˚₊‧꒰ა ♡ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ 𝟏01 REASONS OF WHY I'M SHIFTING BUT IT'S ODDLY SPECIFIC

warnings: cw: mentions of nsfw!

i wanna do substances (e.g. alc) without there being any consequences to my health
re-experience that late 2019 - end of 2022 era of my life and re-experience as different dr selfs, etc
have places where i can go days w/o social interactions, don't need to do anything productive and not be labelled a bum (ya gurl gets drained lowk easily 😭)
i wanna experience magic and how it would feel to actually use magic (which is why i scripted so much fantasy/anime drs)
relive my teenhood but in a dressing in alt fashion way, living the american highschool dream, etc
quantum immortality but in a experience loads of different lives way and not a stay as the same person for eternity way
to try out different cuisines i haven't had a chance to yet here (thats why i can count on my trusty pineterst board fridge in my wr to deliver me whatever food i want)
have a PHAT bank account and basically go on shopping sprees whenever i want
most common but to obvs live in my favourite medias, etc
watch shows/movie sequels that aren't out in this reality or got cancelled in this reality
see life through the lenses of different artstyles (e.g. how anime drs look drastically different to this reality's "artstyle")
to never experience the anxiety and feeling of dread whenever i tell my parents i am going out
listen to songs/watch movies/consume medias that don't exist in this reality or do exist but i haven't discovered them yet
have an older sister instead of being the oldest sister (i've always wanted an older sister)
do things that i would never really do here/ cba to do here (for example, build a whole minecraft town from scratch)
find ways to help me manage my mental health and find healthier coping mechanisms
experiment with a variety of different body products scent layering (e.g. jasmine, vanilla, pistachio, etc)
to never have to worry about the "permanent change of grief" (in a sense i can shift to a reality where my loved ones are alive)
nsfw: but i wanna shift to be cracked/s3xually satisfied whenver i am horny
to live in realities where i don't have ocd and depression
re-experience drs that have "certain vibes" (idk how to describe it because it makes sense in my head)
to be able to tell myself "im bored" one minute, the next i shift to my dr and experience whatever i want
to go to sleep in one reality and the next wake up in another
to prove to myself that all these years of my shifting journey was worth it
to time travel to eras i haven't been alive in but are really interested in (e.g. victorian era, etc)
the post group shifting debriefs
to go on shifting roadtrips (a.k.a shift to a bunch of different realities at a time then shift back to my wr)
i wanna be able to exist w/o having to do selfcare/routines and still feel "maintained" (ngl sometimes i find the act of getting ready every morning so longgg)
to see colours that don't exist in this reality
to eat whatever tf i want w/o there be any health consequences to it
to go all out on different holidays (e.g. christmas, halloween, etc)
petty ahh reason: but me shifting will give me comfort knowing those who have hurt me will be stuck in this miserable ahh reality while im living out their wildest dreams
nolstalgia is a disease and shifting is the cure
i literally cannot stand living a religious household; i wanna be able to live as an agnostic in peace w/o having to larp being religious to please my parents
i wanna finally have my own permanent room and decorate how I wanna (instead of having to share it with siblings)
i wanna finally use those celebratory reaction videos (honourable mention that one davido playing the drums) to celebrate this new era of my life (shifting for the first time)
"i got 99 problems and shifting solves all of them"
i wanna experience a world where racism, sexism, homophobia, ableism, etc doesn't exist
i don't wanna be doomed to working a 9-5😭😭😭😭😭😭
i'm an adventurer at heart and cannot wait to explore different corners of the multiverse and write down my plethora of experiences
i enjoy making cute ahh scripts and moodboards, etc and end up experiencing them
ngl i do nawt wanna age past a certain age and be a young ho FOREVAAAA
to have a fresh restart to life
im so greedy and i have sm different s/o's
re-experience certain days in my life (e.g. concerts, etc)
combat my fears w/o any consequences (e.g. combat my fear of heights by diving off a 50ft mountain w/o being scared of accidentally getting hurt)
my pinterest food board. (ik i mentioned this b4)
gosh i wanna re-experience that baby shifter phase so BADLY! dreamy bling aesthetic backgrounds with shifting methods on it, listening to shifting subliminals while scripting on wattpad or google docs, etc
