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So yeah, the nurse turned attorney who now works at a prestigious social justice/health organization in NYC... we talked for another hour tonight. This'll be the 2nd time we talk. We first talked on Friday night, for an hour. I'm getting ahead of myself considering she and I haven't actually met yet (one of those online dating scenarios)... but so far, on paper and on phone conversation, she feels more than right for me. And I guess I should be honored that someone a bit older than me is telling me that I seem like an old soul and how she never bothers wasting any of her time nor the other person's time if she gets the sense they aren't on her level, and she says she gets the sense of that really quickly when talking with someone. *blush*

The only glitch I see is that she is 11 years my elder.... hmmm.... she does do yoga A LOT, so is likely in better shape than I am with a hotter bod than I have.... One of my close friends who is a lot older than I am advised me, before I told her about this nurse turned attorney, to find someone a bit older and more experienced with the girl-on-girl one-on-one lifestyle to be with. So far, most women who are my age or younger just end up pissing me off due to their inconsideration. The ones 5 or more years older than me are way more considerate, smarter and sweeter... it's just their slight wrinkles are hard for me to get past. :/ The funniest part of the conversation was when I mentioned how I'd like to go to a poetry reading soonish... she got all alarmist in her tone, noting how enjoying poetry isn't in my online dating profile. Lmfao. Either she's got some serious memory, made it a point to memorize everything about my profile, had my profile up while we were talking, or is an attorney who enjoys lawyering people. I'm thinking memorized everything about my profile and has a really good memory... basing that on the fact that she took the time out of her busy work and yoga schedule to find reviews for a wine & tapas place she's never been to before to take me to and made a reservation a week in advance for our date. Wow, I'm more than touched - also blushing about how she suggested we go to that restaurant together, and then ride back together after (we live near each other)... like maybe she wants to keep the option open to fuck after. Though it could be she just wants to save some $$ or wants to scope out where I live. We'll see. In any event, I'm feeling really high about getting this much attention from someone who feels a little beyond my reach... she's extremely smart, extremely spiritual, very sensitive, has an amazing career I respect and can admire, and very good at communicating... and was telling me how I seem too good to be true. She does to me as well... hmm... I better get this one to fall in love with me fast and not consider thinking about anyone else romantically. I shall text her shortly after she gets to work, *thinking of you and wishing you a beautiful day*. I was going to go for *thinking of you and wishing you a beautiful day Beautiful*, but I don't want to shoot my wad of words too soon. This woman barely even replies to people's emails on the dating site, and here I am having hour long conversations with her, and having her want to wine and dine me, and talk with me often. It's refreshing to have a seemingly dreamy woman appreciate me, as opposed half of other women, who are inconsiderate bitches.

So I talked with a woman who was a nurse and is now an attorney for a prestigious health organization... we talked on the phone for an hour, and at the end, she told me not to change anything about me and asked to take me out next Saturday night. I had mentioned that I feel like we've known each other a lot longer than we have. She agreed.

Then today she sent me an email on the online dating site about how she had texted me earlier but think it didn't go through because her apartment gets bad cell reception, and that she wanted to tell me how much she enjoyed talking with me and can't wait to me. How sweet is she?! I know I'm getting ahead of myself here, but I truly hope the chemistry is as nice and easy in person as online and over the phone - a nurse turned attorney for social justice and health is so right up my alley, AND she lives very near me. On paper, this feels like perfection.

I tend to be in love with love, so I better take my time with this one and continue dating others til I go on at least 4 dates with this one, if it'll go along smoothly. And I better not do anything to screw this one up, like get too intense too fast... or if I do, not show it too soon... lol.

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I'm ending the year out on a nice note hahaha. I've got a date with a banging hautte girl who lives up the block Saturday afternoon (kind of a turn off that she never went to college and is a smoker who is trying to quit... but you never know, maybe she's more intellectual than I think... and if not, maybe a good fuckbuddy up the street for a bit...). My step-sister was saying that if she were into girls, she'd be all into that one. Lol.

