✨Hollanov Brained✨

anyone else afraid they’re gonna relate a little too much to ilya next season haha :)

ilya showing yuna and david cute pictures he took of anya and shane going DO NOT SWIPE because the threat of surprise shane hole pics or his own dick is always imminent

remember when ilya spat into shane's hand that was kinda neat i think

ilya doing a curly hair routine video hudson williams style he's like hello everyone you are all asking how to look hot and sexy like me, even though you could never achieve that, but i'm gonna show you anyway. normally i start in shower but youtube is boring and will not let me be naked so today i use spray bottle to make my hair wet. i use this shampoo for curly hair but if it's empty i just use shane's. don't tell him i told you that. i also use this curl cream, works really well if you want to show off your curls if you have cute boy coming over to your house for the first time. just don't say his name or he will run away (shane shouts something in the distance) ah yes i think i am done let me see... moya lyubov please come to bathroom. what do you think? (shane gives him a thumbs up off camera) see, is also husband approved ;)

the thing is ilya would have killed himself if he didn't have shane in his life and he has told his therapist this and shane also knows it and ilya thinks it's a good thing. he's like yes i get ideas and sometimes it feels like i will never be okay but i would never do that to you because i love you and i don't want to make you sad, and it makes shane so fucking terrified. on particular bad days shane is afraid of going to the bathroom for too long in case ilya goes digging for something sharp or drives away in his car way over the speed limit or swallows all the pills in the house, but it also makes him so angry because how dare you place this on me? how dare you give me your life like that, are you even aware how heavy of a burden it is to be the only reason you're still breathing? i love you ilya, i love you so much and i am with you every step of the way but you can not place this on me

ilya is very much a 'i don't want to live, but i will live for you' guy and shane is very much a 'but i don't want you to do that. i want you to live for you' guy and this causes a lot of fights and a lot of tears

what if i went to this wlw event alone is that crazy

ilya who is normally very confident and comfortable when it comes to sex but gets nervous when shane asks "do you mind taking a shower tonight, i really want to eat you out" so casually like he's talking about the weather and later ilya fiddles with the towel around his waist in the middle of the livingroom as he asks shane "so, uh, do you want me to shave or...?" because ilya is hairy and while he knows shane likes his pubes he's unsure if it's the same for his ass but shane just shrugs and says "do whatever you want, i don't mind" so ilya spends 10 minutes in the shower just staring into the wall debating what to do so eventually he panic trims and he feels very exposed when he's finally laying on his stomach on the bed as shane spreads him open. shane doesn't comment on his, probably very bad, trim but just moans as he dives in and ilya likes this, they've done it a handful of times now, but it always takes him some time to fully relax and give himself over but with enough kisses and reassurance and a very skilled tongue, ilya completely falls apart