Feel like it's not talked about enough just how badly certian medicines can just fuck you up sometimes.

My most recent hospital trip wasn't because of any condition, but because they gave me one dose of the wrong medication and it caused me to vomit every time I tried to consume anything.

Labs were abnormal, my blood wasn't clotting, I needed an IV and multiple other medications for days. Still not fully recovered. Shit can get bad.

And all that was due to switching from a neuroleptic to an SSRI that had a major drug interaction with my sleep medicine.

#celsius post #disability #disabled #mental illness #chronic illness #hospital #hospitalization #medication #ssri #fluvoxamine #neuroleptic #seroquel #melatonin receptor antagonist #ramelteon #tw vomit mention

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Btw I think it's hypocritical if you stand behinf people with compulsive disorders, personality disorders, schizospec disorders, etc. and then turn around and bash paraphilias/sex-focused mental illness

What happened to "thought crimes aren't real, it's what you do" and "there's no such things as a bad person disorder"? When did that stop applying?

#celsius post #disability #disabled #mental illness #stigmatization #paraphilias

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The ask I sent:

"here is the straightforward answer to a question you had asked, along with clarification about a benign misunderstanding in which I had checked with the person to understand what happened and made no solid assumptions."

The ask my OCD thinks I sent:

"hello [most contextually inappropriate slur], here is a very confidently wrong answer to a question I also completely misread. Also speaking on behalf of everyone I can't speak for, we were all being rude on purpose, hope that clears things up."

#celsius post #made worse by the fact that you can't see asks after you send them T-T #ocd #obsessive compulsive disorder #moral ocd #harm ocd #checking ocd #ocd doubt #mental health #mental illness

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Reblogged bebsi-cola

crippy-tangerine

I think we should actually talk about the level of privilege involved when we see people post online about their 24 hour psych hold. Which they come out of with comparatively minimal trauma and a bunch of "funny" stories about the other people locked up with them.

Because I want to de-center their voices for once. We hear about psych wards from that sort of perspective a lot- where the person has a short term stay for something like acute suicidality or depressive symptoms. And the experience they have is that of a brief "holiday" or an inconvenient day-long hold. And they meet "strange" and "properly mentally ill" people (to paraphrase their narrations).

So. What about these mentally ill people they meet on the ward, then? The people living on wards longer term? The people who live most of their adult lives inside closed psychiatric units? The people who will die on the ward? The people held against their will? The people who have been imprisoned, and the key thrown away? The people who aren't fully aware of the world around them? The people who are experiencing a different world of their own? The people who are so heavily medicated that they're barely awake? The people who are in so much distress that all they can do is scream and cry and fight back against staff? The people who have endless trauma from restraints, injected sedatives and lost autonomy? The people whose lives have been restricted to the monotony of ward rounds and medication time?

They're not stories for someone's tiktoks. They're not the backdrop to someone's 24 hour hold. They're real people. They're real and they matter. And their voices and lives need to be centred when we talk about psychiatric units.

There are people who live in psychiatric units (often against their will) for years. Decades. The majority of their lives, even. People die in psych wards. And their voices are often forcibly removed from these conversations- be it through dehumanisation, saneism, trauma, or the fact that they're often still behind the walls of a psych ward. Or because their lives have ended whilst imprisoned.

When we talk about anti-psychiatry, psych abolition and psych wards, I beg you, think of these people first. Remember them, uplift them and their stories. Centre them. Always.

It's a bigger story than a 24 hour window. It's about stories spanning weeks, months, years, decades.

A lot of people don't get the option to leave after 24 hours. To go voluntarily, willingly. To experience little to no trauma on psych wards. To have their bodily autonomy in tact.

So what I'm trying to say is... Please, please remember that behind every "quirky" 24 hour hold story, there are decades of pain, saneist violence, societal exclusion and psychiatric abuse. Zoom out. The picture is bigger, and the story is longer.

