hyuna is so interesting to me. in contrast to mizi, who sees the faults in sua but blatantly ignores them to keep up their little paradise of love, safe from the impending doom of the future, hyuna is forced to grapple with the pain of loving luka, and in turn, cannot forgive him for it and refuses to acknowledge that side of herself.

i feel like hyuna’s desperation for the rebellion is mainly rooted in a deep desire to keep a family that she once lost. isaac and dewey are her closest friends, her companions, and in choosing to not save the people on stage, she is trying to run away from the fear that once again, the society she is from will tear her family apart.

as she cannot forgive what luka has done to her, as he has traumatized her for years to come, even in the rebellion, part of herself cannot forgive herself, for still subconsciously loving him, as it feels like not only a disrespect to herself, but her little brother as well.

this is why hyuna copes through alcohol and partying for others, because i believe that a part of herself feels that she cannot open herself up to others again, or she will be hurt again, and still begrudgingly care about them.

i love her so much, because even in spite of all of this, her social and caring personality is still there. she wants to guide others to a path of safety, and give others the life that she feels she might never achieve. despite all of her guilt, she is still one of the most caring and courageous individuals in alien stage.

also look at how cute she is as a baby, i know she was a lil sweetheart in anakt 😭<3 oh hyuna you deserve the world

yknow that one tumblr post about two friends who’d just beat the shit out of each other because that was their default emotional response and was better than taking it out on anyone else obviously

if mizi and ivan weren’t just faking 99.9% of the time that could’ve been them

For Hyuna they’ll keep shaking tha butty, Dumbass trio lives on

this happens after the last scene

so this was on her birthday.....

:(

also didn't realize that the twitter embed wouldn't show the whole image...here it is:

ivan begins the cover with till's part in a voice that is soft and docile, conceding itself to mizi in a duet rather than challenging her in competition. this becomes pronounced when you juxtapose his vocals with till's desperate mania in the original version. ivan's silouhette depicts him in luka's light-blue backless outfit. ivan faces left.

mizi is facing right, opposite to ivan, and is cast in green, veering yellow. her vocals are low, strong, and husky, and she assumes luka's verses & lines. her silouette has her in till's finale outfit.

the image for ivanmizi's blink gone cover encaptulates their relationship. luka dominates till while staring at him dead-on, exploiting his distress and instability, ivan and mizi stand in proximity, but look off in opposite directions. they perform for others (the out-of-sight audience), but not for each other; they gain and lose nothing by engaging with each other's personas. they participate in a competition of exploitation (blink gone being a pivotal moment in the series, where the competition culminates in luka's victory), but their vocals lack the growls of lukatill's power struggle. mizi is cast in shadow, and she is outlined in green—her feminimity does not benefit ivan, nor is he interested in it. this allows her to be some modicum of "honest" with him, thus she is not her signature pink, but instead, the color of her eyes.

perks of being a twin

They are siblings to me

my personal hc is that ivan’s best dreams are him crawling into till’s veins and ceasing to exist and ivan’s worst nightmares are actually having sex with till. does that make sense

this was brought about by my own meta post abt ivan’s bday art actually, bc the karaoke scene in round 6 strongly implies that they were sexually assaulted, but where till fights back ivan just accepts it. which has SO many interesting implications, but it also got me thinking like… we know ivan has canonically had r18 thoughts about till before, and he was the one who found till after the karaoke scene in round 6, so i can’t help but wonder… given how little they know about human sexuality, i think ivan’s r18 fantasies would actually be his nightmares.

he already thinks of himself and his feelings as twisted and wrong, and while we might extrapolate that to place it in the context of the “predatory gay man” trope and deconstructing that, in and of itself ivan doesn’t think his feelings are wrong because he’s attracted to men. he thinks they’re wrong because they’re intense, obsessive and possessive, nothing like how his peers show their affection. and him having r18 fantasies would only reinforce that.

and so given the karaoke scene and all its disturbing implications, i wonder if, in ivan’s eyes, having those r18 fantasies would make him no better than a segyein. after all, that’s probably their only knowledge/experience of sexual encounters. as far as we know, they seem to understand human sexuality only on a biological level (they don’t know what kissing means, and the true face comic where the guy says men and women can’t be friends bc it leads to mating).

which is why i think that ivan’s worst nightmares would be actually having sex with till. who tops/bottoms is irrelevant here, it’s just the act of touching him in that manner that makes it so disturbing for him.

so then his best dreams are crawling into till’s veins and ceasing to exist/anything along that vein (ha) because well. paratise exists. i don’t think i need to explain further

one aspect of the world mizisua create is the night. we are told that mizisua used to stargaze together, occasionally falling asleep under the night sky. with less eyes on them and each other's warmth for comfort, the night became a place for them as they searched for pinpricks of light in the dark - hope in the abyss.

to comfort them both, this fantasy of theirs becomes more obviously childish as their world grows harsher around them, and as they themselves grow up. no longer do they look at the real stars in the real sky, instead they rely on a projection of stars on the wall - the blue night in the splendid lighting.

where even this is insufficient, mizisua are shown to be dozing off during the day, desperate to escape reality and return to a dream. the dream for them is something that stops the world around them - where even time is asleep.

but they both know that it can't last forever, seen by the way they grow more unstable as danger approaches. but while mizi breaks through this illusion on multiple occasions to reflect this instability, all sua does is cling to it harder, working to create that perfect show on the stage that they've dreamed of for so long. after all, mizi is her dream, and it won't disappear as long as mizi is alive.

the night is darkness, it's its own separate world, and it's their dream. for sua, born on the longest night, what is death but the longest sleep, the longest dream?

don't leave me