The world of Hawksworth

Is this close to being over or just the beginning? I hope its just the beginning.......

Well The Forecast have a new cd coming out on may 30. This cd is definately gonna turn some heads, in a good way. If you look on the front cover u might see a familiar person. Thats cuz i am the cowboy on the front. Both cowboys to be exact.

as most of you already know i have a relatively new lovely gf. her name is courtney a.k.a fork. theres is something about her that always makes me happy. i mean cmon, ever since ive been with her ive been smiling non stop. it might be her sense of humor, her beatiful face, the way she holds me, kisses me, or maybe how shes just a silly kid. but im positive its all of the above and more, a whole lot more. you have all seen us together, we cant let go of eachother. my friends all like her which is a huge thing for me. i could go on and on about how amazing she is. i dont think ive been this happy ever in my life. and honestly........i hope this feeling never ends. WOWZERS!!!!

i used to hate it when it rained.........but recently ive been enjoying it.

looked at a house today.

it was an awesome 7 bedroom house.

we will most likely be getting it next week.

hung out with fork, rob, dan, zuzu, lindsey, krystin with a y, grabb, wilson and blasco at OC and at richards. ran into atomic and rad jose at richards.

good night in the end.

how was your night??

whats new with me

-new job
-19.00 an hour.....fuck ya bitch
-my friend sean rocks....hes a freak on the dance floor too
-cut my hair
-the forecast are in the studio......cant wait to here there new shit
-wish the forecast were back in town
-gonna get some tattoos
-will be moving out in march
-going to bed
-night everyone

BARE WITH ME ON THIS ENTRY, ITS A LONG ONE.....
SOOOOO..... im single now and have been for a little over 2 months, but havent posted since then. a lot of you probably thought emily and i would get married and always be together. that wont be the case. after 4 1/2 years of being with her, this last year was completely different than the rest. everything wasnt always as good as they were in the past. we'd argue for weeks and then be fine and that would happen over and over. i tried to fight it but after a while i started losing interest in her, mainly because she wasnt willing to fix anything. i realized i could find someone better and more like me.

it took about 3 months for me to break up with her cause i was indecisive, confused, angry, sad and wasnt really acting myself. but i finally did it and im glad it happened. the funny thing is she calls me more now than she did. i havent seen her since we broke up but we have talked on the phone. i dont plan on seeing her either cause i know she will most likely try to rape me, but it wont work, cause im strong like that.lol im not gonna hang out with her just to have sex like she would want to. im not the type of person. shes the only girl ive had sex with until now. and hopefully there will only be 1 more person(female that is) added to the list. im not down with getting with random girls, its just not me. it has to be someone special for me. im weird but thats fine with me.

as for now i wanna be single and just be with my friends and meet some new ones along the way. ive stuck with the not drinking anymore except for 1 night.

there is actually one girl who i am interested in at this time but......its a long story and weird one. it will most likely not work out, but if it did id be very happy and a lucky guy. i know she has no idea about this either.

i want a girl that is/likes/likes to:

-music
-going to shows(chicago, st. louis, iowa city or anywhere thats worth driving)
-chicago in general
-doesnt mind that by band sucks sometimes
-being with family
-being lazy
-to have fun
-my friends and hanging out with them
-just being with me no matter what were doing
-driving around for no reason
-not afraid to tell me whats on her mind
-barnes and nobles
-movies
-starbucks
-thrift stores
-doesnt care how i dress
-that my hair is ugly
-to enjoy the weather
-to travel

if you or anyone you know fits this list then tell me. i would just like to hang out with someone like this. i know its a long shot but its worth it. well if you read the whole thing i have one thing to say, thanks. and also if you read the whole thing you should post a comment that says "Your New Aesthetic" and whatever other comment you would like. then i know who read the whole thing. there will be a few of you who read it and dont post it cause you will be like "oh no i dont want nate to know i read this" or "im too cool for this." also the word you are typing is a song by jimmy eat world for all of you non scenesters out there. im out.

if any of you out there who are home from college now and want to hang out let me know. we will plan out a great night. heck we can even call it a date, even for the guys. oh yeah baby.

SOME SHAMELESS BAND PROMOTION. COME TO THIS SHOW. IT WILL SELL OUT. DO IT FOR ME.

well just got home from practice. ive worked everyday this week from 6am till 1pm. Its wore me out. Shannon is havin a cookout tomorrow before her and the rest of the forecast head back out on tour for another who knows how many months. it must be great to be signed by a nice label. we have a lot of shows in the next few months. we have a show or 2 every week until early december. mainly in central illinois, chicago and st. louis. We have a halloween show next friday Oct. 28 at pizza works with blame twilight and geisert 8 band. our friends the december drive from texas had to cancel cause of van problems. the show is a halloween show so everyone should dress up. plus u save a dollar. $5 or $4 w/costume. Then the week after that we have a show on nov. 5 in chicago. i plan on going up nov. 4 to a show. not sure if i wanna see the spitalfield show or the october fall......ive decided now. im gonna go to the spitalvield show. its there anniversary show with a shit load of good bands. i can see october fall some other time. i also want to see the hush sound, somerset and down to earth approach again. its been a while. now gotta see if anyone is goin with me. thats always the trouble, tryin to find someone to go with. im sure i can get sean to go. i told the band we should just go up a day early but they all werent down with that. oh well ill end up there somehow i hope. anyone have any big plans for tomorrow night. i wanna do something fun and new. ive also quit drinking. seeing that i havent drank in a while anways. it does nothing and cost too much money. i have just as much fun when im sober and other people are drunk. i just make fun of them instead. ill still hang out with people who are drinking but i wont be one of them. ill just stick with my water.
****feel free to call me. if u dont know my number and want it just ask.**** dont be scurred.

Wow, may was the last time i updated. well since then i have been working 2 jobs, playing shows with the band and have also been on tour since then, sleeping, hanging out with my friends, drove around for hours listening to music and going to shows. so basically im a scene kid, u happy i admit it. geeez ill be updating more often, just like i said in the past. now its shower time.

im drunk

im tired

im goin to bed.



the end................