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Aleks/Jasper | Adult | Multifandom (mainly TGAA/AA/Yakuza/LaD)

he is genuinely a problem

actually he was so happy about the med routine! he would run to the scale in the morning, and sit on it purring, because he knew that after medicine came treats!

when the months of medications were finally finished and tests showed him cured of FIP, he actually got really frustrated with me bc he thought I was forgetting. he’d just sit on his weighing scale and stare at me balefully.

my special guy getting his treat reward

and then he here is, sad and betrayed, with no medicine and no treat. (I did actually give him a treat after this.)

Honestly, with all the tradwife cooking trash circulating, it only makes me love B Dylan Hollis more for baking vintage recipes while being openly gay, making sexual jokes, and screaming at the ingredients. He's the antithesis of every soft-spoken cishet woman cooking for her husband and children. You don't have to be an idyllic cottagecore housewife to cook.

The swearing is essential. That's what "made with love" or "the secret ingredient is love" means. It means, "I love you so much that you're worth this fucking bullshit."

some of my favorite dylan quotes off the top of my head bc ive watched him so many times:

"GETOFFADASPOON"

"LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARD!"

(yelling at his beeping oven) "SHUTUP"

"Ive never made a date cream before." (realizes what he said. loses it laughing. corrects himself) "Ive never BAKED a date cream before!"

(gesturing to the whole dish) "VERY WET"

"are we sure this recipe wasnt written by a cat? was mitchell a cat??"

oh my god YES "LAAARRRD" always cracks me up

one of my fave quotes of his is "EGG-GY" when the recipe asks for eggs

also "nilla!" when using vanilla is something my best friend and i quote on a regular basis

just his general ...making fun-ery of the really weird and old american recipes is so much fun. i love this guy so much

So this is not a plea for money. This is something that surprised me, and chatting with people on discord, they were unaware of as well.

Discovered last year I couldn’t look at my 2015 MacBook Air without it triggering nausea and migraines, and figured the screen died. Have been getting by on my phone, but concluded I really need a laptop again.

Saved up, realised I could afford a brand new MacBook Neo, and got one.

-And I couldn’t spend more than five minutes looking at the screen without massive eye strain, nausea, vertigo, and if I pushed it, I-need-to-lie-down-in-a-dark-room-for-hours migraines.

Looking up MacBook and Eyestrain explained what is going on. The liquid retina displays that Apple currently has uses Pulse Width Modulation or PWM. In order to give the screens a deeper depth of colour and contrast, PWM flickers between several hundred to thousand times a second.

And there is currently no way to turn it off. There are settings and apps to reduce it, but there is no way to stop the screen from flickering. Checked Apple forums, called Apple Support, and the time I could look at the screen kept shrinking. Got the laptop Tuesday, returned it Friday, today is Sunday and I’m still dealing with a vertigo migraine.

For MacBooks, it seems to vary on the computer model and the software it uses. In retrospect, the issue with my MacBook Air started after a major software update.

And it’s not just an Apple thing. Current Windows and Android screens do the same thing. There’s even a Reddit for people who are sensitive to PWM flickers to help find computers and screens that won’t trigger eyestrain and headaches.

So, yeah. This week has been a learning experience. But for those who are prone to headaches and migraines, this may be something to be aware of, cause I was not.

Welcome home to our new baby girl!

The year long search for a fourth compatible ferret for my business finally ends!

I feel like any aliens that were prey at some point in evolution would have an odd fear of humans. Mostly cause they look like predators, act a bit like predators, and ARE predators. One perfect example is when we're focused on something like a mosquito that's been bugging us for a long time and we are just done.

Alien: "What. What..?"

Human: *HUNTING down a mosquito it saw*

Alien: ".... yeah I am really uncomfortable...."

Human: *quiet footsteps, pupils dialated, intense focus,*

Alien: *WAR FLASHBACKS*

Human: "Found you." *absolutely desimates the mosquito, squashing it into a million pieces as it's guts and various body parts liquidize into blood of the bloodthirsty, now stained on the palm of the human. A living being now reduced to a useless corpse as the human wipes the remains on their pants*

Alien: "I feel like I've just gained trauma."

okay fucking fun addition to this post. Hunting instincts in humans absolutely still exist and are usually triggered either by fascination or anger. The polar opposite of flight is pursue. An anecdote for this is that the other day my sister, who is an avid "take the bug outside in a cup" rescues kittens in her free time kinda person, looked out the window and saw a chicken in the middle of our driveway. which is a very unusual occurrence despite us living in the country.

All she had to do was say the words "there's a chicken" and her as well as my own body language immediately shifted. We were out the door and in the yard already sorta hunched over and walking on the balls of our feet, fucking flanking this chicken. No words were exchanged. We just slowly circled this chicken like a couple of rabid dogs. totally single-mindedly focused on capturing the prey.

The chicken could feel it, it immediately began counter maneuvers to avoid us and it was faster. But there were two of us and we knew the land better, we knew how to herd it into a corner, carefully watching it's body language and lurching to counter it's escape attempts. And it was fucking thrilling.

Of course, when we both closed in on it and finally got our hands on the poor thing we simply took it into the back patio away from the cats and the vultures that wanted to actually finish the job. No harm came to the bird. We located its owner and returned him to his flock but still. From an outside perspective, it was a bit unnerving. And for the chicken, it was no different than being hunted. He was just lucky enough that we were predators who appreciated the companionship of pets and were more concerned with returning him to his humans than eating him.

Now imagine any fucking alien species watching a pair of humans, who literally rehabilitate animals in their free time, who are not soldiers and seem to be totally domesticated, just absolutely flip a switch and turn into pack-hunting pursuit predators? On a single word.

(felt like the bulldog from Rio's bird chasing monologue hit a little too hard after this)

I would even argue that humans need to do this, so much so that we’ve invented a million and one ways to satisfy this instinct.

Photography.

Ball games.

I Spy.

Playing hunting games with the fellow predators we keep as pets.

Hide and seek.

Many hobbies that involve prolonged seeking behaviour or watching something to make sure it’s moving right.

I 100% feel myself slipping into “hunt mode” doing jigsaw puzzles, changed movement and all—same as when I’m out birding—and my mental health seems to get better afterwards.

That laser focus you get when your pet has a limp. The "why are you limping/are you limping?" look. I get the feeling that between that, and watching us play video games, that predatory instinct would be very visible. Not only that, we teach other animals to hunt with us. And one is a prey animal. Dogs we teach to hunt with us. But we also teach horses to hunt. Specifically, cattle horses. If you have never seen a cattle horse work when it is cutting a cow from the herd, you should. That is peak predator behavior. Watch a pack of wolves separating a caribou from the herd, then watch a cutting horse work. Certain motions are exactly the same, but very eerie on a herd animal. We are such consummate predators that we have mastered the art of training a herd animal to behave like a part of a pack of predators. I say this as someone who has worked with cutting horses, has trained horses (not to cut, but to jump and do dressage), and lives in an area where cattle is a big industry. As predators, we are terrifying.