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public universal eater of sin of course I still love you

this is my pinned post where I explain everything about myself that I want you to know:

  • trans woman, it/she
  • you can send asks with questions, particularly about HRT but anything really. I don't promise anything, but when I do answer I try very hard to be helpful.
  • you have to remember I am not a medical professional of any kind. I have and will get things wrong, don't take anything I say as Immutably True. trust, but verify
  • you can even ask me stupid questions that you want to ask a trans woman but are scared to. this should ideally begin with "I'm confused, will you please help me?". I might be annoyed but I'll still try to be patient, meet me in the middle.
  • you can DM me if you truly need to, but I may or may not respond. I'm sorry, my audience is too big for this now. I'd talk to everyone, even you, but there's only one of me.
  • I really like hearing peoples' thoughts, I read pretty much every reblog/tag. this is a great way to get me to talk to you.
  • I do not tag anything ever, I expect you to handle your discomfort or unfollow.
  • I assume anons are fems unless otherwise specified
  • I love you. Yes, even you. I wouldn't stop even if I knew how.

Because the US is the center of a global capitalist military-industrial hegemony that goes out of its way to economically, militarily, diplomatically, or via espionage undermine any threat to its empire, all those who live within it are complicit regardless of status, marginalization, or suffering, because we are THE oppressors of the world not a bastion of freedom.

To react poorly to this information on the material state of the world is the same as any other oppressor’s reaction to the oppressed, and when those marginalized within empire do so, we are simply recreating the same dynamics we deride when, for example, a queer white person says they cannot be an oppressor because they are marginalized via their queerness.

All the marginalities, all the suffering, that those who exist within the bounds of the US empire experience are secondary to their presence in the center of a global empire because even those worst off here are still better off than their contemporaries in the imperial periphery.

If having this information pointed out angers you, enrages you, to know that you have a positionality that places you as the oppressor due simply to where you live, then maybe you should start figuring out how to take action in a way that makes it so that the US empire can no longer oppress the world.

And no, I don’t mean fucking “vote”. I mean actually learn and organize—whether it’s with other anarchists, other communists, other abolitionists, or whatever other anti-imperial group suits your ideologies. Don’t fucking rage at those oppressed outside the US Empire for speaking on the material and true state of the world, fucking find a way to act against it instead of venting your guilt and anger at the oppressed just like every oppressor always does.

Like girl we wasnt benefitting from chattel slavery as Black folks but the US began becoming an empire beyond the borders of North America in the 1800s and between the territories/puppet states, global domination of the US petrodollar, the 750+ military bases across 80ish countries, the ability to access broad and specific benefits of living squarely in the center of the empire REGARDLESS OF IF WE CHOOSE TO UTILIZE THEM OR NOT, cheap goods and yearlong access to a wide range of food due to our exploitation of the periphery and semiperiphery?

In 2026 for fucking sure we benefit from living in the heart of empire. The fact that so many of us can’t see the way that every single facet of life in the US empire is subsidized by our exploitation and domination of the rest of the world, no matter how shitty our lives remain as a group or community because much of that benefit goes to the cishet, the abled, the white, and most of all the rich? That we have the privilege of putting on blinders and not seeing the exploitation our every waking moment within the empire is built on, of pretending any of us are exempt, is itself part of that.

So after posting this I decided to look up the median annual incomes/salaries by country because I was curious of the actual degree to which we benefit and. Holy fuck. I knew it was bad but the degree to which even other Western/imperial core countries are worse off than the US is unhinged.

For reference, median is the average when discarding outliers (such as billionaires). Exact median incomes vary by country/year/survey, and racial poverty rates can vary heavily by locale. The 2026 federal poverty level is $15,960 for a single person.

In 2025, the median income in the US was $53,010. By race, it was as follows:

  • Asian: $70,002
  • Non-Hispanic White: $60,601
  • Pacific Islander: $50,000
  • Black: $45,050
  • Mixed: $45,001
  • American Indian: $42,691
  • Hispanic or Latino of any race: $40,000

Now I want you to take a look at a comparison of median annual salaries per some countries using most recent available data. This is an outtake of 43 countries, I chose it because it represents solely in USD and doesn’t require conversion, but it does show 2023 instead of 2025 US median for comparison.

