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-commissions ( https://vgen.co/doesephs_ )
- kofi donations ( https://ko-fi.com/doesephs_ )
- prints ( https://www.inprnt.com/gallery/doesephs/ )
-strawpage ( https://doesephs.straw.page )
difficult conversations with andrew post baltimore
#don’t write fanfiction anymore because i make myself too sad#so you’re gonna get a tagsfic#andrew cornered kevin in the locker room after night practice neil’s still cleaning up cones#addressing the elephant (emotional distance) between them andrew accuses kevin of hiding behind his excuses like a coward#kevin kicks into a rant about doing exactly what andrew would have and had been doing throughout the whole year#says that neil would’ve ran no matter what it was only a matter of time#and then they kiss the end#digital art#all for the game#aftg fanart#digital painting#kevin day#andrew minyard#aftg
i'm sooo curious abt which character you dislike solely bc of mstief's linguistic research... (personally i found her retconning henry to be chinese + korean presumably bc she didn't realize the etymology of 'cheng' less than ideal)
you got me ✋😬🤚i didn’t like how maggie chose ganseys character linguistic choices
wouldn’t continue this gripe if she’d left glyndŵrs name alone but i digress
whilst i understand characters are often a mouthpiece to criticise or shed light on an ideology, the incongruence of ganseys presentation as a champion of reasoned academia and the blatant inaccuracies of the subject matter (have a whole other post on this) the entire series hinges upon felt like an underselling of his potential. this could have made room for in-world dialogue set against the backdrop of republicanism, american centralism or the mythologisisation of a living culture. i thought that the introduction of mallory would have given way to that, at least through blues perspective, but no. it’s a bumbling englishman with some helpful insights yippee. the guilt that weighs on ganseys character throughout the books feels hollow when juxtaposed with an obsession with ignoring the issues he and the people he has grown up around have manufactured.
also maggie clearly does not have respect for celtic cultures or struggles, when using a slur as a fun tagline to ronans character in cdth.
it is once again my bedtime.
Anonymous asked:
you look away from tumblr for a week and suddenly your fave starts JASONTODDPOSTING… beautiful amazing wonderful doesephs… they make good comic characters please there are so many of them please any of them instead
going through my asks … half a year later
BUT THIS HAS REMINDED ME TO BRANCH OUT ON DIFFERENT FANDOMS AGAIN THANK YOU but i kind of am not that interested in dc anymore sorry
Anonymous asked:
Hi! You do not have to answer this question if you don't want to, but I was curious why you chose to portray Niall as an abuser in Tenebroso. There is no CSA in canon, so I wonder how you came to that? No pressure to reply :)
hi sure complicated question but definitely worth answering.
it's my opinion there is actually subtext in canon to support this (this being: ronan as a victim of csa). other people have talked about this, i know i'm not the first to think this and i won't be the last. i don't remember specifically which authors/bloggers have discussed it, but it's an interpretation of canon that i've definitely seen before.
when i first read the books as they were released, that's what i thought ronan's Deal was going to be; like i remember genuinely thinking that's where the author was going with it, and i turned out to be wrong, but the subtext is there.
this portrayal isn't based on things we know about niall (since we don't really know that much about niall tbh), but instead, it's based on things we know about ronan. some examples:
- something bad happens to ronan at night that he's not allowed to talk about
- ronan's father refuses to explain or educate him regarding what is happening to him at night
- he is isolated from the outside world by virtue of his "secret" and by nature of his upbringing
- he has fraught relationships with his siblings, particularly the older sibling, who "knew" about "the secret" and was not as understanding/helpful as ronan might have liked/needed regarding "the secret"
- he's weirdly attached to his father and holds him in strangely reverent regard
- he's an alcoholic, has a tendency to self-harm, he acts out for attention, is depressed, misanthropic, and "othered" from his peers
- nightmares/sleep related trauma/sleep paralysis/kills himself in his dreams/monsters appear to him in his dreams and hurt him
- he has a pretty notable reaction to adam's choice of material for the greenmantle plot; csa is the absolute worst thing adam could think to pin on this guy, and ronan is (in my opinion) triggered by it
- he hates himself/sees himself as "wrong" or "alien"
- he is destructive towards his personal property and is triggered when he returns to his childhood home/is reminded of specific things that took place in his house
- he has a deep seated compulsion/desire to please/conform/succeed
- unable to attach/bond in a healthy/regulated manner
- strange relationship with his brother, particularly interesting is that he often refers to them as a married set of parents; he refers to himself as "daddy" and himself and his brother as "mommy and daddy"
- he has a problem with authority, specifically with male figures of authority, especially those who try to "parent" or "teach" him
all of these things are not necessarily ironclad, but i spent a lot of time discussing this with @neurosses at the time of writing, trying to decide if this was a path i wanted to take or an interpretation of ronan & niall that i felt was correct, so possibly she will have something to add since this is a topic we discussed/hashed out/worked to ground in canon.
