For lots of reasons I guess, and it was a long time coming. There wasn't anything there anymore. Infact, it had been a REALLY long time since I felt anything when he kissed me.
I need more romance in a relationship. I need my guy to tell me how beautiful I look, and all those good things.
I'm still hurting pretty bad, but I know in time i'll recover :)
In the mean time i'm catching up on anime and internet things, like graphics. Stuff I miss doing.
Just finished puella madoka magica. WOW! Such an amazing anime!!!!
Same with East of Eden!!!!! AMAZING! When I get paid on Friday, i'm going to buy both of the movies :3
and I'm finally back to watching Shinkenger :3 it's so much fun. LOVE IT!
Anyway, i'll probably start posting here again, and I apologize for the extremely long hiatus :3
" 내 머리는 너무나 나빠서 I'm really, very foolish 너 하나밖에 난 모르고 I know of no one other than you 다른 사람을 보고있는 넌 you're looking at someone else 이런 내마음도 모르겠지 yet you have no idea of my feelings like this
너의 하루에 나란 없겠지 I won't be in your days 또 추억조차 없겠지만 I won't be in the memories either, however 너만 바라만 보고있는 난 only you, I looked only at you 자꾸 눈물이 흐르고있어 and the tears keep coming
너의 뒷모습을 보는것도 난 행복이야 As i watch you walking past, I'm still happy 아직 나의 마음을 몰라도 even yet you still don't know my heart 끝내 스치듯이 가도 I should stop this and go
니가 너무 보고싶은 날엔 I really want to see the day 너무 견디기 힘든 날에는 I'm withstanding the pain each day 너를 사랑한다 입가에 맴돌아 "I love you" is playing on my lips 혼자 다시 또 crying for you Alone once again, crying for you 혼자 다시 또 missing for you alone once again, missing for you Baby! I love you! I'm waiting for you!
너의 하루에 난 없겠지 I won't be in your days 또 기억조차 없겠지만 I won't be remembered either, however 너만 바라만 보고있는 나 only you, I looked only at you 혼자 추억을 만들고 있어 I'm making memories alone
내겐 사랑이란 아름다운 상처같아 Loving you is like having a beautiful wound 너의 예쁜 미소를 보아도 I look at your pretty smile also 함께 난 웃지도 못해 but I cannot laugh with you
니가 너무 생각나는 날엔 I'm thinking about you so much everyday 가슴 시리고 슬픈 날에는 my heart is hurting in all these sad days 니가 보고싶다 입가에 맴돌아 'I want to see you' is playing on my lips 혼자 다시 또 crying for you alone once again, crying for you 혼자 다시 또 missing for you alone once again, missing for you Baby! I love you! I'm waiting for you!
Bye bye never say good bye 이렇게 잡지 못하지만 even though I cannot hold you like this I need you 아무 말도 못해 I want you 바래도 다시 바래도 I need you, I cannot say anything more, I want you I keep on hoping too, I'll keep hoping....
니가 너무 보고싶은 날엔 I really want to see the day 너무 견디기 힘든 날에는 I'm withstanding the pain each day 너를 사랑한다 입가에 맴돌아 "I love you" is playing on my lips 혼자 다시 또 crying for you Alone once again, crying for you
니가 너무 생각나는 날엔 I'm thinking about you so much everyday 가슴 시리고 슬픈 날에는 my heart is hurting in all these sad days 니가 보고싶다 입가에 맴돌아 'I want to see you' is playing on my lips 혼자 다시 또 crying for you alone once again, crying for you 혼자 다시 또 missing for you alone once again, missing for you Baby! I love you! I'm waiting for you! "
" It got rolled on, stepped on and cut on. It has to endure a heat of 1300 degrees. But that's not the end of it. If it doesn't become yours even after all that hardship then you have to give up on it cleanly. In order to get stronger, and in order to find something that is truly yours, I'm saying that there are steps that you must pass"
what's really sad? during ep 24/25 MY HEART ACHED I KID YOU NOT! i didn't know if i'd be able to make it. i was SO INTO THIS.
wow i'm really sad.
i had a talk with gaby and it really helped. i'm trying to figure out my purpose and etc. this drama really struck me... and i know thats REALLY stupid. but whatever gets my mind going, right? i will get out of here. it's not an option anymore. I will get out of oklahoma. out of the states if possible.
ah but to lose weight first and pay back my bills. sigh.
but until then i guess I have my dreams? that's really all i'm clinging to at this point
and i'm totally saving a bagillon HYD pictures. but i'm too tired to make any icons.