First, let’s look at the very top, where the US sits at 5th highest.

Now I’d like to show you the point in the list where the overall median income for each country is lower than the lowest US median salary by race.

Like, France? FRANCE?? We have almost twice the median salary of fucking France, one of the biggest historical colonizers and exploiters of Africa’s wealth and resources??? The lowest median incomes by race in the US are still 10k higher *minimum* than Italy and Spain too???

And now I’d like to show you from the point on the list where the median annual income is below the US federal poverty level.

Mind you, this is from a website that gives comparisons for places workers predominantly from the imperial core may want to move to, this does not include many periphery countries that imperial core residents consider not worth moving to either due to standards of living, political or military issues, climate change destruction, or more.

“But Anonsee, the median isn’t every person, plenty of USians are poor and suffering!”

Comrade the conditions we consider the most horrible and inhumane in the US are just the standard of living (sometimes even higher than!) for portions of the periphery, often explicitly due to the exploitation, intervention, or genocide from the US or other imperial core countries.

Our poor and homeless often still are able to get or maintain access to resources such as phones, cars, medical supplies, etc. explicitly because the positionality of being the heart of the empire makes such supplies so comparatively cheap and the constant flow of goods enable us to access them secondhand. The conditions in places such as reservations that we point to in order to prove not everyone in the US benefits from the current empire are often still better than in many places in the periphery where we suck every resource dry for our benefit, and often don’t have the benefit of relying on diaspora or being within a day’s trip of accessing resources at the empire’s benefitted rates.

Our charity, our mutual aid, our earned income, our suffering, our hellscapes, everything here in the heart of the empire in this modern age is tainted with the blood and the enslavement and exploitation of the periphery from the richest capitalists down to the poorest among us. Every single piece of it, from our joy to our sorrow to our deaths. The fear of losing privilege is not unique to the whites, the rich, the cishet. It is also core to those within the empire who have reaped its benefits through their very survival.

To act like in 2026 any of us within the bounds of the US experience no benefit from living in the empire is a laughable negation if material reality, based on a reactionary assumption that there must be innocents left here. The continued existence of the US empire is proof of our collective complicity.

This is why it is the prerogative of those of us within the US to work in any way we can to end the stranglehold the US holds on the world, even though it means losing the benefits we have lived with our whole lives. Because things can’t stay the same, and the world is dying because of us. Living in perpetual guilt and inaction is useless, and you will not save the world alone, but we cannot keep pretending we are innocent rather than complicit, and we must find ways to take action even if it is “only” on the local or community scale.

Something should’ve started years ago, but it didn’t, so what we have is now. We cannot reform this without maintaining the enslavement and exploitation of the periphery, and that is untenable. We must act to create something new. We cannot wait for someone else to liberate us all.

From personal experience, the number of friends i have in the third world that have to live on ~500 usd (equivalent) a month is, well, it's all of my friends with jobs. In comparison, my first world friends with jobs live on, is around 2k. The living quality in the first world is always gonna be leagues better, in every single metric.

Jacob Geller mentioned I Sexually Identify As An Attack Helicopter my official response is keep up the good work + I fully support men with beards that look fake

oh wow he fully stared into the camera and quoted a trans woman describing transmisogyny. he's never been shy about supporting us but that was fucking chilling. and you say this channel is about videogames, Mr. Geller?

I'm so fucking happy someone else noticed his new video, I thought I was going fucking crazy when I saw it

right?? cis man(?) who taught you about mechsploitation???

Hello I am stupid is this a good dude or a jerk, I am old and out of touch (wearing an onion on my belt, as was the fashion at the time)

I'll be nice and explain but you're 4 years older than me, I think "he's never been shy about supporting us" would have been enough to at least figure out if we think he's good or bad. gellar talked about the story and the transfeminine experience with competence and demonstrated familiarity that's like. aloe vera for my chapped tranny soul to hear from a cis guy. we can infer from this that he talks to transfems and listens to us. this is rare

it's a good video, the story's absolutely amazing, maybe develop a little curiosity and familiarity about us. we'll like you more if you at least google stuff or check the notes before professing your ignorance and asking to be spoonfed. uncommon for you, common for me, it gets to be annoying after a while. I'm sure you understand how doing it on a "wow someone is familiar with us for once" post would be particularly annoying.