i have said before that it's my belief if you are taking away ronan's magic, you have to give him something else; there must be a wound of some sort. this doesn't HAVE to be child abuse, but if you remove the aspect of magic from the things i listed above, you have a pretty solid foundation for an alternative interpretation of his canonical trauma.
specifically regarding tenebroso, i chose not to give declan that shared experience, but there is some basis for it regarding declan as well:
- niall turned him into his "work wife" when his own wife left/his dream wife wasn't designed to be smart/useful/a true equal
- he is parentified, almost by force (assigned guardian in the will)
- strained relationship with his siblings, particularly the one that still genuinely loves their father/doesn't see father's faults
- bears resentment towards younger sibling that he perceives was "preferred" or the favorite based on the attention paid to him by their father
i don't expect everyone to agree with me and i don't expect this interpretation to become widely accepted, but i do believe there is basis for it in canon (the entire lynch clan has serious Gothic Family vibes but that's a whole 'nother essay), and i really am not sure i have anything else to say about it; it is easier for me to explore these things in fiction/character study than it is for me to sit and expound upon it through meta. so i hope this is a satisfactory answer for you!
Linking @whatimages' incisive commentary on Ronan Lynch's sexual abuse coding.
General thoughts (sorry if I sound abrupt, my laptop is about to die):
There is sexual violence in The Raven Cycle/The Dreamer Trilogy, and it is many times interlaced with the alienation and terror of being a dreamer. whatimages noted Kavinsky groping Ronan while Ronan was immobilized. ahotknife noted that Adam's CSA blackmail dreamstuff retraumatized Ronan. Mór Ó Corra's internal agony, at least partly sourced from having been sexually abused, spills through in her dreamstuff: everything in her imagination is full of pain. Aurora is technically younger than Ronan, which, at the very least, is highly disturbing. Outside of the direct dreamer linkage, the Gray Man's recollection of being abused by his brother strongly implies CSA. It is part of the textual fabric of the story.
There are granular, specific details that give rise to imagery of sexual violence. For example: Niall was covered in Ronan's blood, not his own, when he told Ronan, "Don't tell anyone," while laying in his bed, covered in blue petals as deflowering. There are many, many examples of this.
There are also macro level connections between dreaming and sexual violence. Quoting whatimages directly here: "Niall literally molds Ronan in his image." The secret thing happens at night. It profoundly others Ronan from the rest of the world.
Additionally, I'm echoing ahotknife's point that Ronan is profoundly shaped by Niall in canon, and — especially in a story like Tenebroso that presses into Ronan's canonical (!!) proclivity for violence, misanthropy, and criminality — there has so be some crawling, alien gulf between Ronan and Declan, Ronan and the world, if magic doesn't exist.
Also: in DMs, I said, "Declan keeps secrets; Ronan is a secret," with regard to how Declan does seem to display some coding as well. This analysis is centric on Ronan, but there are some things of note about Declan; ex. his telling understanding of Mór's positionality after learning what she'd been through; the discomfort of him travelling all over the world as a kid with his father to meet business associates to trade illicit goods, how human trafficking sees to have a role in the Fairy Market. Same weapon, different wounds.
