A message to those who are going through syscovery, or have only recently gone through it:
Syscovery doesn't usually happen all at once. You'll figure out you're a system, but you typically won't have access to all of your alters or even know that they all are there, your communication with them will likely be poor or non-existent, you almost always won't fully remember (or even remember anything about) the trauma that gave you a cdd, and you likely won't have access to an inner world or headspace yet.
Syscovery can also happen in bursts or cycles. You can continually discover your system, fall into denial/forget about it, then it can be revealed to you again. We went through about 3 or 4 syscoveries BEFORE diagnosis.
As your acceptance becomes more consistent and you begin to feel more safe, your alters and some of your repressed memories will begin to reveal themselves. Communication will improve. Awareness of switches, fronts, co-consciousness, etc. will improve.
And, it won't be linear. Alters can shut down, go dormant, communication can be halted or get worse, amnesia can affect your knowledge of your system, denial can overtake you
Just keep in mind that healing isn't linear, and neither is self-acceptance. Denial and amnesia work together, and denial itself is one of the most commonly reported symptoms of all cdds. Be kind and patient with yourselves.