Jacob Geller mentioned I Sexually Identify As An Attack Helicopter my official response is keep up the good work + I fully support men with beards that look fake

oh wow he fully stared into the camera and quoted a trans woman describing transmisogyny. he's never been shy about supporting us but that was fucking chilling. and you say this channel is about videogames, Mr. Geller?

I'm so fucking happy someone else noticed his new video, I thought I was going fucking crazy when I saw it

right?? cis man(?) who taught you about mechsploitation???

for anyone who is curious

i fucking hate having a popular post that has nothing to do with being trans because my notes just get filled with people who would call me a slur to my face reblogging it and agreeing with it like they are normal, pleasant people

red url in my notes: "really good point! i wish more people understood this!!!!"

their profile: "trans identified males are all rapists and homophobes and should be killed"

annnnd there it is, an empty blog calling me a groomer on that post, who could have seen this coming

Jacob Geller mentioned I Sexually Identify As An Attack Helicopter my official response is keep up the good work + I fully support men with beards that look fake

oh wow he fully stared into the camera and quoted a trans woman describing transmisogyny. he's never been shy about supporting us but that was fucking chilling. and you say this channel is about videogames, Mr. Geller?

I'm so fucking happy someone else noticed his new video, I thought I was going fucking crazy when I saw it

right?? cis man(?) who taught you about mechsploitation???

Jacob Geller mentioned I Sexually Identify As An Attack Helicopter my official response is keep up the good work + I fully support men with beards that look fake

oh wow he fully stared into the camera and quoted a trans woman describing transmisogyny. he's never been shy about supporting us but that was fucking chilling. and you say this channel is about videogames, Mr. Geller?

Please Help us Survive the Summer

Hi there again. I'm Casi. I'm a disabled Enby who is the only caregiver for my elderly disabled mother, and we're Homeless.

Mom is 70yrs old and has chronic bronchitis and arthritis and Mobility issues, and I'm chronically ill and multiply disabled myself. Where we live has already had multiple days of 105°F (40°C) temperatures throughout the Spring, its gonna be a hot summer. We cannot be on the Streets.

I have us in a Hotel because its the safest option for us. We have no family that can put us up for even a night and while I'm always on the lookout for outreach groups and programs we might qualify for, at this point we're on our own.[ and incredibly grateful for all the kind and generous support to help us through]

But the rates have gone up to Summer Prices which will make things a little more difficult than they already are. The Current rate is $98.30 a day / $688.03 a Week.

Moms Social Security is our only stable income apart from donations and my Redbubble and Ko-Fi shops where I sell my art. I've been looking for stable work but its always been a joke that there "more people than jobs" in this town and that's even truer now than ever, and without any transportation I can't even do Odd Jobs or Gigwork.[cant doordash on foot, can't to yardwork on the other side of town if I cant get myself there and back safely etc...]

Moms income will only cover 12 days of the month, and that's without putting any of that towards Meds or Groceries. We do get $290 SNAP/Food Stamps, on the 9th, but with the prices of everything between absofuckinglutly ridiculous, that too, only goes so far.

Literally Any Amount of Help would be incredibly appreciated. Really and Truly.

August

Room paid for until the 11th

Flat broke again Food Stamps are good on the 9th.

Pain episode still in full force and making me brain foggy. Whatever virus we had last month got Moms Chronic Bronchitis exacerbated but its getting better.

Literally any amount of help would be so incredibly appreciated it really would.

i’m not gonna say outright “making fun of typos is ableist” but as a disabled person with shaky hands and brain fog that often causes various typos, hitting send too early on messages, missing the spacebar, incorrect homonyms, etc it is a little frustrating when people stop read what you’re saying to instead do 5 individual unfunny comedy bits about whatever it was that i accidentally said. maybe we don’t have to riff on that every time. maybe if i delete or edit a message you can respond to the point i am actually trying to get across instead of making fun of me for mistakes caused by my disabilities. maybe if i don’t see the mistake and i leave it there you can still focus on what i’m saying. i guess i am saying that making fun of typos is ableist.