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Anonymous asked:
"the fandom needs to address andrew minyards sexism hashtag seriouspost" <- Speak on this... (This is a genuine ask I'm curious about your thoughts!)
this has as much thought as i can muster up at the apex of bedtime
no make character should be free from scrutiny of the authors motivations behind their ideology/behaviours, it’s important to recognise that these are not people doing actions but narrative choices to elicit effect. andrew minyard read as permissive toward gendered inequality to me.
as much as i could debate about allison’s abuse, the framing of tildas death etc i feel that did not shape my understand of andrew character half as much as his emphasis of dominance. again! this is a story and i understand why caustically he is written this way. it is an exhibition of very human, yet very disconcerting behaviour. on one of my rereads i altered neil’s perspective to be of a woman (whilst i know this is not a simple gotcha as men are socialised to communicate via differing social norms) and started to understand why i was so uncomfortable, even after the make up and kiss moment in the kings men. andrew exerts his control through threats and through violence, through withholding and deceiving. this in itself is not sexism. but it was an all to familiar echo of real world experiences. nora has written andrew in a position to both take others autonomy and to protect the autonomy of those he loves. and she’s done a damn good job of it.
think this is called sympathetic misogyny. (?)
i have no issue with authors writing sexist characters, infact i found andrews portrayal quite refreshing. would much rather acknowledge societal pitfalls in a text than some glossy man is on a quest to apologise to every woman he’s wronged feminist retelling. but authorial intent doesn’t always match to audience reception. and i think that’s where i hold issue. yes, that’s you’re favourite white man, but maybe feed his liver to the vultures sometimes! pick his character faults apart! research patriarchal narrative perspective bias! read some literary feminism theory!
few closing words before my eyes shut for good
neil being the wokler made for some fantasticly hilarious didactic moments. so did andrews misogyny. and that’s why they’re perfect for each other.
think what i’m trying to say is i wouldn’t want to meet him in a dark alley
Anonymous asked:
"the fandom needs to address andrew minyards sexism hashtag seriouspost" <- Speak on this... (This is a genuine ask I'm curious about your thoughts!)
this has as much thought as i can muster up at the apex of bedtime
no make character should be free from scrutiny of the authors motivations behind their ideology/behaviours, it’s important to recognise that these are not people doing actions but narrative choices to elicit effect. andrew minyard read as permissive toward gendered inequality to me.
as much as i could debate about allison’s abuse, the framing of tildas death etc i feel that did not shape my understand of andrew character half as much as his emphasis of dominance. again! this is a story and i understand why caustically he is written this way. it is an exhibition of very human, yet very disconcerting behaviour. on one of my rereads i altered neil’s perspective to be of a woman (whilst i know this is not a simple gotcha as men are socialised to communicate via differing social norms) and started to understand why i was so uncomfortable, even after the make up and kiss moment in the kings men. andrew exerts his control through threats and through violence, through withholding and deceiving. this in itself is not sexism. but it was an all to familiar echo of real world experiences. nora has written andrew in a position to both take others autonomy and to protect the autonomy of those he loves. and she’s done a damn good job of it.
think this is called sympathetic misogyny. (?)
i have no issue with authors writing sexist characters, infact i found andrews portrayal quite refreshing. would much rather acknowledge societal pitfalls in a text than some glossy man is on a quest to apologise to every woman he’s wronged feminist retelling. but authorial intent doesn’t always match to audience reception. and i think that’s where i hold issue. yes, that’s you’re favourite white man, but maybe feed his liver to the vultures sometimes! pick his character faults apart! research patriarchal narrative perspective bias! read some literary feminism theory!
few closing words before my eyes shut for good
neil being the wokler made for some fantasticly hilarious didactic moments. so did andrews misogyny. and that’s why they’re perfect for each other.
#it ’s late and havnt read through this so it could just read like an erm actually think piece#also just gonna ignore the fact that nora really seems to struggle to write strong women#and not like physically strong don’t come for me ik fox girls r jacked to high heavan#whatver tf#all for the game#dodo chatters#andrew minyard
Anonymous asked:
So when are you gonna finish that damn comic?
assuming you mean this bad boy
honest answer is i have no clue. i’ve almost solely been working on commissions for the past several months between uni, moving and general lack of health. this is not something i want to rush (also i am a terrible writer with near zero comics experince so i’m procrastinating doing that prep)
have posted some other panel thumbnails but not labelled it to this project,mb check those out in the mean time. anyway. the comic is about cptsd and substance abuse and i’m not up to dealing with either topic in depth rn.
sorry for the long winded answer. in summary: it’ll happen when ur happens.