to be able to share dreams with my friends (this is gonna be SUPES FUN OMG) imagine texting the gc to pull up in the dreamscape
to experience as many AUs (fantasy, pirate, detective, etc) of my fav shows/media as i want
i lowk wanna experience how it will feel like to be an attractive, 6ft guy who is basically gives the same vibes as frat boy eren
to gain knowledge on stuff that would be "impossible" (e.g. why jimin and jeongyeong were beefings)
to use the lifa app
to experience love and being with someone who genuiely likes me without having to worry about them betraying my trust (Ib: @vaespirit tt)
lowk wanna hear music in different frequencies that are beyond the human ear listening range
mythical creatures (e.g. fairies, santa clause, etc) existing
omg experiencing my favourite childhood media and the plottwist is that i am quite literally THERE aswell
travelling places beyond countries such as travelling space, galaxies, etc
doing absolute bs (like groupshifting to the backrooms or mha just for the shts n' giggles)
to meet new people who i wouldn't have met here (e.g. my fav characters, etc)
do career paths that i wouldn't do here (e.g. be a kpop idols, etc)
to experience the so-called "unrealistic"
have my own family (becuase ik damn well i aint want no kids here)
live in a world where stuff like war, climate change, doesn't exist and it doesn't feel like living in a ticking time bomb
~~experiencing @/tonycries fanfic scenarios~~
to experience realities where my fav characters who have gone through tragedies (e.g. aot) actually live comfortable lives (ib: shifting_with_gret)
to go to a michael jackson concert
to have those moments where i really sink in the fact that shifting is something i get to do for the rest of eternity
to live the main character y/n lifestyle (ib:@/0nv4s.sh1ft tt)
to ease my curiosity
to actually produce any of my old drafts (e.g. games, stories i wrote, etc) because i lost motivation to
to experience a family dynamic where we go on roadtrip/vacations every year, do things as a family and just have a healthy familiar bond
the very fact that i know about shifting; like hello?? this is basically ELITE BALL KNOWLEDGE; the very fact i know i have the choice to experience my wildest dreams, why would i pass that off?
to maintain my dream bawd w/o working out
the fact that there is no time limit to shifting so "however long" it takes me to shift regularly won't matter (ib: @/luvshiftzz)
to experience life in my favourite academic insitituitions + do my desired courses/subjections (e.g. unis i wanted to go to here, hogwarts, royale high, etc)
having my pinterest closet and just getting dolled up whenever i want to
to treat some realities like an episode story and experiment with different choices and what their outcomes would be (no diamonds aswell!)
to visit websites that have been closed down here + experience them in their peak (OH SCHOOL OF DRAGONS I MOURN UUU HEAVILY)
experience different fandoms at their peak (forever upset i wasn't part of 2020 dracotok)
doing challenges such as "how much money can i spend in 24hrs)
to tick things off my shifting bucketlists for different drs
to experience time non-linear (idk how to describe it but yk what i mean)
satoru gojo
to experience a healthy mother-daughter bond with my dr mum(s) (#traumatised here)
i want so many pets
to do hobbies i don't rlly have time to do (e.g. video editing)
to go through archives of media that i have made that i have lost throughout the years from this reality (whether thats because i forgot to backup photos/videos/media, etc)
having movie nights where i watch nolstalgic media in my waiting room and it gives of the same vibe as it felt like watching it for the first time
erasing my memory of watching my fav media so watching it again feels like watching it for the first time (because i wont remember any spoilers, etc)
i quite literally cannot give up for a plethora of reasons and also to never experience the "guy digging up and turning away just because digging the diamonds" meme (ib: @/shifting.ria)
the first shift will literally be for the mf books!
to silence the doubts of "shifting is not real"
i wanna experience being not human (for example being a unicorn/alicorn in my mlp dr, etc)
to watch videos/tiktoks that have been deleted off the internet (honourable mention: i will forever miss the og noonchi subliminals)
to experiment with different hairstyles, makeup looks, aesthetics, etc
to experience realities where i experience teruhashi-level pretty priveledge
experience lcuid dreams/dreams i had but in real life
i lowk wanna live as a mermaid and live in the coral reef
tmi but to eat spicy food w/o needing to fart 25/8
(this is so cheesy but i left the best reason till last) because no matter what, i promised my younger self that i will shift and finally experience our daydreams in reality

