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MEspinoza

@mespinozart

Welcome to my blog where I share all my art and reblog anything related to my current obsession. Currently on TGCF/Hualian brainrot. 18+ only

New Year, New Intro

Welcome to my blog. I'm a little blob that lives in the void.

This is my main art account. I also reblog a lot, like a lot, more than I post.

Current hyperfixation is TGCF (hulian/wulian) so most of my art is fan art. I also write as a hobby, and you can read all about it here .

You can also follow me on bluesky (a lesser copy of this account) or mastodon (if you wanna get to know me better)

I have a ko-fi where you can buy me as many coffees as you want. Tips are very welcome and encourage. I'll soon have a Patreon (hopefully)

Ask me anything, yell at me about everything, just make yourselves at home.

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Every day I think about the fact that Hua Cheng genuinely had no hope in Xie Lian ever returning his feelings, and was content to love him silently for eternity.

It wasn't "I'll be strong so gege will want me!" No, it was "I'll be strong, so I can keep him safe."

It wasn't "His Highness will love me if there's an armory!" It was just, "This will make him happy."

He didn't take out 33 gods because he wanted to be thanked, or because he thought Xie Lian would be grateful at all. He did it because they insulted him, and that was enough.

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in many of my Mutual circles i feel like a creep watching through the window like Hi guysss … crickets…. Who invited this guy

if ur my follower and u engage with my posts often rest assured ur username and icon combo is in my mind and I see it and go oh yeah I know that guy yay

PSA to every woman or woman adjascent person you can wear swim trunks. Like instead of bikini bottoms or above your swimsuit. That is an option. You don't have to wear what is essentially just very revealing panties in public. You can wear swim trunks. I'm making this post because I didn't realise that this was an option for the longest time but like you can wear swim trunks

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The older I get, the more I realize that someone making time for you is one of the clearest signs they care. everyone is busy. everyone has responsibilities and their own battles to fight. so when someone consistently chooses to spend their time with you, checks on you, and makes space for you in their life, it means something. time is one thing we can never get back, and people don’t give it away lightly.

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I need more drunk Xie Lian! I need him being silly, giggling, swaying, swaggering, dancing, stammering, flushing, brawling, slurring, downing shots like an idiot, hitting on Hua Cheng while completely wasted, throwing punches if someone insults HC, passing out while kissing him and drooling prettily on his chest 🙌

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Unproblematic Blorbo Post(tm)

I LOVE* BLORBO AND SKLIMPO BIMPO** SO MUCH THEYRE SO GOOD***

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*The author of this post is aware that blorbo has committed many atrocities in canon which are in no way condoned by the author. The author is a feminist who supports human rights.

**By saying they love Blorbo and Sklimpo Bimpo, the author means they find the dynamic of a passionate, world-breaking love interesting to explore from the safety of fiction, aware that certain behaviors Blorbo exhibits would be considered "abusive" by modern standards and the author does not in any way partake in such behaviors in their real life, as they would find them questionable.

***When the author says Blorbo is "good", they mean they are a well written character with really interesting dynamics to the author personally, who finds parallels to their own struggles in Blorbo's story, but that in no way means that everything that Blorbo does is something the author has or personally would do.

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“I think about you when I see this character you love” is a form of love language. I hope people think about me when they see my blorbos

You know that whatever character did those problematic things isn't like. Real, right?

You are aware that a fictional character is just a rhetorical construct designed to fulfill a narrative/thematic purpose right? That their actions are written by an author who wants to use them to explore complex ideas and moral gray areas within the safe confines of fiction right? That they aren't a real person who has killed real people right?

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OCD things that you don't hear about:

  • episodes of paranoia, delusions, and dissociation
  • cyclical thoughts/spirals
  • magical thinking
  • episodes that can be very similar to psychosis or mania
  • attributing human emotions to inanimate objects
  • dermatillomania and trichotillomania
  • false sensations (like bugs crawling on skin)
  • paying way too much attention to very small things
  • physical health issues caused by compulsions
  • symptoms that are "problematic" (doing things that are considered "wasteful", needing reassurance or validation from others...)
  • extreme, deep, dreadful fear of things that can't truly be explained
  • disconnect between emotional and cognitive/logical responses or thoughts
  • contamination fears
  • problems with addiction and dopamine regulation
  • other people trying to force exposure therapy onto you without your consent and it making your anxiety way worse
  • list making
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You’ve grown into someone who would have protected you as a child. And that is the most powerful move you made.