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Falling

My first collab for this year’s @deancasbdsmbang with the amazing @whoipretended2b.

Biggest thanks to my author for the absolutely gorgeous fic! It was so much more than I could expect for my humble prompt!

Thank you mods so much for this bang! I love it to bits!

And now for the real thing. The fic is an absolute masterpiece blending BDSM themes and Dean’s post hell trauma. Don’t deny yourselves the pleasure (and pain) of this one.

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Push Me Away

Author: @malicmalic

Artist: @szlez

Rating: Explicit

Word Count: 5,400

Pairings: Castiel/Dean Winchester

Content Warnings: None

Tags: Alternate universe - BDSM setting, Dom!Cas, Sub!Dean, smoking, scening, miscommunication, feelings, psychological issues, restraints, anal hook, aftercare, First kiss, touch-starved!Dean, handjobs.

Summary: Dean has always been good for Castiel. He’s eager, obedient, and hungry for every touch. 

Tonight he is none of those things, and Castiel has no idea why.

Sneak Peek: Dean’s jaw tightened, but he nodded and turned around to bring what Castiel asked for. He handed the paddles over wordlessly, then just stood there, waiting on his new orders. He was quiet, too quiet. And Dean knew Castiel didn’t like it when he was quiet.

“I was thinking thirty, for every minute you were late, but considering your behavior since you arrived, I might just double that,” Castiel said, waiting to see Dean’s reaction. It didn’t disappoint. Or rather, it did.

“Sixty? Are you out of your mind? I won’t be able to sit!” Dean snapped, now openly staring directly at Castiel.

“Would you like me to add another thirty for mouthing off?” Castiel pushed on, needed to assert his dominance, needing to show Dean who exactly was in charge here. For a few moments, nobody spoke, but Dean did glare at him like he wanted to murder him.

Then, just when Castiel thought he would back down, Dean spat out a nice, heartfelt “Fuck you!”

Posting Date: August 24

Yay! My second collab with @malicmalic will soon be live!

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Falling

Artist: @szlez

Rating: Explicit

Word Count: 9,670

Pairings: Castiel/Dean Winchester

Content Warnings: None

Tags: BDSM, Top Castiel/Bottom Dean, Dom Castiel/Sub Dean, Collars, Cockcage, subspace, idiots in love, post-hell Dean Winchester, Praise Kink, Angel grace

Summary: Fresh out of Hell, Dean Winchester accidentally prays to Castiel in the middle of a bad BDSM scene.

Castiel comes when Dean calls. And when Dean admits he can’t trust anyone enough to let go, Castiel offers to be his Dom. After all, he has the strength and control Dean needs and he can hear Dean’s prayers. He can stop before Dean has to ask.

It should work.

But the more they scene together, the harder it becomes for Castiel to get Dean to surrender to subspace.

Castiel knows he is doing something wrong.

He just doesn’t know what.

Sneak Peek: Dean let himself into the room. Sam was gone, but the bed was messy and his laptop was open, screen still aglow. Dean checked his phone and rolled his eyes. He sat on the bed that was still made. He did nothing else. He did not relax on the bed and he did not turn on the TV.

“You are—” Castiel began but stopped. “You should drink water.”

Dean snorted, but he pushed up, went to the tiny counter, and filled up one of the plastic cups. He drank it in three long swallows, throat working as he did so. Why was watching Dean drink so appealing?

“Can you explain it?”

Dean set the cup down and made eye contact in the mirror. “Explain what? I told you.”

“You said you like being tied,” Castiel said. “That you like letting someone else… ‘run the show’. These are mechanics, not meaning. I want to understand why.”

“You really don’t do small talk.” Dean drummed his fingers on the counter. “My head is quiet, when it’s good.”

Castiel nodded.

“When it’s good, I got nothing to worry about. Guy says to put my hands behind my back, I put ‘em there. Tells me not to move, I don’t move. That’s it. No monsters. No seals. Just… doing what I’m told. All the noise…” He tapped his temple. “Goes away.”

“And tonight the noise… got louder instead?”

