oh man i have soooo so many thoughts about how shane’s autism and anxiety and (definitely canon) ocd manifest post-outing. like yeah all the tools he used to emotionally regulate and his safe space and his sense of security have been forcibly expunged from his life and now he’s in a literal spiral trying to white knuckle it and stay together and act happy about everything. oh man he goes completely nonverbal and doesn’t understand why he can’t speak and what’s blocking his throat so he’s reaching into his mouth trying to pull out the fucking cake or whatever the hell is stuck just past his tonsils but its not working and nothing is getting past his tongue and he is just. silent and struggling and fuck it’s happening here too in his own fucking house while he’s bent over the sink with his fingers in his mouth trying to get something to work