i give so much credit to smut writers especially the ones that go into the nitty gritty detail because every time i try write any smut i CRINGE so badly. i love you guys. thank you for feeding the freaks.
fic snippet playing in my head where ollie and jason are interacting post gotham war but pre ollie’s whole waller thing in absolute power…(something something canon divergence jason left gotham and went to roy for help but roy is struggling to balance being newly reunited with lian and taking care of fear toxin lobotomy jason so enter ollie)… jason is still under the effects of the fear toxin lobotomy (truly ridiculous to think that can just be wrapped up as it was) jason is forced by the circumstances to be vulnerable.. he says he doesn’t want to live like this… ollie’s memory flashes back to the plane and the bomb and clark… ollie remembering the feeling of balancing on that tipping point, miserable in life but just fighting a few moments more as he bleeds out, how the threat of losing his arm nudged him down into the abyss. ollie still remembers what it feels like to rather die than lose a piece of your autonomy (or rather die than continue at all). even though ollie’s life has never been so full of love and those he would not leave (..that way) as it is now, he is intimately familiar with the feeling. there is only one thing ollie can offer to the kid—what saved him after he returned. family, community, connection :) and before ollie knows it that bastard has weaseled his way into ollie’s heart and their dinner table for chili nights