Dean rolled his eyes and faced him. “Got a real talent for the obvious, you know that?”

He rubbed his hand over his face, left his palm over his eyes for a moment, then dropped it. “So. Congratulations. Now you know why your righteous-ass soldier of the Lord spent his Friday night in a dungeon with a safe word.”

“I could help you,” Castiel said.

Posting Date: August 18

My first collab for this year’s @deancasbdsmbang is with @whoipretended2b, who picked my prompt and exceeded all my expectations with this hot and angsty fic. Can’t wait for you all to read it!

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Falling

Artist: @szlez

Rating: Explicit

Word Count: 9,670

Pairings: Castiel/Dean Winchester

Content Warnings: None

Tags: BDSM, Top Castiel/Bottom Dean, Dom Castiel/Sub Dean, Collars, Cockcage, subspace, idiots in love, post-hell Dean Winchester, Praise Kink, Angel grace

Summary: Fresh out of Hell, Dean Winchester accidentally prays to Castiel in the middle of a bad BDSM scene.

Castiel comes when Dean calls. And when Dean admits he can’t trust anyone enough to let go, Castiel offers to be his Dom. After all, he has the strength and control Dean needs and he can hear Dean’s prayers. He can stop before Dean has to ask.

It should work.

But the more they scene together, the harder it becomes for Castiel to get Dean to surrender to subspace.

Castiel knows he is doing something wrong.

He just doesn’t know what.

Sneak Peek: Dean let himself into the room. Sam was gone, but the bed was messy and his laptop was open, screen still aglow. Dean checked his phone and rolled his eyes. He sat on the bed that was still made. He did nothing else. He did not relax on the bed and he did not turn on the TV.

“You are—” Castiel began but stopped. “You should drink water.”

Dean snorted, but he pushed up, went to the tiny counter, and filled up one of the plastic cups. He drank it in three long swallows, throat working as he did so. Why was watching Dean drink so appealing?

“Can you explain it?”

Dean set the cup down and made eye contact in the mirror. “Explain what? I told you.”

“You said you like being tied,” Castiel said. “That you like letting someone else… ‘run the show’. These are mechanics, not meaning. I want to understand why.”

“You really don’t do small talk.” Dean drummed his fingers on the counter. “My head is quiet, when it’s good.”

Castiel nodded.

“When it’s good, I got nothing to worry about. Guy says to put my hands behind my back, I put ‘em there. Tells me not to move, I don’t move. That’s it. No monsters. No seals. Just… doing what I’m told. All the noise…” He tapped his temple. “Goes away.”

“And tonight the noise… got louder instead?”

Dean rolled his eyes and faced him. “Got a real talent for the obvious, you know that?”

He rubbed his hand over his face, left his palm over his eyes for a moment, then dropped it. “So. Congratulations. Now you know why your righteous-ass soldier of the Lord spent his Friday night in a dungeon with a safe word.”

“I could help you,” Castiel said.

Posting Date: August 18

My first collab for this year’s @deancasbdsmbang is with @whoipretended2b, who picked my prompt and exceeded all my expectations with this hot and angsty fic. Can’t wait for you all to read it!

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7 days

Rating: Explicit Archive Warnings: Descriptions of Dead Bodies, Vomiting, Mentions of Suicide, Child Death, Temporary MCD Word count: 36k Tags: Inspired by The Ring, Established Relationship, Alternate Angel Lore

Summary:

Never open an email attachment from an unknown sender. It’s a good rule to live by. Investigative reporter Castiel Novak breaks it anyway, accidentally exposing himself to disturbing video footage that kills anyone who watches it within seven days. When his husband Dean watches the footage too, a race against time begins. Can Castiel save them both before their seven days are up?
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Coming to you on September 14

Ningyo

Written by ani_ona with art by grandle @niceworkhuggybear

Rating: Explicit

Word count: ~10k

Characters: Dean Winchester, Castiel 

Ships: Castiel/Dean Winchester

Tags: No archive warnings apply, Established Relationship, (nearly) Human Castiel, Top Castiel/Bottom Dean Winchester, Emotional Sex, Post Canon, Case Fic, Growing Old Together, Angst, Humor, Canon-Typical Violence 

Summary: While on a retirement vacation in Hawaii, Dean and Cas unexpectedly stumble upon a case, even though they don’t hunt anymore. As a result, they will have to face not only a brutal, gruesome crime, but also their own insecurities, fears and buried emotions. 