Then on Sunday, I've got 3 dates lined up back-to-back *pantpant* What's a girl to do... The first one's a teacher (I've been hot for the teacher type before... pretty compatible with me), the 2nd one lives a 20 minute walk from me and has one of those probably secure but boring corporate jobbies, and the 3rd one is a chick from upstate who lives about 45 minutes away and has her own business.

I'd love to find that chick who was checking me out on the subway platform last weekend - she had wildly hot kissable lips. Those WoW lips. I regret playing hard to get and expecting that she would follow me into the subway train, like she was about to at first, but then she decided to play hard to get or whatever and went into the other subway train... like to see if I would follow. I won't make that mistake twice. I'll follow.

The latest one - a nurse turned lawyer who is very compassionate. Now that feels beyond hot to me - just my style. Please let it be right - I like having one woman to worship instead of going on dates with fun but mediocre types. I hope to have a date with her very soon.

My New Year's Resolution: get laid more (hopefully with the same woman, for 50,000+ years).    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d2X…

Oh, and I better start hitting the gym every day to tone up post-holiday cookies - I don't want to set my sights higher than I can deliver.

Yes, I took a few months off from focusing on much else aside from the pursuit of love. I thought I found the right partner for me, but she changed her tune midstream and made up excuses re why it's more difficult to have a 2nd baby (she already has one) with a woman than a man. *shrug* To me, a sperm bank seems a lot simpler. Anyhows, she told me she didn't want to date other women, but wanted to continue dating men for a few months and if she wouldn't find one and she said she probably wouldn't considering she'd been looking for 1.5 years and still hadn't, than she'd date only me. I dropped out - wasn't in a mood to be strung along and used like a doormat.

I did find another woman who I got along really well with - 4 - 5 hours of non-stop fun conversation on our first two dates. Too bad for me she is way too polyamorous for me - has 2 boyfriends and wants more. WTF? I am looking for someone more monogamous and less disease-prone.

I am seeing a cop who is cute and very romantic. She wants to be an occasional fuck-buddy in the fantasy-land she wants to create with me as escapes from her overly-stressful reality. We've had 2 dates. They were nice enough. She's funny and fun, smart enough, and WOW the things she texts to me in her fantasy-land mode make me cry in a heartfelt way. I've never had anyone write to me as beautifully and poetically as she does. She works a lot of overtime and has other commitments so it's rare I can see her, but I'm sure occasional sex with a cop will be welcome until if and when I find someone who can have a real relationship with me. I was glad she made it clear to me I can only be a secondary relationship for her, as she already has a primary relationship with someone. And I was clear to her that I am currently interesting in finding a woman to have a one-on-one relationship with, and since we aren't on the same page that way, that she should be aware that I plan to continue looking for a woman to have a one-on-one thing with. She's fine with that and said she'd feel honored to be just a friend who walks by my side through life for as long as I like if I were to find someone whom I can have something more meaningful with than her.

At present, me thinks myself 40% straight and 60% gay. Currently seeing only women to try everything out. I've tried one-on-one with different men, a relationship with a woman who was married to a man while I had a boyfriend... last stop: one-on-one with a woman.

I was almost able to try a 3-some with two women a couple of weekends ago, but my partner in crime fucked it up by coerce-raping the woman we found whom she'd been with before 3 years ago. The woman just wasn't into her anymore (likely due to realizing she is a manipulative bitch). At first, I started talking with the woman about the books in her bookshelf which I had read. She was all about that and warmed up to me quickly, excited to talk with me. My partner in crime apparently got jealous and started throwing herself physically at the other woman. The other woman kept pushing her away, making it clear to her she wasn't into her. After awhile, my partner in crime was not having that (she really is a manipulative bitch who doesn't take no for an answer, but I tolerate her on occasion because she keeps contacting me and I've never met anyone like her before... she's looking for a well-to-do bi or gay woman who she can turn into her codependent emotional puppet... that aint me... I'm too independent-by-nature, but it's interesting to understand her tactics... I think I've figured her all out and will ignore her for now on) and ended up going down on the other woman while the other woman showed no, none-whatsoever, reaction. It was a mess... but an unpleasantly interesting thing to watch as a Sociologist, none-the-less. I've never seen anything like that before, and hope I never do again.