#celsius reblog #forgot if I've already reblog this or not but do it anyway #disability #disabled #mentally disabled #mental health #mentally ill #mental illness #residential #psych ward #psychiatric abuse

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Here's my big post I've been working on

[PT: Here's my big post I've been working on]

People really need to talk about the "ugly" traits anxiety more, because anxiety (yes, just anxiety on its own, nothing else involved) can have genuinely destructive manifestations and it doesn't get taked about. much in the same ways as people sanitize depression, adhd, autism, etc to erase the "gross" and unpalatable aspects

For tldr, just read the bullet points

[PT: For tldr, just read the bullet points]

"Ugly" traits of anxiety that I think need more attention:

Rigidity

and I don't mean the cutesie perfectionism type or the uwu quirky autism type either. I mean in a way that is truly compulsive. Grasping onto things (an idea, an object, a plan, a person, an action) and losing the ability to chill if it's not the way you think it needs to be. Rigidity that very much shifts into overbearing behavior. "If this isn't x then y will fall apart" pattern of thinking.

Hostility

Guess what? Humans notoriously respond to fear and threat with aggression. We have a whole neurological response dedicated to it. Anxiety can lead you to react defensively. Anxiety can make you feel rage towards people who you think are acting in a way that threatens you. Anxiety can piss you off and cause you to freak and snap for a lot of reasons. I hate that we're pretending that isn't very much a part of this aaaaa!!

Nagging and controlling tendencies

I think many people have this idea in their heads about what anxiety is "supposed to" look like. Sometimes anxiety is timid and shy, but it also commonly appears as being pushy and frantic. Sometimes anxiety is silence when you should speak up, but in many cases it's definitely also pestering those around you in order to keep the situation under control.

Argumentiveness

This is how it gets perceived by others. What it really is for the person experiencing it is doubt. We often aren't aiming to intentionally challenge what a person said, but that's still what it ends up being. People with anxiety will often challenge a person to assess reliability, to gain reassurance, to ensure every line in the thinking web has been safely examined, or as a way of trying to stress the importance of something that may be labeled as unimportant by others. If a person's anxiety gets overlooked or dismissed, it can lead to a genuine argument as they begin bargaining for (real or perceived) safety.

Dependant behavior, avoidance, learned helplessness, lack of responsibility, etc.

Anxiety can make you feel unassured and easily intimidated by everyday occurrences. This can lead to feeling as though you are not the one in control of or in charge of your life and that your actions and decisions are less effective than the actions and decisions of other people. When a person thinks this way, they may tend to over rely on those around them to act or help them act, assuming they will fail on their own. They may defer overwhelming decisions to someone else or delegate tasks in areas they feel incapable in. It's good to ask for help when you need it, but for people who struggle to heed other's boundaries and limits or refuse to try on their own anymore, they begin to hold themselves back while shifting too much onto the people around them. They also may end up discarding their own sense of responsibility in the process, which is a slippery slope towards a habit of denying wrongdoings.

End of list

[PT: End of list]

If you have any more to add, feel free.

I really wish these things were talked about more in the context of anxiety. So many people are unaware of what they're experiencing because it isn't in line with the quiet image of anxiety that's most often portrayed.

Anxiety can fuck your shit and cause you to fuck other people's shit to make your shit less fucked.

Thank you for coming to my Sped Speak (it's trademark free and totally original I swear)

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Reblogged cosmiccripple

mx-macintosh

y'all need to relearn the word erratic and stop using schizophrenic/bipolar/psychotic as a replacement

mx-macintosh

y'all need to relearn the word particular and stop using ocd as a replacement

weresoul

People need to relearn the word "egocentric" and stop using narcissist/narc as a replacement.

thatpreciousthing

People need to relearn the word "impulse" and stop using "intrusive thought" as a replacement

#celsius reblog #disability #mental illness

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lifeafterpsychiatry

Like once you've been psychiatrized there's no way to win. If you go out too much that's worrying if you stay in too much that's also worrying if you're too loud that's a sign of mental illness if you're too quiet that's also a sign of mental illness if you seem fine you're lying and if you get too upset you clearly need medical intervention like it's straight up impossible to get treated like a real person

#Celsius reblog #mentally disabled #mental health #mental illness