I will, making fun of typos is ableist. I've been typing at ~120 wpm for nearly two decades, most people who see me use a computer comment about how fast I do things. I will always make a lot of typos because I am disabled. I don't think it's funny when people joke about it.

my first thought is always the wonderful and clever people I've known with dyslexia. my typos are the result of a lack of physical coordination, theirs are not. do you know how infuriating it is to have an adult ask you for help fixing spelling mistakes and see the anxiety and shame they feel in that moment?

they're anticipating all your little jokes. stop it. it's not funny. you know what they meant to say.

Its also racist. The critique and expectation for perfect language disproportionally impact ESL speakers. I had to grow up under constant fear that I would speak 'wrong' when doing just about anything in English. That I would get scolded by the people I was trying to relate to like they were my teachers and I was the fool from the global south getting disciplined. This is not to say that correction or aid don't have their place, but I promise you that we can tell when you're trying to help and when you're just being a fucking dick about it.

hey girls

asking for help is not something i'm good at, but i just paid rent for august only to find out that my boss/landlord (same guy) is cutting my hours by more than half, so he'll be paying me less than he's charging me in rent. which is also going to fuck up my food stamps because the government hates poors. i have a small network in the city that i am reaching out to for a new job, but that's a process and my expenses are time sensitive.

I have a 7yo daughter, of whom i am the sole custodial parent. her other parent doesn't pay child support and i don't have the money to sue them for what they owe already. things are tense, to say the least.

i need between five hundred to a thousand USD to survive the month. i know we're all drowning out here but please reblog this post if you see it. it would really make a difference. we love you all <3

this post is getting buried i guess. if anyone at all sees it please share, it will mean so much

THANK YOU ALL WHO HAVE DONATED THUS FAR!!!<3<3<3

i've been told today to not expect any more consistent hours from my current job. i have two interviews next week for jobs i can almost certainly get, but ofc i wouldn't get a paycheck until after rent is due.

my landlord also has decided that the security deposit he originally waived still needs to be paid, which is almost another full month's rent. i'm going to update my goal here, please keep sharing and donate if you can, every little bit helps more than you could know<3

550/2100

we really appreciate everyone who's shared this but we haven't gotten any more donations.

550/2100 still

we've had a couple more donations come in, but we're less than halfway there and approaching the midpoint of the month. I have new job interviews scheduled for next week, but even if i get either i won't see a paycheck until next month at the earliest. please please chip in whatever you can, every dollar helps!!<3

$815/2100

Please Help us Survive the Summer

Hi there again. I'm Casi. I'm a disabled Enby who is the only caregiver for my elderly disabled mother, and we're Homeless.

Mom is 70yrs old and has chronic bronchitis and arthritis and Mobility issues, and I'm chronically ill and multiply disabled myself. Where we live has already had multiple days of 105°F (40°C) temperatures throughout the Spring, its gonna be a hot summer. We cannot be on the Streets.

I have us in a Hotel because its the safest option for us. We have no family that can put us up for even a night and while I'm always on the lookout for outreach groups and programs we might qualify for, at this point we're on our own.[ and incredibly grateful for all the kind and generous support to help us through]

But the rates have gone up to Summer Prices which will make things a little more difficult than they already are. The Current rate is $98.30 a day / $688.03 a Week.

Moms Social Security is our only stable income apart from donations and my Redbubble and Ko-Fi shops where I sell my art. I've been looking for stable work but its always been a joke that there "more people than jobs" in this town and that's even truer now than ever, and without any transportation I can't even do Odd Jobs or Gigwork.[cant doordash on foot, can't to yardwork on the other side of town if I cant get myself there and back safely etc...]

Moms income will only cover 12 days of the month, and that's without putting any of that towards Meds or Groceries. We do get $290 SNAP/Food Stamps, on the 9th, but with the prices of everything between absofuckinglutly ridiculous, that too, only goes so far.

Literally Any Amount of Help would be incredibly appreciated. Really and Truly.

August

Room paid for until the 11th

Flat broke again Food Stamps are good on the 9th.

Pain episode still in full force and making me brain foggy. Whatever virus we had last month got Moms Chronic Bronchitis exacerbated but its getting better.

Literally any amount of help would be so incredibly appreciated it really would.

hey girls

asking for help is not something i'm good at, but i just paid rent for august only to find out that my boss/landlord (same guy) is cutting my hours by more than half, so he'll be paying me less than he's charging me in rent. which is also going to fuck up my food stamps because the government hates poors. i have a small network in the city that i am reaching out to for a new job, but that's a process and my expenses are time sensitive.