Recently, I started chatting up a woman who reminds me both emotionally and looks-wise of my ex Kat who I was with for five years. We should be having our first date soonish. I loved everything about my now ex Kat, so if this chick is a lot like her, things should go swimmingly.

So I started trading again on the stock market after taking some time off to focus on expanding my business. Am back on again.
10/18/12: $ 194 in 60 minutes. That's $ 24.25 / hour for a workday, or $ 48,500 / year.
10/19/12: $ 191 in 30 minutes. That's $ 23.87 / hour for a workday, or $47,750 / year.
10/22/12: $ 253 in 10 minutes. That's $ 31.62 / hour for a workday, or $ 63,250 / year.
10/23/12: $ 267 in 10 minutes. That's $ 33.37 / hour for a workday, or $ 66,750 / year.
10/24/12: $ 274 in 30 minutes. That's $ 34.25 / hour for a workday, or $ 68,500 / year.
10/25/12: $ 391 in 25 minutes. That's $ 48.87 / hour for a workday, or $ 97,750 / year.
----- Week's Total $ 1570 in 165 minutes (2.75 hours) worth of work, average profit is $ 570 / hour. Projection = $ 78,500 / year ------

10/26/12: $ 436 in 60 minutes. That's $ 54.50 / hour for a workday, or $ 109,000 / year.

---- Total is $ 2006 in 225 minutes (3.75 hours) worth of work, average profit is $ 534.93 / hour. Projection = $ 80,239.50 / year -----

I must say, making more in about 4 hours than what I would normally make in a 40 hour corporate slave job feels damn good.

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I've been fairly fortunate money-wise most of my life due to a lawsuit I had which paid for my college, plus some. So I'm not used to the concept of actually budgeting, even though I've certainly worked hard most of my adult life to keep my savings account even, until after my mom died and I took a few months off from everything and traveled to get my mind off of it. And then I spent some more money on patent applications.

And having my own business now, money is more like an average person for me now, except I have no boss nor employees to deal with, so a lot less office politics than when I was a corporate slave =)

When I make easy money on the stock market in the morning, it encourages me to be lazy the rest of the day. I really need to cut that out, and keep on track. And also, looking for love is also a distraction from doing business networking - my mind gets confused and thinks that just because I've been doing a lot of networking while looking for love, that my networking is being taken care of. I need to keep in mind that love networking and business networking are quite different and to discipline my mind to keep at both toward good success at both.

Aww, 4'11" - so cute and adorable. Looks a lot like Julianne Moore, the actress. Feels like someone I can be at least a good friend with. Amazingly, she said she thought I should be a standup comedian, so that's good that I made her laugh a lot. That's not easy for me - takes me being with the right person who can bring my funny side out.

Aww, cute - not long after the date, she texted me, "I had a wonderful evening. Thank you." She even let me take her umbrella cuz she was worried about me getting all wet in the light rain. That was sweet. Hopefully this one will last past a few dates.

I got a good morning today from the chick I think is playing mindgames with me who wrote "love you" a couple days after our first date... Yesterday, in the afternoon a few hours before my date with shortie, I texted her to ask her if we could push our Thurs date back by 30 mins. About 12 hours later, and still no response. Glad the only day the chick I went on a date with tonight (shortie) can see me is Thurs before her parents visit her for the weekend. Ms. "good love you" snoozed, she she loses - these bs mindgames with my schedule are well... bs. I won't put my schedule on hold for her.

