Pacing back and forth, hands in my pockets, slinking behind others preoccupied with things. It feels like hunting. It’s making my drive go crazy, I am watching everyone; I feel like my brain is heavy and my ears are perked, my eyes keep darting, my tail is stiff as a board. I feel everything so tensed, I’m so ready to go that it hurts a little. My fangs ache. I miss the taste of blood; I had it last night. I could devour. I could devour.
Godwolf has made themself some beautifully seared pork chops. Amazing; the spices are so nice and the fragrance is wonderful. It's ticklish in its spicy way, it's amazing, and tastes lovely with this buttery fat around its edges and areas. Aaahhhh. If only I could enjoy it raw, I'd love it. But for now, I will have it cooked like this, and enjoy it with a fast wagging tail. Wuff wuuf.
I recall when I was younger, I used to try to get involved in therian communities in hope to have a pack. It was a cute effort, but there is something strange in trying to make connection for a single purpose. Like, manufactured closeness just to have a pack. It was no surprise those didn’t work out well—it was hard to have a group I considered close enough to be intertwined with, when there was no chance of connection outside of that single purpose.
All this to say, I am okay with or without a wolf pack. Even if others aren’t wolves or adjacent like I am, the few I consider close are my pack and that’s valid enough, too. I am happy with what I have, and I am happy to be a lone wolf too. My community doesn’t define my species. Only I do.
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Non human romance <3
Booping your snoots together
Nuzzling each other
Making noises at eachother
Kneading at them
Sleeping close to eachother for warmth
Eating food together and sharing
Non human romance is peak <33
Me with my purrartner. Waaahhh I miss my beloved so muchhhh. I can’t wait to nuzzle again, I love it when they do it so so so so much.
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I hate when I get upset by people referring too me as human, I’d never say anything but it always puts me in a bad mood, I know it’s a tad unreasonable to think others view me as a dog, I’m aware I appear human, but let me be irrational ans mad for a bit because NONOKONONO I AM A DOG DONT ASSOCIATE ME WITH THOSE NONO ARGHHHH
Me with my Godkin identity. Like, aaahhh… I know how humans tend to feel, calling anyone a God, Deity, or something holy, how offensively most take it, how they associate it with something evil, self serving, delusional. But it isn’t that. I just want to be referred to as I am. I did not choose it, I cannot help it, and simply being a Divine being is not an immediate say of superiority. It’s just what I am. Same to an Earthly being, or an Extraterrestrial being—I am just a Divine being.
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Alterhumanity really is an iceberg. Like at the surface you have your wolf therians, otherhearted, angelkin, etc., which people are generally aware of... but if you dig deep enough and long enough you'll find blogs for people who don't exist, unknown gods with two faces and too many eyes, and tropical centipedes in human form.
I mean I just love it.
And this isn’t even to explain how those “surface” ones have intense layers within them, too. Ones who are more or less shapeshifters simply appearing as those animals, ones who are of breeds long thought to be gone or don’t exist in Earthly writing, ones of species that many have never heard of, crossbreeds and forms of something divine landing in the overall shape of something ‘familiar’ (like me). Angels of rungs and choirs unheard of, names purely made from the realms they come from. They are’t such “surface” things at all. There is so much variety, nuance, and deepness in it all.
It’s all wonderful, it’s such a community of beings to live forever.
Sometimes I feel like sleeping without a blanket is like being in nature, within my controlled den. If my den is to be safest and ideal, I should be just as comfy napping without a blanket too. Also it makes me feel more animalistic, like I have chosen this batch of land to rest upon. I lie down my weary head and will doze, imagining the feel of grass on my fur and the sunlight as my cover.
Strange ??? phantom shift ??? I am and have been a wolf today, albiet a little blurry about it all, but still wolf. Yet for some reason I just had a phantom limb feeling of my ears, so tall and pointed, black like the rest of me. But typically, when I am in my fox form do I have excessively long, pointed ears. In wolf, it's fairly smaller and round, more akin to the ones that live on Earth.
Head tilt... what was that? Maybe it was some odd mixture of the two? I really do not think I have pointy ears such as that as a wolf...?? Am I shifting and it's taking forever to transition from wolf to fox?
I wish there was more of a way to react in a canine way with the body I operate in. Many times I wish to bury my muzzle into my paws, huff and snarl softly to show distaste and frustration, but I am at work, or in public with others. There is no good equivalent other than glaring, and I already have an awful ARF (angry resting face, so many times humans ask if I'm okay or mad at something). But I want to swish my tail in annoyance, I want to bare my teeth at things I dislike, I want to smack my paws and sneeze for attention, I want to growl with my chest and it be enough for others to know to step back.
Aahhhjhgnnmmm. Huffs and lies my snout on my paws. Godwolf is not very happy.
Have always had the most annoying tic… but something I notice is that I always shake my head and huff, like a wolf, after. It’s so silly. Sometimes it sucks, especially when it happens often in a row… but if I can humor my experience a little to feel more okay with it, then I always will. *Tail wag.