I have a 7yo daughter, of whom i am the sole custodial parent. her other parent doesn't pay child support and i don't have the money to sue them for what they owe already. things are tense, to say the least.

i need between five hundred to a thousand USD to survive the month. i know we're all drowning out here but please reblog this post if you see it. it would really make a difference. we love you all <3

this post is getting buried i guess. if anyone at all sees it please share, it will mean so much

THANK YOU ALL WHO HAVE DONATED THUS FAR!!!<3<3<3

i've been told today to not expect any more consistent hours from my current job. i have two interviews next week for jobs i can almost certainly get, but ofc i wouldn't get a paycheck until after rent is due.

my landlord also has decided that the security deposit he originally waived still needs to be paid, which is almost another full month's rent. i'm going to update my goal here, please keep sharing and donate if you can, every little bit helps more than you could know<3

550/2100

we really appreciate everyone who's shared this but we haven't gotten any more donations.

550/2100 still

we've had a couple more donations come in, but we're less than halfway there and approaching the midpoint of the month. I have new job interviews scheduled for next week, but even if i get either i won't see a paycheck until next month at the earliest. please please chip in whatever you can, every dollar helps!!<3

$815/2100

straight white people making a romance movie: haha what if it was illegal to have sex? wait what's lawrence v texas. wait what's mclaughlin v florida. wait what's loving v virginia

As preposterous and stupid as this fucking movie's premise sounded (for a light-hearted rom-com, and not The Handmaid's Tale) I didn't want to think about it too much until the movie actually came out, and then I could see if it was somehow more intelligent and subversive than the trailer let on, but guess what, it's even worse!

Sex workers are thrown under the bus, shown only as thieves who fleece men in the woods at night, while queer sexuality is relegated to a few scenes with Allie’s roommate (a woefully underused Quintessa Swindell) and a handful of pans past blurry same-sex extras making out in the background. “This night is for the straights,” Swindell’s character says to Allie, before saying that queer people have worked around straight laws for centuries.  This is supposed to be a nod to queer resilience, but largely comes off as straightwashing the history of anti-LGBTQ legislation in this country that led towards raids of queer clubs and incarceration of queer people in the not-too-distant past (let alone the current barrage of anti-Trans and LGBTQ legislation currently in the works and on the books). It’s also ignorant of the long and fraught fight for the normalization of age-of-consent laws, which, by the way, did not happen in all states in this very country until 2003. Yes, that’s not even thirty years ago.  By the end, our intrepid protagonists have not had sex with anyone, because this is a film about Romance with a Capital R (and I guess sex is not part of romance!) and for that very same reason they ultimately embrace the fascist state of things. They aren’t the only ones who refuse to fight back. No one in this cursed film is protesting this mandate beyond “repeal” signs in various windows and some creative graffiti (...) (...) If we are supposed to believe that the film is making some subversive statement about the state of sex and bodily autonomy in this country, it cannot end with its leads embracing their chains. That’s just warmed-over conservatism running around in sheep’s clothing.

yeah i wrote this post having only seen the trailer, but jesus christ. was this movie a psyop LMAO??

also, for the unaware: mclaughlin v. florida was a 1964 supreme court case that struck down a florida anti-miscegenation law that criminalized cohabitation (and thus, as implied, sex) between white people and people of color of opposite genders. anti-miscegenation laws made marriage and sexual relationships between white people and people of color, most often specifically black people, a FELONY in several states in the united states up until the 1950s and 1960s. though it was already struck down by the supreme court, the state of alabama didn't repeal their law until 2000! there were THREE ATTEMPTS at codifying anti-miscegenation into the us constitution!

like yes, the issue here is partially straight white people's ignorance on the united states's history of homophobic policy, but it's also really important to recognize that arguably the majority of the issue here is straight white people's ignorance of the united states's history of codifying eugenics and antiblack racism.

the premise could have been interesting as a serious dystopian story, especially taking that history into account, but it wasn't written that way at all. this movie should never have been a fucking romcom making light of the violence the united states (and many other countries) has enacted on any kinds of sexual relationships it deems undesirable.

can y’all maybe reblog this version i feel like people are forgetting about the racism and just focusing on the homophobia