My business partner and I have sent out 4 new retainer agreements to 3 different clients within the last 6 days. I'm starting to feel a lot better now about having started a new business in the middle of a recession.

Two of those 3 clients (so long as they pay our retainer fees, they will be clients) are thanks to my business partner, so it's nice to see his marketing efforts coming to fruition too.

Finally, I've heard back from that ultra-busy chick cop I went on a 1st date with a couple of weeks ago. She did say she is rather too busy to date anyone but her boyfriend right now, given she has a teen daughter, a job, and has to work overtime a lot to make ends meet. Well, that's just for right now, but in a year or so, she won't need a babysitter for her daughter so I'm trying to keep my flag in her life for when that happens.

For posterity's sake, here's the text msg dialogue:
10/18/12 - me: Hi cutie! How are you doing and what do you think of the Community Safety Act? If you feel like doing a "stop and frisk" of me for no other reason than just because, don't worry, I wouldn't hold it against you.
me: No comment, huh? Lol. I am just being cute...

10/21/12 - me: You're not stuck in a box, are you? If so, I can come rescue you. (she just moved to a new house and had a lot of boxed to unpack).

10/23/12:
- Her: Omg baby I'm so sorry I've been sooooo busy!!! And now I'm swamped w work for a huge meeting at the police headquarters tomorrow.
- me: I am sure you will hit it out of the park between your intellect and people skills. Got get 'em tiger! Hugs!
- Her: Ty babe hope your well
- me: I'm looking forward to hearing about it when you get a moment. On my end, am doing well - got another new client today, made $ 267 in 10 mins on stock market this morning, and am feeling all smiley to hear youre doing well and have just been swamped.
 - Her: Aweeee. Stock market huh? Admittedly I don't know much bout it.
- me: The stock market moves on the news. To be good at it, one needs: a calm-even temperament, patience, be good at recognizing patterns, and be willing to and have the time to do good research. My iq score shows a 99%+ level for pattern recognition, so that helps a lot. Lol.
- Her: Lol
- me: Now, if only I could figure out how to add and subtract without counting on my fingers heehee
- Her: Silly girl
- me: You know it sweety =D
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I'm feeling good about her, as much as one can from just one date and a few phone calls/texts. Bonus that she's bi and has a boyfriend, so likely wouldn't care if I have a boyfriend too. All good on paper so far, and I like her vibe and her looks so far.

So I caught (I think) the ms. "good love you" and "tell your family you want to marry me for your birthday next month" playing mindgames on me again. This time it was telling me she'd call me back in 10 minutes, and then still no word after 40 mins for the 2nd night in a row, and when I called her out on it, she said it's cuz she was on her computer and lost track of time. And earlier in the evening, she confirmed our plans for Weds and then a couple of hours later, changed in to Thurs.

Maybe it's minor - but in any event, people put their best foot forward during the first few dates. I don't jive well with people who are careless towards other people's time. Either it's mindgames, or carelessness. Either way, I'm out. I get the sense she is trying to assess if I'm the insecure sort that prefers co-dependent relationships. It aint me. And my gut feeling/intuition is rarely wrong. She seems to be into making out and giving signals that way, so if the opportunity arises on our next and likely final date, I'll make the most out of it in case she turns out to be a really good kisser with talented hands, and maybe keep her around for last minute sexy fun until something more real comes along, which shouldn't take long.

My date tonight was so-so - very similar intellectually and hobbies-wise, but I'm not all that sexually attracted to her, and her level of polyamourousness triggers my std-fears bigtime. I have another date tomorrow night (Tues). Might catch up w a bestfriend from high school who is in the USA only a short time on Weds. Then a date with ms. "good love you" on Thurs. I hope I line some more dates up soon. So tired of not having at least a girlfriend. Nov 1st is a 2nd date with a guy I went on one date with about a month ago (he travels A LOT for work).