Being a system is like one day you’re convinced that your abusers are actually good people and they never did anything bad to you and you’re just making it all up and the next day your brain will randomly decide to bless you with the memories of the fucking war crimes your abusers committed towards you while you’re waiting in a Tescos parking lot or some shit
day one in my system and they decided to nerf me with every negative role possible (symptom holder, depression holder etc) and threaten to front ban me
a week(??) later they let me step up as host and nobody cares because our communication fuckin sucks and i'm the only one that know how to take care of us being chronically ill. It's not that we can't internally communicate it's just that 90% of our alters refuse to communicate or just talk about some bullshit that's rarely ever important from what i've seen so far
