your body is going to need a lot of energy and resources to repair itself and you need to account for that in recovery. Another thing to keep in mind is sodium intake. You'll have to balance it carefully because people with cfs and pots tend to require a lot of sodium which can cause more swelling. Pots and cfs require a lot of the same countermeasures but you also have to account for standing and showering. Make sure you have a caregiver with you for longer than recommended to make sure that you aren't injuring yourself trying to manage basic tasks. Come to terms with the fact that you're going to be struggling the first couple weeks and try to arrange sleep medications with your specialists prior to surgery to help with the exhaustion. I also suffer from pots and chronic fatigue and will say that having to sleep on by back with a catheter in didn't make things easier. Most surgeons have experience with eds, and the biggest issues there are wound seperation and healing. so the biggest thing is keeping a close eye on stitches and keeping your doctor informed if anything seems off. Do not be afraid to ask your surgeon about any concerns you have while healing.

The acne is probably more of a problem. Meet with a dermatologist if you can to set up a plan. You should also make a request with the surgeon to stay on either a lower estrogen dose or at least you antiandrogen. make clear that you understand potential thrombosis risk and say that you are willing to send him a physical if needed.

Dr blecher seems to be an extremely experienced and competent urologist and should be able to avoid worsening any incontinence concerns. There's always a risk of complications but I would hope Blecher would do everything he can to avoid them. Vaginoplasty is a stressful and complex procedure and disabilities make it harder both physically and emotionally. You seem to have an understanding of your body and needs, so as long as you can advocate for yourself I'm confident that you can handle the surgery and recovery.

If the recent disability anon is comfortable DM'ing me, I have some clarifying questions about one of your concerns that affect how I answer. I can still answer regardless, I just want to make sure that I can provide as much accurate information as I can.

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I know a lot of people want PPV and thats amazing but I need you to understand if you want that make sure whoever your surgeon is will 100% comepletely preserve the bulbospongiosus muscle yes this is possible you need to talk to them beforehand some surgeons will do this but others will try to say they need to remove this its not necessary and practically unethical this muscle is really important for a number of reasons quality of life, urinary function preventing risks of UTI i just know theres a lot of people who are interested bc obviously its cool to have both there isnt a lot info about vaginoplasty, often surgeons dont do a good job of informing you what the nature of surgeries are and how it will feel in general and theres even less information about PPV