Excerpt: Castiel stepped aside, revealing the view to Dean. Dean instinctively recoiled. At the bottom of the ditch, partially buried in decaying vegetation, lay a skeleton. And it wasn’t a “normal” skeleton – one like that wouldn’t have made an impression on Dean; he’d seen hundreds of them. This one had a tail. 

I generally only post my own art on this blog, but it's a fic by my real life destiel bestie @aniona29, whom I personally bullied to take part in this bang with art by an outstanding and one-of-a-kind @grandle

Can't wait to read it!

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Author: FriendofCarlotta || @friendofcarlotta Artist: szlez || @szlez Rating: Explicit Archive Warnings: Descriptions of Dead Bodies, Vomiting, Mentions of Suicide, Child Death, Temporary MCD Word count: 36k Tags: Inspired by The Ring, Established Relationship, Alternate Angel Lore Summary:

Never open an email attachment from an unknown sender.

It’s a good rule to live by, unless you’re a reporter and the email makes reference to your investigation of missing persons cases. Maybe even then, because when Castiel Novak opens the attachment, he’s exposed to disturbing video footage that is said to kill anyone who watches it within seven days.

The more Castiel learns about the footage, the more he comes to believe that it’s connected to the case of Anna Milton, one of the people whose disappearance he has been investigating. When his husband Dean is exposed to the footage as well, Castiel becomes locked in a race to save them both before their seven days are up.

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Never open an email attachment from an unknown sender. It’s a good rule to live by, unless you’re a reporter and the email makes reference to your investigation of missing persons cases. Maybe even then, because when Castiel Novak opens the attachment, he’s exposed to disturbing video footage that is said to kill anyone who watches it within seven days. The more Castiel learns about the footage, the more he comes to believe that it’s connected to the case of Anna Milton, one of the people whose disappearance he has been investigating. When his husband Dean is exposed to the footage as well, Castiel becomes locked in a race to save them both before their seven days are up.

Posting date: August 2nd, 2026

YAY!

For years I've been dying to team up with @friendofcarlotta in a bang!

Can't wait for all of you to read it on Aug 2nd!

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Author: FriendofCarlotta || @friendofcarlotta Artist: szlez || @szlez Rating: Explicit Archive Warnings: Descriptions of Dead Bodies, Vomiting, Mentions of Suicide, Child Death, Temporary MCD Word count: 36k Tags: Inspired by The Ring, Established Relationship, Alternate Angel Lore Summary:

Never open an email attachment from an unknown sender.

It’s a good rule to live by, unless you’re a reporter and the email makes reference to your investigation of missing persons cases. Maybe even then, because when Castiel Novak opens the attachment, he’s exposed to disturbing video footage that is said to kill anyone who watches it within seven days.

The more Castiel learns about the footage, the more he comes to believe that it’s connected to the case of Anna Milton, one of the people whose disappearance he has been investigating. When his husband Dean is exposed to the footage as well, Castiel becomes locked in a race to save them both before their seven days are up.

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Never open an email attachment from an unknown sender. It’s a good rule to live by, unless you’re a reporter and the email makes reference to your investigation of missing persons cases. Maybe even then, because when Castiel Novak opens the attachment, he’s exposed to disturbing video footage that is said to kill anyone who watches it within seven days. The more Castiel learns about the footage, the more he comes to believe that it’s connected to the case of Anna Milton, one of the people whose disappearance he has been investigating. When his husband Dean is exposed to the footage as well, Castiel becomes locked in a race to save them both before their seven days are up.

Posting date: August 2nd, 2026

YAY!

For years I've been dying to team up with @friendofcarlotta in a bang!

Can't wait for all of you to read it on Aug 2nd!

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