𝜗𝜚 ࣪˖ ִ𐙚 ANSWERING 'QUESTIONS I'D ASK EVERY BEGINNER SHIFTER'

questions by: @reality_wanderer_

answering these questions even though i am long past my baby shifter days but i saved this video to my favourites awhile ago and thought it would be fun to answer hehe :3

001. SELF AWARENESS

"why do you want to shift?"

because i have always wanted to live multiple lives. growing up religious, i never really liked the idea of the afterlife (even heaven) because it just seemed unfulfilling for me. i couldn't grasp my head that i would be in one place for the whole of eternity whereas, shifting allows me to experience different lifestyles, events, personas, etc all simultaneously and whenever i want to. also as a child, i was always a "i wish this was real" daydreamer so shifting was quite literally the answer to my prayers xx

"if you shifted tonight, what's the first thing you'd do?"

wouldn't you like to know, weather boy... (just kidding), it honestly depends on which dr i am in ya know, but one thing for sure is that in all my drs, my first shift will be me in my room by myself and grasping the fact i finally made it after all these years; buckets of tears will be shed maybe followed by a celebratory session of jumping up and down on my bed

"what part of shifting excites you the most"

it's a deadheat between the living for eternity bit and experiencing whatever i want bit; given a few seconds after writing that sentence and doing some pondering, its deffo the experiencing the whatever i want bit because the possibilities are ENDLESS; possibilities that can be as small as getting a painless piercing to riding dragons while being part of fairytail (a.k.a one of my fav childhood franchises)

"are you chasing the experience, or trying to escape your current reality"

welp! you 😭 got 😭 me 😭 there 😭 a combination of both ackshually ☝️🤓 im tryna live up the difference experiences to make up for the lack of experience i had in this reality

"if shifting took another year, would your reason for wanting it still be the same"

considering the fact i've been on this journey for 6 years and my reasons have been the same throughout, what more is one more year to this; at the end of the day, my reason for shifting will literally motivate me to keep going

bbrattywise

a shifting vent

disclaimer: this is not a place for "just manifest it" because ik, i am manifesting my shift but i am also human and im writing this post for people who may be going through the same thing and feel more seen. also cw: demotivation, ya da ya da, don't read if u dont want to!

being a veteran shifter for nearly 6 yrs (guess who's meeting their 6 year mark at the end of this month lol) and feeling stagnant in my shifting journey is such a heart crushing feeling for me because at the point i have to ask "is there something wrong with me that i cannot shift? an innate ability that every human can do"

it has me questioning what is my "key" to shift? it has me questioning if im being delusion and what if shifting simply doesn't exist (but at the same time my brain refuses to believe that because i have been beliving in shifting for so long and i trust shifting storytimes) and it just makes me feel so shit whenever i ponder on it for longer than needed.

6 freaking years. 6 freaking years of doing every method and technique in the mf book and still being in the same stagnant place. 6 freaking years of maybe having 2 minishifts in my whole shifting journey but even now im starting to doubt whether i actually shifted or if hypnagoia was playing with my head. 6 freaking years where i have just pushed through with this reality while telling myself "its okay, i will shift anyways" and still waking up to the same ceiling i see 6 years ago.

being tired is an understatement. i am EXHAUSTED. i affirm that i am a master shifter and even that has been such a struggle lately because it feels like no matter what, i find myself being that person who has never shifted and feels utterly hopeless. it gets to the point where i start looking to the 3D and time for answers.

WHEN am i going shift? HOW am i going do it?

the two question words that are taboo in the law of assumption community but i can't help it. yes i have manifested SO MUCH THINGS but for some reason, when it comes to shifting i feel lost.

i can't trust myself, no matter what i read, etc i find myself feel so hopeless and its soul crushing. i just want to shift. i just want to confirm that it was actually all REAL for me and that i can do it.

there has been SO MANY situations in this reality where shifting was soemthing i NEEDED to do but no, i found myself waking up here and having to deal with such circumstances, my mental health taking a toll each time.

its so i dont even know how to describe it, its something i yearn for so badly.

i have daydreamed most of my life for a better life and shifting was the solution to living it but some reason its feeling more on the curse side compared to the blessing side.

how am i suppose to believe i am gonna wake up in my dr when even the times i had full confidence, i woke up here?

i dont wanna just experience it in my imagination/4D i wanna physically FEEL, SMELL, SEE, TASTE AND HEAR my dr.

i have always told myself "this will be the night" and i find myself just lying to myself and ending up waking up the next morning in the same bed i slept in.

and the worst thing about all of this is that giving up is simply not an option. no matter how much this hurts my mind, i can never give up. it will always be part of me, i will always remember it.

i am trying, i really am. it honestly feels so shitty seeing people say those who havent shifted aren't "trying enough" because trust i am. the amount of minutes i have spent doing guided meditations, the amount of shifting subliminals i have listened to, the amount of mental diets i have restarted because i told myself i can't give up, the amount of tears of frustation i have cried over shifting and ur telling me im not "doing enough".

another side of that coin is seeing people say shifting is easy and it feels like a stab to the chest. like trust i know shifting is simple and easy so why haven't i done it yet? questions like these i cannot get from others but within but thats what is the cherry on top to this frustration cake.

i dont know what to do.

idk i just felt like letting this out because on this blog i like to keep it 💯

bbrattywise

OUT OF CONTEXT #1

as i am reposting my content from my old shiftblr/shifttok accounts, i decided to reintroduce a series called "out-of-context" which is basically the children of 'mel's rants n' rambles' where i basically rant/ramble about multiple things but in less detail

#1 : firstly, i've fallen into the rabbit hole of anti-theism and people being ex-religious and im tryna not claim being anti-theism but everytime i think about how much my culture has been impacted by religion and how much this has affected and justified how women are treated in society it makes me more angrier. like im not tryna generalise, but to me, it sometimes feels like regardless of the context, religion is more appealing and benefits men more than women and its just so frustrating; it's too much, women not being able to do this, that and the third, and idk, im tryna separate my negative experiences with religion from my actual view of it but it feels so hard because it lowk distorted how i view theist religions as a whole (+ maybe bonus points because how communities can be impacts how i view theist religions) i honestly respect all religions and the people in it but i cannot stand the really judgemental ones who think they are superior

#2 : growing up and having a strict, toxic mother is so frustrating honestly; moving out for first year uni felt like a breath of fresh air and now that im back, im back to me activating fight or flight whenever i wanna go out, feeling lowk suffocated and et cetera and BEFORE those "but u can manifest it" people run into my comments, just know that i already know that and have been affirming but for some circumstances, it just feels like u are in constant survival mode yk; like my friends asked to go out today but it was later in the night and i have sm plans this week and i just wanna avoid any arguments with my mother (i already got locked out the house this summer for something that wasnt even my fault) and she is lowk crazy asf and has threatened to kick me out before so no! i dont wanna end up going to the hangout feeling like sht.

#3 : i've decided that once i fully shift once, im shifting back here to say that i have shifted then i will permashift; i realise that i actually dont see myself really aspiring to be anything in this reality or anything and honestly, as much as i love the people here, i need to choose myself. its time for me to be free, to be liberated, to be me without someone telling me what i SHOULD be.

#4 : getting back into episode means one more app where i can get dr ideas or dr scenarios from; i'm already planning on revamping one of my streamer drs to fit the plot of an episode story im planning (*wink wink* if ykykyk top streamer) AND IM SOOOOO EXCITED; enemies to lovers with a sprinkle of fake dating OUI #CANTWAIT

#5 : talking about superiority from point #1, i am reminded on the whole "overly-woke" debate and when im talking about overly woke, im talking about people who think they are morally superior to others and that someone could make a small mistake, take accountability and the people tryna cancel them r still tryna drag them down to FILTH! like what is ur actual problem????? im sorry but some of yall need to get off ur high horses and realises we are all HUMANS at the end of the day, we all make mistakes and learn from them so dont be pointing finger when yk damn well ur not perfect either (when i talk about actions, im not talking about severe ones or just deadass morally wrong things, im talking about more smaller ones that are honestly more of a learning lesson than a whole cancel culture witch hunt)

bbrattywise

shaming people for scripting "illogical/unrealistic" stuff yet the whole concept of shifting is considered "unrealistic" in this reality's standards......